Exploring with Friends

Way ahead of ya - just need to get in. 😃

Well you know @Cedar and @Dahiana are right @Lora_C. I hope your dizzy spells have not been happening for too long but you need to get yourself checked. I am not going to stop asking you until you do.

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Lora,

You are such an amazing women in so many ways. Tom and Cedar have to be 2 of the luckiest men in the world to have you in their lives.

I continue to keep you and Tom in my prayers.

T

I have been watching and reading 'exploring with friends' and added it to my watch list however I'm concerned how Cedar is. I feel an affinity with that group and I'm envious at how well that group get on so well together. Hoping that someone has good news for me. Regards, irrigator333

I have been watching and reading 'exploring with friends' and added it to my watch list however I'm concerned how Cedar is. I feel an affinity with that group and I'm envious at how well that group get on so well together. Hoping that someone has good news for me. Regards, irrigator333

@irrigator333 thank you for asking - and I love that you are following, it's been interesting the past few weeks. Cedar 🌹 He's doing pretty good, but busy as usual and I haven't had near the time I would with Him, especially with some quality enema time. We manage to eek out a few minutes - here and there but no where near what I would like to have with Him. I would love - to be able to spend at the very least, an entire night with Him. 🌹

I've also had some 'issues' - over extending myself, and being stupid about not getting enough sleep, or rest, and trying to do too much in too little time and trying to go it alone. Not a smart move on my part - especially since I have friends such as

@Tom isn't doing all that great - the cancer and the chemo, just don't seem to be allowing his body to recover like we would like it to. As a lot of people here - and everywhere really, know is that cancer is an insidious disease, and Tom's cancer can only be treated, not cured. We are both like - WTF? Blood tests out the ass - doctor's appointments, consultations, and on and on and on, and we have to travel a good piece just to get to some of the appointments. The treatments - and everything associated with them, are taking a heavy toll on us, Tom especially. It's constant pressure - 24/7/365 and trying to come to terms with, living, 🌹 and getting the most out of it, sometimes seems just out of reach.

Tom & I are going to be - doing a lot of traveling between treatments, when possible, and making those memories. We did one of those - glamour shoots where @gibby & Pete photographed Tom & me making love and enjoying the hell out of each other before this latest round of treatment started, and before it became 'official' that things are, well, taking their course. Those - homemade porn films and pictures, are priceless to us and if they fall into our kids' hands, then they will have to use their inheritance on psychological help to get over the trauma of seeing what they would see. 😉 😁

Tom is continuing to work - he says if he stops trying to live, and living as he always has, that it will catch up to him sooner. That's code talk - for something we aren't ready to admit yet, and we aren't. I do a lot of work - down at Beth Anne's Brothel, Enema Emporium and Flower Boutique. 😉 I haven't done as much catering - because of some concerns of my own which seem to be at bay for right now.

I don't get to spend as much time - as I would like with @Cedar but when I do, it is just what the doctor ordered. 🌹 I should find the time - to write about it, and I will someday but over in His and my 'bedroom' at 'A FRIENDSHIP CHANGES'.

Lora,

You are such an amazing women in so many ways. Tom and Cedar have to be 2 of the luckiest men in the world to have you in their lives.

I continue to keep you and Tom in my prayers.

T

@tjaj - I am the lucky one to have them in my life, and in spite of it all, Tom & I consider ourselves lucky. There's not much - if anything left on our bucket list that we haven't done. 😉

Life is just what it is - it goes on regardless of what happens to you, so while you're here, live.

@Lora_C, I can only wish the best for Tom and you, even as he struggles with his cancer and its ravages on both of you. Please care for yourself, for you have to survive this battle. My love to you both and your extended family.

@Lora_C ??❤️❤️ ,

Tom & I 🌹 - have been taking some spur of the moment trips whenever the mood hits us. 😁 We've been doing the things - that we always said we would do when we had the time, and now is that time. We grew up in different states - and on one of our trips we visited his old haunts and I got to see where he went to school, where he wrecked his first bicycle, the barn he jumped off of, and where the old hamburger stand used to be. We even found some of his - boyhood buddies and one of his old girlfriends, of which I make her look like a dog. 😉

He also showed me - where 'Lover's Lane' was and his favorite place to park-n-spark and I went down on him. We were the oldest couple - almost, that the cops ever interrupted, I don't think they have a lot to do, or maybe it was because Tom had his foot on the brake. 😁 😁 😁 😁 😳 They left us to the rest of our evening - 😈 and we made good use of the back seat. 😈 The only thing - is that it was so hot and humid, and we would have finished up outside but the mosquitoes were out in force.

