January 2nd, 1959

A fun New Years Eve and a busy first day doing real nursing!

New Years party was a blast with us girls! I know Annie wasn’t too keen on me inviting Mable but they made great friends too. You just need to get past how quiet she can be. She’s also convinced she’s ugly which made Annie and I a little surprised. And with a laugh Annie told her even if she’s fuller figured she has the “boobs of Jayne Mansfield.” which lead to a very silly discussion as to which of us had the best busts and butts in the locker room… Annie won the butt award 2-1 because she wouldn’t vote for herself. Marsha Blaney won the breast award actually… again 2-1 because Mable voted for me! “Some people like the smaller little ones.” Oh gee thanks!

We ended up at Mable’s at the end of the night because she was only a block away from the party and it was already 1AM. The visit just made Annie and I understand her a bit more. She lives with her mother, who was passed out drunk on the couch.

“I was hoping she’d have gone out…” Mable said somberly.

Annie commented “Oh that’s OK it’s new years.”

and Mable just said “No, that’s every night… That’s why I won’t touch the stuff. Been like that since dad died a few years ago… Well, now you gals know…”

“Oh Mable, we won't judge you!” I said.

Annie and I both called our folks cause it was so late and let them know we were at Mable’s house. So we just went up into Mable’s room… Then Annie and I realized we had nothing to change into. Mable gave us some of her pajamas excusing the bad fit. Haha in our overtired state while changing Annie looks over at us and says “Hey we got small, medium, and large here!” pointing out our breasts. Next thing I know Mable jokes about doing breast exams on each other… And next thing I know I’m saying that would be funny and Annie was agreeing! So we all took turns… We did mable first… Then Annie… and finally me… I’ve never touched another girl’s breasts before! I don’t think any of us have… I really didn’t mind but I made sure to act extra shy about it.

Then Annie says “So Emily has Peter touched them for pleasure yet?” And I was soo happy she asked me that way.. Gave me an out..

“No, not for pleasure Annie… I’m a good girl…”

“I bet you wish he would!” said Mable with a smirk.

“Girls please now!”

“Well how far have you gone then Em?”

“Oh far enough Annie.”

“Sounds scandalous! Tell us more!”

“Not sure I should.”

“Has he dropped his pants for you Em?”

“No, not exactly…”

“Not exactly… Well now young lady that does sound scandalous!” piped up Mable.

“Well if you must know… I opened his fly… and touched it…”

“You naughty naughty girl… AND…” said Annie with both of them coming closer.

“I… ummm… thought he needed it…”

“What’s it like Em?”

“Gets hard and umm if you touch it too much… goes off but in a way you don’t need in any of our books…”

“What’d you think when you saw one?”

“Ummm it was kind of scary… like how does that go inside a girl for fun?.. But also… interesting…”

“How did you touch it Em?” Annie said as Mable handed me an empty coke bottle.

“I just stroked it like this until… It happened!”

“Well now Emily! Secrete is safe with us right Annie?”

“Haha yes Em don’t worry… Not going to lie I am a little excited to get my hands on one someday myself. You too Mable?”

“Meh, I want a husband and all.. I just don’t think I want to be grabbing his ding dong.” she said with a chuckle.

We all dozed off soon after that and slept until maybe 9:00. Next morning Annie and I took the bus home and I just relaxed most of the day. After all January 2nd starts my first day of real nursing!

And that brings us to today! I was assigned to a general floor today. Very busy I put in at least a half dozen IV’s. More than a few rectal temperatures, medications, and cleaned up more than my share of bodily waste. I'm a little jealous of some of my other classmates. Barb and Annie got to be with the OR Nurses today. Mable was in pre-op and Marsha and Alice got to be with my Peter in labor in delivery!

