I have had this fetish since I was a very young girl. I didnt know what it was for the longest time. I just would watch movies or tv shows with birth scenes and get a strange feeling. Soon I started to act the scenes out by myself and eventually had my first orgasms pretending to give birth alone in my room. Soon it was a habit. I didnt even know what I was doing at the time, just that it made me pant and moan and there was a big build up of feeling in that area with a huge satisfying release. I forced myself to stop at 11. I got really freaked out thinking that I might have done something awful or damaging to myself. When I was 14 I finally realized I'd been masturbating the whole time and that it was just a sexual feeling. I allowed myself to start doing it again and I started to fantasize about childbirth again as I would do it. Around 17 or 18 I started searching online for anything that might be related to the way I was feeling about pregnancy and birth but I couldnt find a thing. At that point there were still user created yahoo chat rooms. I would hang out in the pregnancy fetish ones just hoping to find someone that was into childbirth as well. I found a handful and felt a lot better knowing I wasnt the only one in the world with the strange fetish. Still, I didnt find a large group of others sharing this fetish until my last year of college around 22. I was soooo relieved to hear of so many people who felt the same way. I have since role played now and then with others online. When I got married I again tried to push the kink away. I have never shared it with my husband or anyone else I know in real life and I dont ever plan to. After about a year of suppressing it I again let myself indulge and found that it was still my number one turn on. I purchased an inflatable plug from a sex toy store online and thought I might be able to use it to get a more realistic sensation. Now I mostly play on my own. Its still hard to find a partner to play with that mixes well. I pump the inflatable up along with "contractions" and I've actually been able to now orgasm just from pushing it out, with no extra clitoral stimulation.
Im not sure its ever been about pain for me. Maybe straining, and hard work, and the appearance of pain and even some pain mixed with pleasure but the pain isnt what gets me off.
I always prefer to play with a man who is the partner, doctor or coach. Im not sure why I just dont enjoy playing with other women in this case.
Unlike a lot of people the giant belly isnt a big deal for me either. I actually dont think giant over inflated sloppy looking pregnant woman are very attractive. I prefer small to medium or at least proportionate bumps as part of the fantasy.
I love erotic births and supportive strong coaches.
I also love to just talk about the fetish with others who have it. Im really into figuring out how it develops since I cant remember the first time it actually registered in my head. Its like I was always like this. I remember having these feelings before 8 years old.
I hope to talk to others like me soon.My yahoo mail is prettiestofpatients .