Then back home - for some treatments and reality.

The next little road trip we took - was out to my old stomping grounds, I found our old house, our old farm, which now has a subdivision on the 'up-east 40'. The old IOOF hall - was still there where there were some dances that I would go to. I showed Tom - all of my old 'hiding spots' where I would take a boy, I was a wild child back then. I even found some old girlfriends - who we swore would never forget each other, and caught up on some old time. I took Tom - up to the 'Rock & Oak' bluff on our old farm and fucked his lights out. I even took him - to the lakes and on the docks and walkouts, some of where I did a few poses. 😉

We've done a lot of - fuckin' and suckin' on our trips, but we just don't stay up as late as we used too. But as nice as the - old memories are, we always were ready to come back home to the grand kids. And - the treatments.

This last time - we drove most of the night, and went straight to Beth Anne's because it was real early in the morning, on a Wednesday, and we knew that she would be there opening up the shop. Her fella - was out doing something or probably off looking after his dad, but we found her there and she showed us upstairs and she and Tom took a shower together to get off some of the road grime and she also helped him get a little relief. While she and Tom - were 'taking a nap' 😉 I went downstairs and got things ready for opening for her when she was ready to come down. 😃

When Beth Anne came down the stairs - we brewed up some coffee and she brought me up to speed, seems Cedar 🌹 had been over a few hours before we got here, and they had a good time. 😃 🌹 She pointed out the fact - that it was getting close to time for Cedar to be opening up His offices and that maybe I could scoot on over and say hello. That sly woman - even said that Cedar's text said He had left His house and we figured He should just about be there. She added - that as far as she knew, and unless I had told Him, He didn't know I was back. 😉

So - 🌹 I took a stroll of about two blocks, and said 'hello' 🌹 We were both happy to see each other 🌹 🌹 - my coffee tasted even better when I got back to Ruth Anne's.

We let Tom sleep - he was way tired, and Beth Anne and I played 'grab ass' for most of the morning. 😈 When noon time came around - Tom & I moseyed off towards home to get some laundry going, I was missing a bra and a pair of panties, but so was Beth Anne. 😈

Later that night - Beth Anne & Steve came by the house. Beth Anne told us that she had a couple - show up after she closed, and they 'talked', and that later after they left, Steve rolled up about an hour later and they touched base 😉 with each other. 😈 Beth Anne had a pretty busy - 24 hours and she still smelled like roses. 😁

We all stayed at our house - and watched Beth Anne nod off, but we didn't draw any funny faces on her. We didn't have any Sharpies 😉 - so that's probably why. 😁 But when morning came - we all had a naked breakfast, and Steve went on towards his house, Tom crawled back in bed.

Beth Anne and I - then went into town, a couple of hours early, and spent most of the time before opening up shop in the upstairs bed naked and showered afterwards. 🌹 We didn't bother with bras and panties - and I just put on a blouse and she put on a very light pullover sweater and we both just threw on our smocks and called it good for the day. My daughter - DD took the kids over to see grand dad and Beth Anne's Steve made a quick run up to drop something business related off in another town.

That left me and Beth Anne - some time to go upstairs, where we took what little we had off, enjoyed being naked and looking forward to some quality time, but must have fallen asleep and were awakened by our phones going off with texts from our guys wanting to know if we wanted to go out to eat. 😉

Beth Anne and I - opted to pick something up on the way home, my place, and call it an early night. Beth Anne wanted a night with Tom - and I sure missed Steve, and all of us were tired and it was a nice night. 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹

Tom & I - are going to take another road trip fairly soon, after this next treatment and when he feels up to it. We may even head up towards - Gibby & Pete's to see how those two are doing, but who knows? 😉 We're just free - to cum and go as we please.

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Tom & I - are going to take another road trip fairly soon, after this next treatment and when he feels up to it. We may even head up towards - Gibby & Pete's to see how those two are doing, but who knows? 😉 We're just free - to cum and go as we please.

