Greetings to all! I am a 23 year old male and for the past several years I've developed a liking for the sensations that indulgence of the klismo fetish can provide. It is, in my opinion, a gratifying way to experience receptive (more feminine?) sexual feelings and sensations. Even though I am straight and have very vanilla, normal desires at times, I still experience these urges. My understanding is that once you're in the door, these stay all your life to some degree, even if you suppress them.
Like many young men, however, I am still somewhat insecure and uncertain about my sexuality, and struggle with resolving the imbalance between the masculine and feminine feelings - almost a Yin and Yang complex. I've felt insecurity about the desires I have at times to be receptive and more sensual. However, I am very psychologically in-tune and it is my hope that as I age and become more of a "man" (maybe even into my 30s and 40s), the insecurity will resolve itself and I'll feel more like it doesn't matter. Someday, perhaps when married, I'd like to find a woman who perhaps enjoys the same and is tolerant of a man who enjoys klismaphilia as an added component to his heterosexuality.
My question is mainly to the older, perhaps straight klismo guys and girls (though open to answers from any orientation!) Are enemas a matured taste? Did you experience more comfort and acceptance of your enjoyment of klismaphilia as you aged?
Thanks for the help! It is much appreciated.