Peter and I did manage to have lunch today in the cafeteria. He had already delivered his first baby! Said it’s an amazing feeling… Though doesn’t think he can look at a vagina the same way again. I laughed and said I just can’t imagine a baby coming out of there either! Nature finds a way. Tomorrow he’s in the clinic for some exams. I am a little jealous…

January 3rd 1953

Jealous, Jealous, Jealous! But I’m not sure of what! Managed to bring the lab samples from the OB-GYN Clinic back to the hospital and yeah there were patients of all different ages and appearances there and not all of them would be seeing Peter... I was kind of jealous of any of the younger ladies that MIGHT… Not to mention Mable confessing she wishes she could experience our private lesson again… THOUGH we both had the thought of somehow getting Annie there… Haha, somehow I think Mable is as bent as I am… Though she admitted she liked watching more than having… I guess I get that… I can’t get the image of his fingers disappearing inside of her out of my head now… and well seeing it happen to Annie might be fun too…

January 4th 1959

I cornered Peter and asked about his day in the clinic. He was very adamant that it’s just anatomy when he’s working with a patient even if it’s “a 20 year old college cheerleader.” But at the same time, the fact he phrased it that way makes me wonder if he’s, deep down, enjoying it. Anyways, we had a dinner date tonight. Went to Alfred’s Restaurant for a hearty dinner and despite being stuffed made out in his car… I let his hand get under my skirt.. All the way up to the garter belt snap on my stockings… Then I slapped him… Not hard but… Well made him really shy and apologetic like he can get. I just kissed him and made out some more… But I did give him an extra few treats.

“Well dear, want to see how a girl releases some of that tension?”

“What?” He said, shocked that I was hiking my skirt up. “I… I…”

“Shhhh….” I pulled down my panties to my knees and gently put his hand over my slit. “You can feel the wetness if you want... just please don’t put your fingers inside.” and he very shly did… and it just felt so electric having him touch there while aroused! He moved back to his seat.

“It’s so different than….”

“Well so is yours when not aroused… but shhhhh..” and he watched so intently as I rubbed myself to a climax…

“What were you thinking about…?”

“Your cock… your exams…” I couldn’t believe I said the second part out loud!

“Your exams with me?”

“I shouldn’t have said that Peter… I am sorry…”

“No… don’t be… please…”

“Oh you’ve enjoyed them too?”

“Yes… I mean… no… OK I don’t know what to say…”

“It’s our secret OK… Ummm… I liked seeing you examine my friend too...but...but… because it was you…”

“Oh… well… I liked having you there to see it…”

“Well then…”

Well we made a deal of sorts… It will be our secret forever… BUT when I’m done with nursing school he can propose… and well after he’s done with his residency I can be his nurse in a private practice...

January 19th 1959

OK Peter and I have been good since that night in the car… Maybe we crossed a line or something I don’t know… He did say he enjoyed it… I did manage to get duty in the clinic with him… really routine pregnant woman, older women, married women… I enjoyed seeing each exam… Oh something about seeing him open a speculum! And love seeing his fingers go inside someone. Then after lunch a patient came in who really was set apart.

She was very attractive and was there with her mother. I looked over her papers… 18… oh my we were in the same high-school… Oh my I know her! Not well but I’ve seen her around… “Amanda…” I called her name “Amanda McDougal..” she slowly got up with her mother following close behind. “Hello Amanda remember me?”

“Yes you were a few years ahead of me…”

“Just two… What brings you here today?”

“My daughter has been having menstrual problems and her doctor said to send her here.”

“Oh I see… Do you want to have your mother accompany us?”

“Yes...please..”

I led them back to the exam room. “Do you know what to expect today Amanda?”

“No…”

“Your mom didn’t tell you anything?”

“Of course not! These sort of doctors are not something we talk about with young ladies!” Her mother sternly shot back.

I took her benid the changing screen and stayed with her while she undressed, put a gown on, and quietly told her what to expect. She seemed a little relieved knowing but maybe a little more nervous about the actual exam… I commented that “Your mother seems like a real…”

“Yeah I’ve been having these problems since I was 13… She thinks only married women should see a gynecologist.”

“OK Well let’s head over to the table, hop up and have a seat… I’ll do your vital signs and go let doctor mason know you’re ready.”

I slowly closed the door behind me and I could almost feel the tension in the room. I grabbed Peter and let him know our next patient was feeling nervous, shy, and her mother was a real basket case. We both came back in. He knocked on the door and I took my usual place in the corner.

“Hello I am Doctor Mason, you must be Amanda?” he said shaking her hand.