@Lora_C just let us know when you are going to cum up this way ... we'll leave a light on for you and we are looking forward to seeing you both. 🌹

@Lora_C, what an amazing narrative. All of us are drooling!!

Beth Anne & Steve were over for breakfast - nothing special, just something we do, and usually we sit and gab about what we are going to do the rest of the day. Tom had a pretty rough night - Beth Anne picked up on how he was feeling 🌹 and took him to 'their' room for some cuddle time. Steve & I - did up the dishes and put everything away, and I offered to go down on him 🌹 while Tom & Beth Anne had their time.

As I was enjoying Steve - I felt his hands in my hair and how he was holding my head, and his body position, and when I looked up into his face, he had a sort of far away look. Like he had something on his mind - like he could use a hug, so I took him over to the couch in the side room off of my kitchen, and we had a nice little missionary 'hug' and a sweet release. Not a - fireworks orgasm on my part, but oh so sweet and some perfect 'cuddle time' afterwards. 🌹

So now it's off to the shop - but it was just nice how things happen out of the blue. 🌹

I like how your disgusting fetishes and perversions have brought you all so sweetly together. It's really nice to see a group of friends having such a wonderfully intimate relationship. 🌹 🌹 🌹

I like how your disgusting fetishes and perversions have brought you all so sweetly together. It's really nice to see a group of friends having such a wonderfully intimate relationship. 🌹 🌹 🌹

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I spent the night at the flower shop - with Beth Anne 🌹 since Tom was feeling good enough to go inspect some wells with Steve, so that left Beth Anne and I alone for the weekend. 😃 Actually we spent the better part of the weekend down here - and used the upstairs instead of going home because our guys weren't there and we just didn't feel like being alone. And this room - is nice since we fixed it up, cozy, and since we were able to clean off 50 or 60 years of crud off of the skylight, laying in bed with her and looking up into the night is nice.

It gives you time to think - but not be alone while you do it, and have the comfort of someone who knows about you and what you are going through. We can say things to each other - about our guys, our family, our friends, without fear of putting the burden we feel back onto them and maybe causing some guilt. It's good to have someone - to talk to and maybe vent a little, and who understands. Beth Anne has told me - and we've made a little deal between us, that this room upstairs above the flower shop, is a clothing optional place for us to go to let our hair down, (now that mine has grown back 😉 ) and get away from our troubles for awhile. She's seen a couple of commercials - about a gal who has a 'SHE SHED' in the back of her yard, so Beth Anne is calling this her 'SHE SHED'. I think - we should call it her - 'LUST LOFT' and she is thinking about it. 😉 I think it's kind of catchy myself - so time will tell on that.

It's times like this - with Tom and all, and Beth Anne's husband having to be gone a lot, that I'm very glad that I took the chance with Gibby that first time. 🌹 I don't know if I liked girls all along - and if I didn't, then Gibby can take credit for converting me, and showing me that there is more to life than just a man's penis, which I really really love. 😈 If it hadn't been for Cedar - and our enemas, I may not have got the opportunity to try sex with Gibby, and without Gibby, I wouldn't have caught fire like I did, and in turn lit Tom's fire, too. 🌹 🌹 🌹 And without all that - I may never have known that Beth Anne was and is the woman who just reinforces that old saying '- it's the quiet ones - 😈 ' that will surprise you. 😁 😁 😁

Our quiet time - or alone time in her 'LUST LOFT' is a place where we can go and just try to figure out why things are as they are, or just forget about trying to figure it out. With her - it's easy to forget about trying to figure it out because Beth Anne knows exactly what to do with an enema bag, a couple of double dongs, and oh how she knows her way around a woman's body, even if it does sometimes snap, crackle, and pop when I move. 😉 😁 Many times when we two - fuck, it isn't all about a headboard banging orgasm, or screaming releases, that explode inside of my body with white sparks. No - this weekend, while I may not have had 'wall banger' orgasms, Beth Anne gave me those wave after wave kind that just put you on that warm sandy beach and rolls you around and around, before taking you back out into the deep warm water and sets you up on another wave. 🌹 🌹 🌹

