When You Fill Your Pants...

Well, my big mishap yesterday brought me back to #5 above....mainly since I spent childhood and early adulthood feeling traumatized regarding my bodily functions.

For transportation, I can merely "foot it," so my main approach is to curb myself before each trip; and it's usually a 5-6 block walk.Wel, yesterday at the library, I frittered away a few hours on the web, and I knew I had my bowels tugging at me early on in my stay. I packed up everything and left after 3-4 hours, never remembering I had a number-two to attend to--and I had to pee at least twice during then--but no, I set out back home when my slumbering bowels suddenly sent the message to my brain that I had to defecate. And I can usually keep it all in when walking back (just barely), though I often have to spend those last 2-3 blocks with my free hand inn my pants-seat, squeezing my butt cheeks together (in broad public) and repeating to myself, "You can make it, you can make it," and being able to enter my apartment making a beeline for the john and drop my drawers and carry out my dump before my fanny's touched the seat. Uh-uh this time: I ruined another good pair of briefs which I promptly threw out, not before stripping myself (with the hand that was the least filthy) and sticking my butt under the tub tap.

At least my jeans weren't touched.

I spent yesterday eating high fiber foods and supplementing that with a few doses of Metamucil. I then got up this morning, put on my white wide-crotch panties (that I bought especially for this purpose) and a pair of plastic pants, sat down here at the PC, and have been filling them with load after load for the last hour. Right now they're full and I still feel like there's more to come! So this is a perfect time to answer this question. :-)

When I do this I love to sit in it and mush it around as long as possible. With other people in the house (like right now) I can usually go for a couple of hours. By 8:00 AM I go to the bathroom, get my rocks off while enjoying what I did (not going to get into details as others here would probably think it's disgusting, so just use your imagination), then clean up. After I clean me up, I then get out a bottle of Tilex and clean the shower--that completely cleans up what I've done and it covers up the smell.

While sitting here, I often stand up, reach back into my plastic pants and feel the bulge, sit back down and feel it spreading everywhere. I tell myself "Shame on you, you pooped your panties!" and imagine what it would be like for various people (all women) that I know to catch me doing this and humiliate me for it.

I've been experimenting with this since I was a kid. After seeing another kid mess his pants in third grade I came home, hid in the basement and tried it. My parents found my messy pants and I got into all sorts of trouble for this. Then I made the mistake of telling another kid in the neighborhood about it and he blabbed it to everyone, so for weeks the other kids humiliated me for it (which was horrible at the time, but now, in retrospect, my God, what a turn on it is to remember that).

I tried pooping my diapers a few times between the ages of 21-35. Enjoyed doing it but felt awful about it and hated the clean up, then swore I'd never do it again.

Then around 35, during a very stressful period in life, I was wearing my diapers and they were soaked, I was all by myself and had to poop and decided, "Why not?" So I loaded my diapers and this time, it was different. I really enjoyed it, still, I decided I wasn't going to do it anymore. Then a few weeks later, out of nowhere, I had this incredible desire to do it again.

Well, over the next 20 years, I did it more and more and realized that I love it. I only do this once every 2-3 weeks, when I can get away with it, to get it out of my system (no pun intended). If possible, I like to go to bed wearing thick cloth diapers, wet them all night, then load them the next morning. But with others in the house it's just too difficult to try to secretly wash poopy diapers--so I just do it in my "poo panties" instead. Clean-up is much easier that way.

It's the perfect way to escape for a few hours from the rigors of life and regress back to being a naughty little kid. No more self-loathing or regrets. It's part of who I am and I love it. And in about half an hour I'm going to go sit in the shower stall and love it again!

1 4

I enjoy staying in them for an hour or so..... I can only play when wife is not around as she is not into this play.

Usually as soon as I have a accident my wife smells it and forces me to be changed

1 & 4. One of life's pleasures. oh yes, 6 as well!

I don't have messy accidents, nor remember them as kid: from the 3y.o. age I have my first memory of. Though my parents did tell me how it happened when I was younger. You know those embarrassing recollections at family gatherings: "... and then he ran away, froze, and made a big load in his pants with THAT face".

I enjoy desperation and child-like helplessness, so I do it every now and then. Not by accident and not in a diaper. In tight yoga pants, if you are wondering - the closest thing to my childhood boy tights (made a thread about them here). I drink lots of water and time both of my "accidents". Soap or Dulcolax suppositories... I really want it to happen against my will. There is also "artificial poop": soapy bananas, mashed potatoes, oatmeal, and my favorite: refried beans. Buy a cake decorating syringe on Amazon and enjoy: much cleaner.

Self-loathing is part of the experience. I do not want to "enjoy" being wet or messy. I want maximum shame and humiliation: well, in a safe "controlled environment" alone. And of course there is a fair amount of cleanup and laundry to worry about it.

Though in my age regression fantasies (stories) my poor characters (boys) experience all sorts of humiliation and punishment after their accidents: being at the center of everyone attention and publicly scolded/shamed at some busy place like a mall or playground, being made to walk around in the wet and messy pants (not comfy diaper), someone mashing the load, which causes unpleasant tickle (remember, it's always unpleasant, at least officially), sitting of course: often on a chair with a vibrating massager... I remember seeing some kind of vibrating balls online. Or being made to ride a little kids tricycle. PT exercises and running/jumping/etc. games. Use your imagination.

Good "punishment" ideas for an age play, don't you think?

