“Go ahead and hop up on the table. Then I’m going to ask you a few questions.” I do as he asks, and I try to do it as gracefully as possible. He opens my chart and takes out his pen. He smiles at me and says, “Ok, let’s get started. So, you’re just here for a physical today?” “Um, yeah. It’s been awhile, so I figured I’d better go and have everything checked out.” “When was your last physical?” I actually had to stop and for a minute, but before I could answer he interrupted my thoughts and said, “ It must have been a VERY long time ago if it’s taking you this long to think about it. I guess I’ll have to do an even more thorough exam than normal. It’s really not good for you to go that long.” What in the world does he mean by “more thorough”? The usual exam is thorough enough for me. I just answer back with, “I know it’s not good. I just get so nervous that I keep putting it off and putting it off. Do you really think that an even more thorough exam is necessary?” “Yes, I think it’s even more necessary now. Hopefully by the time I’m through you won’t be as nervous next time. There really is no excuse for going so long that you don’t even remember the last one. I do have to say I’m a little disappointed.” I don’t know if it’s because of what he said, or how he’s looking at me, but I’m embarrassed and feel horrible about letting him down. I just look down at the floor and apologize. “Well hopefully you’ll learn your lesson, and if we do start dating I’ll make sure this doesn’t happen again.” For some reason him saying that made me get butterflies, not the nervous kind either. “Do you have any medical problems that you know of?” “Not really. I do get kidney stones and UTIs every once in a while.” “Ok, I’ll definitely need to make sure everything is alright with your kidneys. Anything else?” “Not that I know of.” “Ok, when was your last period?” Seriously?!?! I knew he was going to ask that, but I just wasn’t prepared for it. I could feel my face heating up as I answered, “A couple weeks ago.” “It’s alright darling. You don’t need to feel embarrassed. Trust me it’s going to get a lot worse than that. Just one more question and then we’ll get started. When was your last BM?” OH MY GOD! Yeah, he wasn’t joking when he said it was going to get a lot worse. Maybe I should’ve thought about my decision of having him as my doctor a little bit more. I absolutely could’ve died? There was no way I could look him in the eye, so I just put my head and down and told him that it had been that morning. “Alright that’s good. And babe, after I take you out a few times you’ll learn there’s no reason for you to be embarrassed around me. I guess you’ll just have to get to know me better first though.” I guess he saw the look on my face from all the pet names he called me. For some reason I notice when he called me names at the store, but being in his office I definitely noticed. Not that it bothered me, it was just weird. “Sorry, about calling you babe and darling. I don’t usually talk to my patients like that, but I guess it just comes natural around you. I can stop if it makes you uncomfortable though.” “No, it’s fine. It kind of makes it seem more like it’s between friends.” “I’m glad you think of us as friends, and I hope we become more than that, but I’m your doctor and no matter what I’m going to do what’s the best for you, whether you like it or not.” There’s just something about a man in charge that just adds to their sex appeal, and he was definitely in charge. “Ok, Nicole, let’s go ahead and get your height and weight. If you’ll go ahead and take off your shoes for me.” I take off my shoes and get up on the scale. “5’0, and 90 lbs. OK you can go ahead and get back up on the table.” As I’m doing that I’m watching him walk over to the counter and watch him open a drawer. Oh great, what’s he getting out? Good it’s only a thermometer, I can handle that. “Ok go ahead and put this under your tongue.” I do as I’m told and wait for the beep. “Hmm, your temp is a little low. Is there any way that you were breathing through your mouth?” “Not that I’m aware of.” “Ok, I’ll just recheck it a little later. Next, I’m going to need a urine sample. The bathroom is the second door on your right, you’ll find the cups and the antiseptic wipes on the counter. Just write your name and birthdate on the cup and place it in the little window.” I go to do as I’m told. I absolutely hate this part, well I actually hate all of it, it’s just so embarrassing knowing that someone is looking at your pee. I go into the bathroom and find the cups and right my name and birthdate on it. I take one of the wipes and pull down my pants and go sit on the toilet. I shudder as I wipe myself with the freezing cold wipe. When I’m finished I go back to the room. As I walk in and go to the table I realize where I was sitting is now a gown and a drape. I know exactly what was fixing to be said and sure enough. “Ok, darling I’m going to step out and check on another patient. I need you to undress completely and put the gown on, opening in the front, and cover your bottom half with the drape.” All I could do was nod. “It’ll be alright I promise. I’ll be back in a few minutes.” As soon as he leaves I start to undress. I fold up all my clothes and make sure that my underwear is covered. I don’t know why I do, it’s not like he’s not fixing to see a lot more than that, but for some reason him seeing my underwear just seems a lot worse. I get back on the table, and try to make sure everything is covered. No matter how hard I try it seems like my crack is always out and that means that’s going to be the first thing he sees when he walks in. A few minutes later, that seems like hours, I hear a knock at the door. I don’t know if I’m supposed to say come in or what so I just sit there. “Nicole, are you ready?” “Not really, but you might as well come in.” He walks in with a smile on his face. I guess to put me at ease I guess. “Nicole, there’s no reason for you to be embarrassed. I know we just met this morning but didn’t it cross your mind that eventually I’d see you naked, if everything went the way we both want it to?” “Of course it crossed my mind. Honestly it crossed my mind more than just once, I just thought that when you did we would be naked together. Wait a second, does that mean you thought about seeing me naked before?” “hahaha, no comment,” Even his laugh is sexy, “ I might be a doctor but I’m also a man. But, seriously, even if