Fucking another woman - cuddling with her, and crying with her, especially a woman, a friend, that Beth Anne is, is something no man can do or touch. I can cry my heart out to her - and she won't try to fix it, or protect me, or make me understand, she is just there and knows, what to say and not to say. 🌹 🌹 🌹 But there is a guy - who is also this way but, sometimes He is still a guy 🌹 and you just have to appreciate that they are your friends. 🌹 🌹 🌹 I'm lucky in a lot of ways that I have friends like these - like her and Him, who seem to just know when to touch my core, mentally, emotionally, physically and not feel that they have to preface their touch, they just know that they can and they do. I don't have to be in the mood - and neither do they. 🌹 🌹 🌹

Like today - there has been a couple of times when Beth Anne will just reach into my smock, and there her fingers slip inside, and she gives me a quick kiss, before trotting off with me wanting more. 😧 She's evil that way - 😈 But I return the favor - and leaving her to simmer, and hearing her make some threat or plea or something about hoping I had washed my hands and that 'there'd better not have been any MiracleGro' on my fingers when I slipped them into her. 😈 😈 🌹

MiracleGro - is good for 'Fire Bushes' 😁 😁 😁 🌹 🌹 🌹

Lora, I love your description of two incredible human beings merging their identities, their loves and their lusts. May you always have such indelible relationships!

Pete & I went to visit @Lora_C and Tom over the President's Day weekend ... and I have got to say that Lora really ... REALLY ... knows how to get the most out of her men. 😈 I seriously am amazed ... and a little bit jealous ... ok ... a lot ... on how she can and does ... coax (?) ... a man, my husband Pete specifically ... into a zone or mind space or whatever you want to call it ... and make them believe they are 20 year old studs. We've videoed her with her different men ... and I have studied ... yes really studied ... just what it is that she does with her hands ... her movements of her body ... even her little gestures and facial expressions to try to see just what it is about this woman that makes the man she is with go past any limitations they might have.

Some of you may know that my husband ... Pete ... has type 2 diabetes and that there are sometimes performance ... issues ... because of it. Our lack of understanding of what the disease does nearly ended our marriage ... but good old fashioned communication between the two of us brought us back. Sure we sometimes have some ... redirections ... but we know it isn't because of how we feel about each other and we enjoy each other regardless. 🌹 And things have only been better since Pete & I became involved with two other couples ... Lora & Tom 🌹 ... and their long time friends ... Beth Anne & Steve. We even went on vacation together at a nude resort ... and that is where I began to suspect that Lora has supernatural powers and Pete swears that she can raise the dead. 😉 😁 He's right 😉

When Pete & I want to do anal ... we prepare me for him and we also ... dose him up ... with the little blue pill and we make sure that there are plenty of visual ... sensual ... enhancers so that we can get him hard enough to take me anally. Eight or 9 times out of 10 ... it works for us but it isn't really spontaneous the majority of the times but we stopped letting that bother us. 🌹 But that isn't a problem for Lora ... and no matter how many times I watch the videos of her with her man ... or with Pete ... there is something she does that just isn't caught on camera for whatever reason. Pete tells me that he really can't explain it ... and I believe him ... but Lora ... makes it happen 🌹 ... and her men sometimes don't even know how they got there. They just did ... they just do ... and Lora has to be either a magician ... or a witch ... or a hypnotist. 😁 😁 😉

I have to wonder if her men ... experience her the way I do when she and I fuck. One minute Lora and I are just talking ... and the next minute I feel like I am in some other world with her the only one there ... and when the earth stops moving I'm naked with this other naked woman and I'm feeling all sorts of ... WOW 😎 ... and she looks like the cat that ate the canary. 😉 😈 But in an innocent way ... 😘

I slept with Tom in his bed all four nights we were visiting them ... and Pete was with Lora in the other bed ... and she was doing her magic with him. For some reason ... neither of our guys wanted to let Lora and I spend an entire night or two together in the same bed while they slept in the same bed. 😁 😁 😁 😁 I loved being in bed with Tom ... cuddling ... and talking about anything and everything ... he gives an excellent enema and is on course for being one of the better men I know when it comes to going down on me. 😉 He has a wicked tongue and fingers ... 😈 ... and is really a very very skilled pervert. 🌹 😈

He might even be better than Lora when it comes to that ... 😉 😁 😁 😁 🌹

Ok, Gibby, you have totally blown my mind!! 😉 😉 😉 At this stage of my life, one year post-soulmate yesterday, finding even one companion to join me has been an impossible task. Either that or I am just too particular!