“Yes…”

“And you must be?” he said walking to her mother.

“Mrs. McDougal.” She said coldly. “You’re a bit young to be examining you ladies don’t you think?”

“I can assure you I’ve been through all the proper training and am a professional Mrs. McDougal.”

“Well she’s here for cramps. She’s been insisting on seeing a doctor about them for a while and I just gave in.”

“OK That’s fine Ma’am but I’d rather talk with your daughter about this….Amanda? What age was your first period?”

“Thirteen doctor.” she said, staring at her bare feet.

“When did you notice bad cramping?”

“Same time… my mom said it would get better but never did.”

“OK well are you periods regular?”

“No…”

“Do you track them?”

“Sometimes… might skip a few months then last for a week or more…”

“OK Miss, well we’ll see what we can do for you… Let’s start with the basics will you lower your gown for me so I can listen to your heart and lungs?” She very shyly lowered here gown to her waist then he put the stethoscope on her bare chest. Her mother was watching as close as I was. Her breasts I must say were... well... very nice. Shapely and perky but with dark nipples. “You’re heart is racing Amanda… Do you need a moment to relax?”

“No…”

“I’m going to put the stethoscope under your left breast now OK?” She nodded and I watched his hand push under her breast and he listened. Then moving to her bare chest he listened again asking her to take deep breaths. “Have you ever had a breast exam before Amanda?”

“No… what’s that?”

“I just feel your breasts for any lumps or anything unusual it won’t hurt will only take a moment?”

“What?! Touch my breasts?”

“Doctor is that necessary? She’s here for her period, not her breasts.” Her mother said

“Amanda, Mrs. McDougal, please. First it’s a great way to have an early detection of breast cancer, secondly tenderness and pain can indicate hormonal imbalances.”

“Fine…” Her mother said as Peter began his breast exam. Visual at first, then he felt them with her sitting up in small little circles… Amanda stared at her mom the entire time as he felt under her arms, the breasts, then had her lay back. Her nipples became fully hardened by then. He repeated the exam his fingers moving closer and closer to her nipples… His fingers stopping just shy of them…

“I’m just going to touch your nipples them very quickly to check for any discharge.” Amanda just closed her eys and her mom scowled from across the room. I don’t think Peter noticed…. Then he pulled the gown to just above her hips and began feeling her abdomen… She laid there with her hands at her sides at first, looking at the ceiling... then when we made eye contact accidentally she covered her breasts with her hands….

“Nurse will you help me with the stirrups?” He said covering her up with the gown. I moved over and snapped them out with their distinctive clank… I helped her get her feet in the stirrups… Peter sat on his stool and turned the light on… “OK Amanda can you scoot down for me?” He said putting on his gloves. “A little more? A bit more… Here miss until you feel my hand…”

“I don’t want to fall off.” She said quietly…

“Don’t worry Amanda. Everything will be fine… Can you let your knees fall open now?”

“I...Don’t...Doctor?”

“Everything will be fine Amanda… Just take a deep breath… you feeling a little better?” she nodded as her legs slowly opened revealing her thick bush of dark curls…”Just relax a bit more.. Deep breaths OK…. Now you’re going to feel me touch your pubic hair now…. You’re doing great… Now I am going to spread apart your outer folds which we call the Labia Majora… Now your inner folds or labia minora… And this may feel strange I am pushing back the hood over your cliterus.”

“Doctor Please!” her mother shouted out. “An unmarried woman should not know such words!”

“Mrs. McDougal!” He said angrily. “Knowing the names of your body parts should be no different than knowing the names of your fingers or toes!” She scowled at him but he was too busy doing the exam to notice… “OK Amanda I am just going to look at the opening of your vagina…”

“Is she a virgin?” Her mother said getting up from her chair.

“What?”

“A virgin!”

“Amanda, are you a virgin?” He asked her gently standing up himself.

“Yes...of course….” she said in a mortified tone.

“Mrs. McDougal we have no way of knowing for sure and I will take my patient’s word for it.”

“I mean is her maidenhead intact doctor!”

“That’s no indication of…”

“I know she’s touched herself there… Is it intact?”

“MOM! Please Stop!” poor amanda was almost in tears.

