Ok folks, here's my dilemma. I have been doing the solo enema scene for so many years, I am, I guess you could call it, "set in my ways". I have had enema partners in the past and they were always loads of fun but I always wanted to get back to my private bathroom and play by myself. I truely love being dominated by an enema top/master (whatever you want to call it) but more often than not I find myself reverting to being my own enema master? Is this some screwed up ego/control freak thing in my head?
I feel bad and I hope people don't think that I am a total flake, but I am sure they do. Always chatting, making vague plans and then never following through. Since moving to Central Florida, I ahve a really cool enema guy just a few miles away with a phenominal playroom yet I have only play three times in the past year and a half. Not his fault, completey mine. He can't understand it and I really don't know how to explain it to him either. I would love to have few hours in his playroom by myself but I think asking for that indulgence would be the ultimate slap in the face.
Its funny, I am a complete enema bottom but I like to be in control of me. Am I the ultimate control feak? I know what I like and I find it difficult to meld other folks "techniques" with my essential needs. I am I as screwed up as I think I am? I would love to hear other's thoughts. Thanks for listening.