1, 4 and 6

1,4,6

1 & 4 I totally enjoy doing it in my pants and do it several times a week. It all started for me when I was younger when a friend was over to my house and had an accident. I got curious and gave it a try and found out I liked doing it on purpose. I never did it when my parents were home though. I would also always find places to hide the dirty white briefs but occasionally they would find them.

That made me even want to do it more. I also like to do it and see how long I can keep it in my pants before I clean up.

#'s 1 & 4. Nothing better than an enormous load in my diapers for as long as possible. Was a diapered, thumbsucking bedwetter until my early teens with the occasional poopy accident. Now it's one of my more lofty pursuits.

I've only filled my pants by accident but really enjoy it. Never shared it with anybody else until I came across this website. Nice to know I'm not the only one. Here is my story

1. Aged about 7 I messed pants on the way home from school, who doesn't at that age, had to walk about 1 mile home, really enjoyed feeling the mess in my pants, although mother wasn't very happy

2 Aged 13 had day off school with upset stomach, feeling better in afternoon so Mother insisted I went shopping with her. Soon after setting out needed toilet, but Mother insisted I went with her. Reached post office which was furthest from home and really desperate, but again Mother insisted I wait outside. While she was in post office I had accident in pants. Told Mother when she came out and then got asked why I hadn't said I needed toilet! On way home she even told one of school mates that I'd done it in my pants, plenty of jokes over next few days!

Hope you enjoy and would like to hear from others, especially girls/women. Who can tell similar stories

I really agree with 1 and 4. There is nothing like mushing the poop around it feels warm and gooey and feels good. I remember when I was around 6 I pooped my pants by accident and was afraid to tell my mom so I continued to play outside until she came out and found I had the accident. She proceeded to spank. Me with poop in my pants and then proceeded to diaper me and humiliate me. This was the beginning of me messing my pants and love for diapers.

! & 4. I'm currently sitting in a a dirty diaper. The sensation is fantastic. I put the disposable on yesterday afternoon. I peed myself about four times before bed. I peed myself again overnight and in the morning upon waking up. I did my morning BM into the wet diaper and have been enjoying the sensation for about an hour now. The diaper can hold an other pee but will probably start to leak and I'll need to clean up. So sad, it feels so awesome packed with warm pee and poop.

1,4,6 I enjoy both messing in my diaper and messing my pant it is always a great experience for me. I love to poop in my diaper about 2 to 3 times per week. My normal routine if out in public or at home is to poop in my diaper, sit down and mush the warm poopy all over my bottom. I stay in my poopy diapers for 1 to 3 hour depending on size of load. I also poop my pant probably only once every 2 weeks due to the extreme mess that occurs. I usually will poop my pant mushy the warm poopy and walk around for about 30 minutes then get changed and put on my diaper again as punishment.

1&4 sometimes I'll hold my poop and eat as much as i can so when I do it's a big one. Or drink magnesium citrate to make sure that I poop as much as possible it's to soft sometimes and leaks out the legs..

When I'm with my friend it is 1&4.

I'm mainly 1 and then when it is all mushed up i then start on number 4 and start hating myself for doing it!!

I am 1 and 4.i don't do messy diapers often and most times it is an accident.

Absolutely 1 and 4! I pee and poop my diaper regularly because of medical problems with holding it long enough. So from the age of 7 I decided I never wanted without diapers because the feeling of wet and messy diapers was (and is) just too good! Feeling the mess spreading in my diaper and make it all slippery and squishy is just heaven!

I love the sensation of pooing in a nappy.... then the sensation of sitting in it and squashing it all around....

mind you the marshmallows and suppositories before hand feel great going in... then jumping into the shower making sure you clean out my chastity cage... them back into a nappy......

Mostly 1 these days. It used to be 3 though. Nowadays I like to mess and hold off sitting in it for a while, but before I change, I want to get properly messy, so sitting and mushing is de riguer!

I poop in my diapers at least two times a day and so it is normally when I change. The longer I am in a messy diaper the longer the clean up takes. Also, the longer I am in a soiled diaper, the greater the chances of getting diaper rash.

So I am 3, except I have no self loathing.

If I am some way from a restroom, I am 2.

Usually only fill my diaper once a day, while I'm having the first mug of coffee in the morning.

I need diapers for medical need, urge incontinence duebto OAB, and now since I'm in diapers 24/7 anyway I started pooping in them too. Kinda like the feeling of the big load in my diaper.

I use activated charcoal as internal deodorant so basically no smell from my loaded diaper.

Love just letting go in my diaper, the relief it gives me just filling my diaper, not carrying about it.

A few times while sitting in the couch the urge to poop overwhelmed me, and seconds later I filled my diaper, I even had to lift myself to give room to it. But boy a feeling it spreading out, warm and soft

4. Decide how long you can possibly stay in the mess, enjoy it, and deal with cleanup way later on down the line?

I'm a 3 i wet & mess myself due medical problems cant stand to sit around wet & dirty if i can help it.there a couple reason for this for it goes back to my childhood of trying avoid a beating if my father caught me wet or dirty.

1,4 and 6

Funny how it reads. Like someone took my thoights and then put them in a list ?.

Spikey

Mine would be 3, I don't like to mess my diaper but I have no choice. I always wonder when someone is going to change me. I have had to sit in a messy diaper, cause there are times when my wife, or family members are able to change me right away.

When I load my diaper, I avoid touching as long as I can, but not too long because I want it still hot when I finally give in and sit down to smear it around. Then, I like to hang out in the mess for a while to feel like a true baby. Clean-up is a hassle, but not so much that it keeps me from occasionally pooping my diaper. Does anyone fill diapers with more than just poo and pee?....