For me, it all got started when my husband hinted that he may have bought me a harness and strap-on dildo, and that he might like to see what it feels like to be taken "back there" by me. we occasionally engage in anal play, but only him in me, and i have never had an enema before-hand, so we always used a condom, and i did not know what it felt like to have a man's cum in my ass.
i was worried that going into my man this way, without proper preparation ahead of time, might make it uncomfortable and messy, and thus diminish his experience. that's why i researched and developed an interest in enemas, and how i discovered information on prostate massage.
this week, while my husband was away on business, i experimented with enemas by administering one to myself. i was very nervous about this, and felt a little silly lying down in my tub with my feet propped on either side of the edge, pushing my ass upwards and then placing the tip of the container into my anus. we happened to have one fleet's pack of two regular size enemas in our medicine cabinet, bought last year when my husband broke his back, and we were told to have them on hand in case he became constipated from the medication.
at first, i could not get much liquid into my body. eventually, i was able to expel some material, and this made it easier to get more in the second time around. very slowly, i was finally able to empty the 4.5 oz contained into my rectum, and expel more material.
at this point, i became much braver, and felt the need for experiencing a higher volume of liquid in my body all at once. i re-filled the fleets container, this time with a mixture of half warm water and half baby oil. I was able to get the entire amount into my rectum by squeezing until the bottle resisted, then waiting, in position, for the fluids to work their way in, encouraging this process by contracting by rectal muscles. i was able to get the entire amount in, and i held it there for 15 minutes by inserting an ass plug that my husband has on-hand, also for medical purposes.
before long, i felt the need to expel, so i stood up. this increased the feeling of urgency, but i made myself wait the full 15 minutes before i let myself evacuate. i could tell i had reached much deeper into my body, because more material came out. also, the feeling of "having to go" did not immediately leave me, and over the course of the next 30 minutes, i achieved 3 more expulsions from that round of enema.
at this point, i was incredibly aroused. i had been using ky sensations lubricant to keep the butt plug and enema tip lubricated. i now wondered what it would feel like to have this thicker substance in my rectum. i was very nervous as i filled the fleet bottle with a mixture of 1/3 ky lube and 2/3 almost hot water. after 3 injections, i had succeeded in transferring all of the liquid into my rectum, and had just replaced the butt plug when i IMMEDIATELY felt an OVERWHELMING urge to go. it was uncomfortable, but in an erotic way, and i think that the glycol ingrediants of the lubricant acted as a stimulant, much like i've read liquid glycerin, or glycerin suppositories will.
this time i had to force myself to retain the liquid for 15 minutes. i was a little vocal during this time period, and found that it was easier to wait out the intense feeling if i moaned a bit. it took me about 45 minutes to evacuate after this one, and at this point i decided it was time to shower up. i brought my enema experience to an end by giving myself one more rinse-out with plain warm water in the shower. at this point my evacuations were completely clear. i made myself crouch with my knees pointed outward, as though i were taking a crap in the woods or something, and the humiliating position also made me completely aroused.
i did not touch myself, but waited until my husband got back that night to complete my satisfaction. he called me from the airport before leaving, and i confessed about my adventures and new fantasies, and he was not disgusted, and told me he was standing in the middle of the airport with a rock-hard erection. that night we had anal sex (again, him in me), and he was able to got he deepest he's ever been. he shot a massive amount of cum deep into my backside, that did not come out until the next morning.