It's way after midnight here - and I'm sitting up in the front room with a reading lamp behind me with a soft white light bulb. I've got the rattiest - sorry excuse of a robe on, typing away on this iPad, and I've been debating on whether to write Tom another love letter or spook around here for a while as Tom's cooling cap, gets ready. So I'm going to do both 🌹 - because I am here in the house, it's quiet, and Tom is in our bedroom trying to get some rest. We've begun another round of chemo - and it is taking its toll on this lil bowlegged guy that I adore with all of my heart. The cap is new - or sort of new, we tried it during the last course, supposedly to help lessen hair loss, but the effect we like the best is that it lessens the nightmares Tom has because of the 'fever' the chemo causes him.
It's supposed to be less - by night, we get him started in the mornings, when we do the courses, but it doesn't always work. Before the caps - and Tom would be laying next to me, I would listen to him breathe, and I can always tell when he begins to sleep, but with the chemo, it isn't long until I hear and feel him getting in to a nightmare. I don't want to wake him - even though I don't think he gets rest, but he doesn't remember the nightmares and whatever rest he can get helps. I've been going down on Tom - at the very least, once a day since the last course of chemo, when I found out that, at night during the last round, I would put Tom in my mouth while he 'slept' and I could feel him calm down. I didn't know if it would work - or if I would wake him, but I put him in my mouth, not to suck him off, but just to let him feel me, and hope that somehow, he would know I was there, in his dreams, and make the fear go away. And I think it was working. But by then - that course was done, and we were on break until the markers start back up and we have to go back.
This cooling cap - has been a great thing, because it keeps his head cool, and the nightmares don't hit him. But I insist - that I 'suck him to sleep' while he wears the cap, especially at the first when it is coldest, and right now I'm alternating from bawling my eyes out, to being pissed. And I wish that these fucking allergies - would go away and maybe I wouldn't like I have to do the slo-mo to stand up out of this chair
Back - I thought I heard Tom stirring a little bit, but his breathing was pretty even, it's been a couple of hours since I started this love letter 🌹 to the greatest lil guy with the biggest heart. 🌹 Too bad I'm not on my phone - I'd put about a million hearts right here. 😃
Tom likes to see me naked - and he really likes to see me naked doing the dumbest shit on the planet. He can't take his eyes off of me - if I'm vacuuming the floors, or washing the dishes or putting them away, folding clothes, making place settings, flower arrangements, just as long as I'm naked. 🌹 And who am I kidding - I fucking love it! 🌹 🌹 🌹 I've probably got the cleanest carpet - in any living room in the USA. 😁 😁 😁 When I come home - I take my clothes off, and that is the last I will wear them, he will watch me cook, chop the carrots, mix the batter, and I have so many things on the bottom shelf of the fridge 😈 or up high on the in the cabinets, which because of these dizzy spells, I don't do that a whole lot more, but since I'm already naked, he doesn't have to look up my robe or skirt. Panties - I don't remember what they feel like. 😉
And Tanner & DD - they only have to call if they are bringing the grandkids over, and I will put something on, otherwise if they get a wild hare up their ass to come over, if I'm naked, that's their problem. 😉 For sure - I'm not paying for their fucking trauma therapy! You'd think they'd learn - after the enema incident. 😁
Back - it's getting to be time to look at getting a fresh cap out of the freezer for Tom. But not yet - he is sleeping, and his cap feels still cool enough and he isn't showing signs of nightmares yet. I love him so much - oh yeah, he likes watching me pay the bills while I'm naked. 😉 I do some of the book work - with a yellow DIXON TICONDEROGA 1388-3 HARD wooden pencil, the kind that @gibby told us she likes to slip into her cute ass and has been doing so since she was 6 years old. Which reminds me - Gibby & Pete 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 will be down in a week to do some photo shoots. One of the shoots will be with - Beth Anne & Steve, and then DD & Tanner later on that week. And since I am now - officially a porn star 😎 yeah, and Tom too 😉 we are being asked for pointers.
And seriously - very seriously, I'd have to say, let @gibby take all the shots she possibly can of the two of you looking into each other's faces when you fuck. 🌹 Cocks going into a pussy - or up your ass, are a dime a dozen out there, sure, take some of them, and how hot you look in various states of undress, but it is the look of that man sliding into you, the look in his face when it changes from love to lust and back to love, like @Cedar 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 about when he fucked me in my ass over his desk. That was soooo hot - and you want your photo shoot, to be as hot as that, but visually, and with the face shots you will know by the look in your loved ones eye, and see it, and it will be only you and him who see it. 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹
Time to get a fresh cap - it's about an hour before dawn, and Tom will awake for a little bit while we change caps, and I will slip into bed with him, naked, and put his beautiful cock into my mouth and softly hum for him, until his tired and ravaged body gets back to sleep. Yes boys and girls - I really know why they call a blow job a hummer, because, seriously they, Tom especially can feel my soft hum through his cock, and also with his hand on my back. 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹 🌹
And I don't think - my tears will bother him at all.
nite 🌹