“Let me see it.” she demanded.

“Absolutely not!”

“Doctor… Just let her or I’ll never…”

“Fine…” he said, letting her mother peek over his shoulder. She nodded and sat down… “One more outburst Ma’am and I’ll have you go wait outside… Are you doing OK Amanda? Why don’t you take a few deep breaths again… Everything looks healthy and normal… The next parts might feel uncomfortable but if it hurts let me know OK? Nurse, can you pass me the smallest speculum? OK Just take deep breaths and relax...This might feel a bit cold…”

“Oh it does…. Cold…” she muttered as the speculum was so skillfully inserted into her. “That kind of hurts!” she said as he opened it slowly.

“Does it hurt bad or just uncomfortable?”

“Just… I don’t like it!”

“Well please take a deep breath relax… OK Feel a little better?” She nodded after a few seconds then he did a pap test and took a few samples. She gasped when he did the pap then seemed relieved when the speculum came out. “OK Amanda, Everything looking healthy I am going to do a bimanual exam next. So I am going to put two fingers inside you and feel your internal reproductive organs.”

“Oh god, please doctor you don’t need to do that do you?” she said closing her knees together.

“I do Amanda, you could have a cyst on an ovary, or something else wrong inside causing you all this pain.” I watched as he stood up and her knees slowly opened again and then once she had relaxed Peter’s lubricated fingers go into her. Amanda had a look of discomfort on her face but didn’t say anything. “OK Amanda, one last part.”

“What, you’re not done?”

“I am going to do what’s called a rectovaginal exam. I am going to put one finger in your vagina and another in your rectum to feel the back of your uterus… I will be very gentle and it should not hurt… I want you to relax and then when I tell you to bare down on my finger.”

“What does bare down mean?”

“When you feel my finger against your anus try and push out like you’re going to the bathroom. I promise you won’t even if it feels that way… Bare down for me? Good”

His finger almost effortlessly went inside her two most private places and she let out a little squeak and her toes curled as he did. Then another audible gasp as he pulled out just far enough to take his finger from her vagina and slowly pushed the rectal finger back in then twist it about… Then when his finger came out he very quickly wiped away the excess lubricant.

“Are you done?” Amanda said.

“Yes we are Miss. Nurse, will you help Amanda sit up and let's talk?”

“Yes ok…” she said and her mom moved close to her and gave her a hug… An amount of compassion I didn’t think she had.

“I didn’t find anything out rightly wrong but your menstrual cycles are not regular and painful. There is a new drug called Enovid that can help regulate them. I’d like to have you try it and come back in six months… but if anything changes or gets worse call us immediately… Why don’t you get dressed and my nurse Emily will walk you out to the desk.”

Next surprise was walking them out! Her mom stopped me and said “Nurse… Tell the doctor I am sorry… He had real compassion for Amanda and I didn’t expect that…” By then the place was pretty empty. I think the receptionist, Peter and myself were the last ones there..

Well, then I went to clean the room and put everything away. All of a sudden the spot on the paper from the lubricant oozing out caught my eye. I picked up the used speculum to put in the wash and just couldn’t stop wondering how many young ladies this must have been in… I put it down next to the spot and was just staring at it… I am not sure of all my feelings… I just felt something arousing… And I thought I was alone… I lowered my panties and felt how wet I was…

I didn’t hear the door open but I heard Peter clearing his throat… I shot up and spun around mortified. Thank God it was him and no one else. He locked the door and I think I was stammering to say something but he just kept saying shhhhhh…. He backed me into the wall without a word and his hand went under my skirt… I held him closed and his fingers rubbed me until I climaxed… I had to bury my face in him as I did because I wanted to scream as it happened…

I was shaking afterwards but I pulled it from his pants and actually put it in my mouth… He seemed to really like that… and he exploded into me… Oh my it was both terrifying and erotic! The way he just took charge… Not just with me but Amanda… Oh my… I’m aroused again just writing all this!

He did help me finish cleaning up and we were supposed to go to the movies but we ended up at my parents house. We just cuddled on the couch watching TV with my family. My dad commented that we must have had a long day. He has no idea… I can’t wait to be his nurse!