Ok, Gibby, you have totally blown my mind!! 😉 😉 😉 At this stage of my life, one year post-soulmate yesterday, finding even one companion to join me has been an impossible task. Either that or I am just too particular!

Or too shy? 😉 🌹

... and that is where I began to suspect that Lora has supernatural powers and Pete swears that she can raise the dead. 😉 😁 He's right 😉

... there is something she does that just isn't caught on camera for whatever reason. Pete tells me that he really can't explain it ... and I believe him ... but Lora ... makes it happen 🌹 ... and her men sometimes don't even know how they got there. They just did ... they just do ... and Lora has to be either a magician ... or a witch ... or a hypnotist. 😁 😁 😉

I have to wonder if her men ... experience her the way I do when she and I fuck. One minute Lora and I are just talking ... and the next minute I feel like I am in some other world with her the only one there ... and when the earth stops moving I'm naked with this other naked woman and I'm feeling all sorts of ... WOW 😎 ... and she looks like the cat that ate the canary. 😉 😈 But in an innocent way ... 😘

@gibby

It actually isn't a big secret or something magical, even though it feels like magic in the moment and certainly after the fact. I certainly don't know Lora nor have I experienced her the way that you (collectively) have, but I do know what it is that seems to elude the description that you or others try to describe (and it IS a limitation of language to describe IT, whatever IT IS. It is a like describing balance in riding a bicycle to someone else who has ridden a bicycle. There is a shared experience, but it is something that can elude description. It is even more difficult to explain it to someone who has never ridden a bicycle). That being said...

It isn't what Lora does (though it is the WHAT that most would look for and the what does reveal itself in something that Lora "does"). It is who she is, or more directly, who she is being in the moment. She is present moment to moment to moment and she is this so effortlessly that she (and you) aren't even aware of it. And in this way of being, she also creates a path for you to see and experience her for who she is, but also a path to see and experience yourself in a way that reflects who you really are (to yourself and to her).

And at its very best, each and every time seems "new" while at the same time being warmly familiar. She isn't reliving a past experience in a present moment (ever notice how difficult that is) though the past might provide information (like how to deal with diabetic men). Instead, each experience might have familiarity and it is created anew. It might be (after the fact) better than some past experience and yet, in the moment, there is a timelessness, like time stops. If you "notice" in that moment, you stop comparing (which requires a sense of time and space) and you (and her) are all that IS and even that seems blurred. It may seem a cliche, but in those moments, you are truly one and nothing and no one else exists. And to reference another metaphor that has been used, the mask behind which we hide to have the world see us in a certain way that we've actually trained them to do, falls away to allow ourselves to be truly seen.

There is one other critical aspect to this and I've read this a number of places throughout the various threads...each one of you open to this and are ultimately responsible for your own pleasure, satisfaction and orgasm. That is a great gift and takes the distraction of obligation away. For someone like Lora (and something that each of can learn), that allows her to give fully and completely of herself without the obligation of satisfying you (or someone else) and at the same time you are released from the obligation of satisfying her. It takes away the meanings we assign to practically everything in our lives. In those moments of pure intimacy, it is pure giving of one's self and it is entirely meaningless...it's simply WHAT IS...lacking words in the moments of that experience. It is only after it occurs that we attempt to give words that we can then relate to. It is a state of being unimaginable to be related to and with through language.

It may not make sense at first and yet, if you think about it, this is the magic that you experience. In that sense, I know Lora.

@Enema_Runner ... you are so close ... 🌹 and I loved your post. 😃 When @Lora_C finally decides to be naked with you ... she knows everything about you. 😉 She's ... got skills 😉 😁 🌹

@Enema_Runner ... you are so close ... 🌹 and I loved your post. 😃 When @Lora_C finally decides to be naked with you ... she knows everything about you. 😉 She's ... got skills 😉 😁 🌹

Yes, I recognize that and have for the last couple of years as I've watched this all unfold from afar. Thank you (all) for sharing.