I did think about what would happen eventually if we kept seeing each other, that was outside of you being my patient. When I’m in doctor mode, I’m completely professional. I’m your doctor and you’re my patient, and that’s how I’m going to see you.” I really don’t know what to say to that. I’m not sure if I feel disappointed or relieved. In the end I didn’t say anything and he walked over to the counter and came back to me and looked in my ears, eyes, and nose. He then comes back with a tongue depressor. “I need to warn you that I have a strong gag reflex.” He just kind of smiles and says, “Thanks for letting me know. I’ll keep that in mind. Go ahead and open up for me and say ‘ahhh’” I do as I’m told, and gag a little when he pushes down on my tongue. “Sorry, about that. Everything looks fine though.” I swallow a few times trying to get the nasty taste of wood out of my mouth. He then proceeds to feel my throat, telling me to swallow every once in awhile. When he’s finished I see him put his stethoscope in his ears. “I’m just going to listen to your lungs and heart, ok darling?” I shake my head yes, and feel him go under the back of my gown. If he couldn’t see my crack before, I know he definitely can now. I then feel the cold metal hit my back, and shudder a little. I can’t stand cold things touching me, it always gives me chills. He must’ve noticed, because he apologizes. “Sorry, I know that’s a little cold. I need you to take a few deep breaths for me.” As I do, I feel him move the cold disk around to several places. When he’s finished he straightens the back of my gown, and moves to the front. When he goes to listen to my heart, he opens the front of my gown a little, but not enough to really expose anything, which I’m very grateful for. While he’s moving it around on my chest however, I can feel the gown open more and more. I look down and notice that it’s almost completely open, before I can try to close it back he’s finished and closes it for me. “OK, before I have you lay down, I’m just going to tap a few places on your back. I want you to tell me if any of it hurts.” “Ok.” He does as he says and though it doesn’t feel too good, it also doesn’t really hurt so that’s what I tell him. “Ok, that’s good. I’m going to have you lay back now.” He helps me lay down, while still trying to keep everything covered. “Nicole, I’m going to go ahead and do your breast exam, and get that out of the way. Do you do self-breast exams?” Even though I know I’m probably going to get another lecture I answer truthfully. “No, not really.” He just shakes his head and sounds really disappointed. “It’s very important that you start doing them. Even though you’re young, it’s a good habit to get into. If things go anywhere with us, I can already tell I’m going to have to keep you in line when it comes to your health.” I must be getting more relaxed and comfortable around him because as soon as I open my mouth, I say exactly what popped into my head… “What are you going to punish me or something?” He looked at me completely serious and said, “That’s exactly what I’m going to do actually.” I knew by the way that he said that he wasn’t joking. Is it bad that that kind of turned me on? He then proceeded to open my gown. I could feel my face heating up. He just gave me a reassuring smile, and lifted my right arm above my head. This was it, I was actually fixing to feel his hand on me. He started feeling around my breast, but as soon as his first touch hit, I couldn’t help but wince. He wasn’t really pushing down that hard, but it still hurt. “Does that hurt?” I nod my head. “What about here?” “Ow, yeah.” “Are your breasts always this tender?” “Just around this time of the month.” “Ok, that’s understandable. From now on you need to try to make your appointments when they’re not so sore. I’m afraid I’m still going to have to examine them, I just need you to bear with me, I’ll be as gentle as I possibly can.” I nod my head, and he continues with my exam. I try to take a few deep breaths to get through it but I couldn’t help but wince and say ow a few times. I actually got up the guts to look at his face a few times, and it looked like it hurt him to have to cause me a little pain, it certainly didn’t stop him though. When he was finished feeling around my right breast, he told me, “Ok, Nicole. I need you to take a deep breath for me. You’re going to feel some pressure, while I check your nipple for discharge. I’m afraid this might be a little uncomfortable.” I took a deep breath and felt him grab my nipple between his fingers. He wasn’t joking when he said it would be uncomfortable. I think I almost had tears in my eyes. “Ok, babe, are you ready for the next one?” God, I forgot I had two. “Not really, but go ahead.” He proceeded to do the same thing to the other one, and I think it might’ve been a little worse, Atleast it felt like it anyway. When he squeezed the nipple on my left breast, I said, “OW!” and tried to move away. He then covered my breasts back up. “Sorry, I know that didn’t feel too good, But it was necessary. Hopefully next time it won’t be that bad.” “Are you almost finished yet?” “With your breasts? Yeah, I’m all finished there.” “No, I mean with the whole exam.” “Unfortunately, we’re only about half through. I still have to perform an abdominal exam, a complete and very thorough pelvic exam, and I have a few extra tests that I need to run, since it’s been so long since your last check up, and since you have been known in the past to have some kidney problems.” I just groan and think to myself I’m sooo ready to get all this over with. He is definitely going to pay when he does take me out. I think I’m going to order the most expensive thing on the menu, and if things go farther maybe I can talk him into a game of doctor and convince him to let me be the doctor he will definitely pay then. I have to admit even with everything he’s put me through so far, I have to say I’m even more attracted to him than I was before. He just seems so caring, and even though he’s putting me through a lot of embarrassing and uncomfortable things, I know he’s just doing it for my own good. I just hope he feels the same way about me, when this is all said and done. “Earth to Nicole! What are you thinking about?” “Just how I think our dates are going to go.” “That’s what I was hoping you’d say, especially since you had a smile on your face. So, are we ready to continue?” “Yeah, lets get this over with.”