It's going to be quite some time before I am able to have my morning coffee with my favourite cream served fresh from @Cedar 🌹 but it gives me some time to think about my sexploration with my husband @Night_Pilot ❤️ and where it has taken us. The sex acts I perform on these men and with these men and the sex acts they perform on me are very different and I crave them for different reasons, as different as the men I make love with or fuck. When I make love with them, the feelings I have are similar in that it is about them at that moment, in that time, and what we are feeling for and from each other. 🌹❤️ I am thinking about them at the time we make love and I am wanting to give them the best of myself as they give me the best of themselves.
Making love with them has its similarities with either of them but, of course, with differences. But those differences become clearly defined, for me, once we or I, go from making love to fucking. With EB 🌹 his fucking me transitions with my going on a canoe ride with him at my centre and rolling my pussy and his delving into my folds with his tongue and electrifying my clit. He sends me into the cum lust mist on a building crescendo with each flick of his tongue, the movement of my enema nozzle in my ass and the feel of his face and head between my legs as I rest them on his shoulders and let him take me where he will. And that is into the cum lust mist and I lose myself in the soft, warm, swirling as it picks up speed and I lose myself.
With EB, I've merely to lay back, spread my legs and give myself over to him of my own free will and go with the flow, figuratively and literally. 🌹 And should I feel his penetration, he makes straightaway for my spot and again I go from making love with him to fucking him, sometimes more than one cycle into the mist or along its delicious edge. That is what I want from my EB 🌹 when we fuck and make love.
With my husband NP ❤️ he is the one I lay naked next to in our bed and wake up naked with him of a morning. He is the one I can reach out and touch at any time and him reach out and touch me at any time. ❤️ It's why we married ❤️ and the one constant in our lives that keeps us sane and knowing that, when it is all said and done, his is the man I will wake up with long into the future. ❤️ I have been beneath him many many times with the feel of his penis entering my willing body as we begin to make love and somewhere in the cum lust mist his penis turns into a cock and my vagina into a pussy for him to use as we fuck and fuck and fuck some more. ❤️ Our love for each other gives us this and we rely on it and we make certain we reaffirm who we are to each other.
But when I want to be fucked by NP, I want the pain 💥 and the sting of the lash 💥💥💥 that cuts through the cum lust mist and finds me naked, as naked as when he ripped the clothes from my body and making me naked and bound and at his mercy. I want him to whip the darkness out of my soul and my mind 💥💥💥💥 and the look in his eyes as he sees my naked body revealing his cum lust marks cut into my flesh. But his is the man who can look into my eyes and make the decision to either end this or carry on with yet another sting of my flesh 💥 or to let me reenter my senses and release my bindings to be held in his arms. ❤️ He sees my dark side and the evil within after he has taken its potency and anger from it one 💥 stinging lash at a time. Together we unleash our darkness upon each other but we also keep it in check because of our love for each other.
The two men 🌹 ❤️ I make love with and fuck are studies in contrast in their approach to me, my love, my darkness, and myself. But it is my darkness where the two approach me differently but with results or ‘tactics’ to subdue or confront this darkness. My darkness is openly defiant with NP and can only be subdued by the lash once I let it out. It wants to come out because NP will always be there for me and has always been there when it was formed in the first place. This sexploration NP and I have begun is in no small way, a means to define this darkness that is somewhat new to us and we are confronting together because, to be truthful, it does frighten us to some degree. ❤️ I also feel a darkness from my husband but one that he has learned to better control with his love for me to restrain the cutting sting 💥💥 that I want from him.
However with EB 🌹 his approach to my darkness, when it appears, is something I don't quite understand. He seems to know what it is, and while I feel the darkness there it seems to back into a corner, out of the way, while EB takes me. 🌹 I don't know how to explain this.
@Lora_C and @gibby, and their husbands, were or are, no small part of my sexploration with my NP ❤️.
As I have been writing this, for some reason, especially about the darkness, I think of EB and Lora. Why?