I'm getting back into my life - in a limited way but I am working back into the 'swing' 😉 of things little by little. Right now - I'm at Beth Anne's flower shop and minding the store while she gets rid of the enema we were giving her this morning. It's Monday - and a little slow at the moment, so I wanted to give Beth Anne an enema and also poke around here in zity while I gave it to her. 🌹 I've been helping her with her delivery nights - nothing heavy or strenuous but it is so nice to be able to reconnect with her on so many levels. Ruthie - of Ruthie & Dave fame, has been helping out with Tom and doing the blood draws and some of the therapy he needs. It's giving me a break - in a way, and it helps a lot with my mood and outlook on life. Of course 😕 - it seems that Dave is turning Thursday mornings into a time to 'do my ass' bent over the kitchen table. And really - I do like it in my ass and Dave does it pretty good, but with a condom, which is fine with him. Ruthie & Dave - are not much into enemas but they will do them but it is just not their thing.

Ruthie checks on Tom in the mornings - and if she isn't on a shift or 'traveling' she will hang out with Tom, they go way back and they are very comfortable with each other. She's a good listener - and she also tells Tom about her life too, it's a two way street with them, and I'm glad Tom has that connection with her. 🌹 Meanwhile in the kitchen - 🙄 I'm bent over the kitchen table getting it in my ass by good ol' Dave 😄 and trying to keep my tits out of the butter or the morning dishes. I've asked Dave - why the kitchen and why me over the table? I don't think Dave really knows - and while it's not 'wowie zowie' for me, I do enjoy it and for a little bit I've got this guy in my butt 😉 doing it for all he's worth. Bless his little heart - 😁 😁 😁

We have a lot of people dropping by - to see how Tom is doing and to lend a hand or bring by a dish to help out. We have tons of friends - and they have been supportive and understanding and almost always call before they drop by. Who knows - maybe the UPS lady told some of them about some of the 'strange' deliveries she has made to us in the past. 😁 😁 😁 And in the mornings - I look like shit before I've had a gallon of coffee ORALLY and my hair, what there is of it, looks like a rats nest. It doesn't seem to bother ol' Dave though - but then he's fucking me in the ass and not having to look at my face.

But Beth Anne & Steve - they are Tom & my main people that are there for us. Steve will do anal - but we like the missionary in bed with lots of touching and holding and cuddling. He's a great comfort - but with Beth Anne, I'm glad I 'crossed over' and I am so into her as a friend and I am so lucky. 🌹 It's all good with her 🌹 - and I'm glad her Steve is back at home more and they are making up for lost time. 😈 She gives a great enema - and while Steve and I love to fuck each other, he's not that much into enemas, or me going down on him, but what we have and enjoy is very very nice. 🌹 🌹

It looks like the store is getting a little busier - and this phone too, so I'd better close this off and get back to the store. Beth Anne is back down - from her enema break, and it looks like she left her pants upstairs 😈 and is just wearing her blouse and smock and those suspender tights she loves. I will have to check 😈 - to see if she is wearing her bra. I may get lucky with her tonight - if she keeps kissing me on the neck like she just did and doing a reach in to fondle my girls. 😈

Got to go - 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹

@Lora_C welcome back ,??❤️.

Dave 😕 - of Ruthie & Dave fame sure thinks he's a suave and debonair stud boat who can charm the pants off of any woman he meets. 😉 It's Thursday - and Ruthie comes over to do some blood draws on Tom and Dave is with her. We all had breakfast - and good ol' Dave is handsy as usual and oh so sly 😉 and subtle with his 'moves'. 😁 He was probably thinking - that he would have to 'work for it' because I was all dressed and ready to go in to help Beth Anne at the shop. It's not like I say 'no' - to him and probably won't either, but this morning I just got a little bit ahead of myself and was all dressed for work when Nurse Feratu, as Tom calls her, came by for her gallon of blood from him. Tom will call Ruthie that - Nurse Feratu, and she smiles obligingly like she's NEVER heard that one before. 🙄

But she and Tom - go into the bedroom and she has her little carrying tray thing and and cooler while I finished clearing the table. The last week has been wearing on Tom - and I may have overlooked or not thought about it like I should, about how Dave likes to 'do my ass' when he's over. I like it and it feels good - Dave has to wear a condom and so I don't have to worry about leakage and like I said, it just feels real good and I get mine while he 'works his magic' back there and takes credit for my orgasm. 😉 😁 But I threw him a curve ball this morning - by being dressed and having Tom on my mind along with a thousand other things just like other people have. Dave's got things on his plate too - and not meaning to, I was adding to his list of WTF items, but I really don't like doing that to my guys. 😢 If I'm fucking a guy - they are a friend and I like them and they mean something to me, otherwise, I'm not going to fuck them. No - not at all.

And despite Dave's - sometimes boorish bravado, he's a decent guy deep down, and he, and Ruthie, have been there for us when all is being said and done. I like Dave - and I do tease him, give him a hard time and kid with him because he asks for it 😉 but he's a good man and when you cut to the chase, he's a good friend, no shit no sugar. And I saw that little - fast flash of hurt or WTF go through his eyes when he thought that maybe he wasn't going to get me this morning and I knew that maybe I took it a little too far.

He's a good guy - and I dispensed with the good natured banter stuff, the coy little back and forth that people do to make it 'fun', and got a condom from the drawer where I keep them. I got his pants down - and his cock nice and ready and stroked it while I was putting the condom on him. I don't think we said anything - or not much, and I think we both understood that as far as days go, this wasn't one of the best either of us was having so far. The condom was on Dave's cock - it was nice and stiff and I like the look and feel of it in my hands. Down came my pants - and panties, we hugged each other and a nice little kiss, and I turned around and bent over the kitchen table. 🌹

I love it 🌹 - with Dave back there, like he's been quite a few times, and this time he reaches down and around and he's going to do the work for me on my clit. 😃 🌹 🌹 I don't have to do anything - except lay my head on my crossed arms and enjoy the ride. 🌹 It feels so good - and I am thinking about things, Tom, 🌹 @Cedar 🌹 my guys 🌹 🌹 , and how Dave is doing a pretty decent job on my clit. 😈 As a matter of fact - a real good job on my clit 😈 pretty damned wow 😈 😈 and doesn't this feel good in my ass 😈 😈 😈 Dave' gets me there - he gets me off, a couple of times, before I feel him getting his, and as he is finishing in me, getting the rest of his, me getting some 'aftershocks' of my own again, I'm having impure thoughts, like how I want to go down on @Cedar sometime today.

And then I'm back - in my kitchen, with Dave breathing, huffing and puffing, like a steam engine behind me and how I think we both really needed that. 😉 🌹 Ruthie walks out after finishing with Tom - and Dave is still softening in my ass but we are done for all intents and purposes with fucking me in my ass, and asks me if I want to drive into town with her or whether Dave was headed that way? Ruthie goes right by - Beth Anne's shop on her way to the hospital to drop off Tom's blood, and Dave sometimes has other directions to go, so we decide that I go in with Ruthie today.

We're talking about this - as Dave pulls out of my ass, takes care of his condom, and I pull up my pants right there in front of Ruthie who is also adjusting her scrubs top and messing with her bra. Like this is so normal 😮 - WTF?

I go in to kiss Tom goodbye for the day - 🌹 🌹 🌹 and those kisses, these kisses, mean so much to me, just because life is what it is, and nothing is for certain. I see where Ruthie - had gone down on Tom, and even though he may or may not be able to get or maintain an erection, he loves to have his cock sucked 🌹 and there's always a little something to get, and Ruthie got what she could from Tom. I tell Tom what I'm going to be doing - I'll be close to the phone, DD & Tanner will be dropping by, my sisters are in town and will be over, Tom rolls his eyes at that 🙄 , 😁 😁

And I feel like bawling - but I don't but it sucks not being able to take anything for granted anymore, like posting this and being around to read it or comments at the end of the day.

The ride into town with Ruthie - we are way past any pretenses and she's a nurse or nurse practitioner and has been for years, and she's seen it all, and knows about when things are coming to an end, and has been there for that, and is there. With us. She tells me about Tom - how his chest sounded, his bowel sounds, the fluid in his eyes, gums, tongue, veins when she made her 'sticks' and 'draws', his muscle tone, how warm or cool his fingers felt when he touched her breasts, or ran his hands down the sides of her body, or his steadiness when she lay back for him to kiss her between her legs, and whether he was able to hold his head steady or not, and how well he did when she slipped her finger in for a DRE, and if he could bear down on her finger. And most of all - how he tasted when she went down on him and got what she could from him.

However - Tom's tongue was still first rate. 😉 😈 🌹 And we got a chuckle out of that - but it is true. 😉 🌹 🌹 🌹

Ruthie and I fuck - and I know all of the little inflections in her voice and when she tries to have her eyes dart away so my desperate as fuck reality sucks glances don't get to her. 🌹 I think she tells herself - that she has to look everywhere but me while she is driving. I get it - she's a nurse and sometimes caring sucks. And so she quizzes me - about Dave when he fucked me in my ass.

I asked her what was going on with him - that he wasn't the cocky lil arrogant asshole he usually is. That we just pretty much - had to have it with each other but were glad there wasn't much talking. Their daughter is getting a divorce - the asshole she's married to beat the fuck out of her on Tuesday, and she had the sheriff serve his ass and told him to pack his shit. How she could - make it look like natural causes 😁 😈 😁 and I don't think we were really laughing that much. Beth Anne has a 'body sized' freezer - and a wood chipper, and that maybe she could use some food for her roses. Her son in law is a dick - I never liked the little bastard and his mom thinks his shit doesn't stink.

Of course - we were just kidding about the natural cause shit, the freezer, the wood chipper. 🙄 Yes - just kidding.

In a couple of weeks ... Pete & I will be hosting two very beautiful couples for a week of ... 😉 being naked 😉 . We have a fairly big ... and somewhat secluded home that sits on a once working ranch. We still rent out ... some of the land near the river for cattle and horse grazing ... but for the most part we have it all to ourselves and we like it that way. I can ... and do ... spend a lot of time in the nude when not doing portraiture ... or other photo shoots ... in our studio and our ... locations ... that many people like for out of doors shoots.

We've had @Lora_C and Tom here ... as well as Beth Anne and Steve ... for their ... memory maker ... or magic moments ... intimate shoots and we enjoyed having them here ... even if it was far too short. But 🌹 ... in a couple of weeks we well have them here for an entire week 🌹 and Pete & I are looking forward to having them. We've become very ... very ... close with these wonderful couples and want to have them in our home ... just so we can enjoy them and who they have become to us. 🌹

There is a river bed behind our studio ... that is dry most of the time ... or when there is water in it ... there is a nice bit of the bed that I make a morning run on sometimes before the sun comes up. I love the run ... and it is a path where my sons and I would walk ... and explore ... when they were younger. Most of the time ... I would referee their ... disputes ... along the way and I watched them grow up. There is a stand of trees at the ... half way point a mile and a half or so from the studio ... where ... when I run I turn around and go back home. Skuter runs with me ... and before him ... Dawg 🌹 would pace me and look out for killer bunnies 😉 ... and protect me from the dangerous blue jays. 😁

Pete & I love these people and they have had a positive effect on our lives ... we are very much looking forward to having them here for the week ... or more ... where we can keep the rest of the world out for a little while. Hopefully @Lora_C can teach me how to be a better cook ... or help me to find the microwave owner's manual ... which is probably up on some top shelf put there by Pete ... so that I wouldn't cook for him. 😉

I really love these people ... 🌹 🌹 🌹 ... and I am looking forward to sharing a bed and some alone time with Tom 🌹 ... as well as with Beth Anne's Steve 🌹 ... they are some fantastic men and the women who love them are very lucky. 🌹 I will also enjoy being with @Lora_C again ... I always do 🌹 ... and the ... quiet one 🙄 ... Beth Anne. IF I was told to pick out ... a firey sex goddess who has no shame ... Beth Anne would have been my last pick. 😈 Beth Anne ... just does not look the part ... but @Lora_C ... oh hell yesss! 😁 🌹 😁 🌹 😁 🌹 The glint in her eye ... alone ... would give her away. 😉

It's going to be a ... belated birthday gathering for @Lora_C ... and also an anniversary celebration ... for her and her ... lil bowlegged guy ... 🌹 🌹 🌹

So ... it's about 2 weeks and counting. 🌹 🌹 🌹

That sounds like a great get together. I've never met any of these folks but they all sound like they are terrific. Have a great time!

It's going to be a ... belated birthday gathering for @Lora_C ... and also an anniversary celebration ... for her and her ... lil bowlegged guy ...

So ... it's about 2 weeks and counting.

My birthday isnt too far away and l love running!!!! ?? And according to others l dont cook just too bad!!! No one has had to go to the hospital, YET!!!! LMAO!!!

@Lora_C, we'll keep a light on for you and Tom. 🌹

It's time to move on. 🌹

Bye zity.biz.

@Lora_C, we'll keep a light on for you and Tom. 🌹

It's time to move on. 🌹

Bye zity.biz.

Let's not get too crazy here. Be calm people.

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