I have realized, after saying earlier that this has happened to me a number of times, I only wrote of one incident.
Around three years after this first experience, while I was still very sexually inexperienced, I visited a new family physician with a couple of quite sensitive complaints.
It was a female doctor, I was 26 and she wasn’t much older; maybe late 20s or very early 30s.
At the time the thought of even talking to a woman about issues involving the genitals and/or bottom was enough to send me into a state of panic, and sure enough, in the days leading up to the appointment, the mere thought it would invariably result in a racing heart and difficulty breathing.
On the day of the exam, with these feelings in full effect I was shown in to the exam room by a nurse and told to wait for the doctor. I had seen her once before, a few weeks earlier, for a very basic ‘new patient exam‘ and she was quite an attractive, conservative looking lady with glasses and shoulder length light brown hair. She wore business casual type clothing without a white coat.
As I sat waiting, alone in the exam room, listening to any noises from outside in the corridor, I was going over in my head what I was going to tell her, not sure I was going to even have the courage to say it when she came in the room. Eventually the wait was over with a knock on the door. She came in, remembered me from a few weeks earlier, and displayed quite a relaxed familiarity, which put me a litter more at ease. At ease enough, that when she asked me what my reason for the appointment was, I was able to say about the blood I had seen on the toilet paper and the other digestive issues I had been experiencing….and once that was done, I even felt able to tell her about my other complaint; concerns about sexual performance and erections 😳.
After discussing both for a while she said that she’d like to examine me, and so stood up, opened a drawer in the exam table, and pulled out a patterned cloth drape. Laying it at the end of the exam table, she instructed me to take everything off below the waist, including underwear, and cover myself with the drape, and said she’d be back in shortly.
She left the room and closed the door, and I sat there on the edge of the exam table for a few seconds…’this is it….it’s happening’.
Realizing she would be back in before too long, I stood up and began unbuckling my belt. I felt it happening immediately. ’Please not now‘ I thought. But it was too late, by the time my jeans and underpants were off and put on the chair I was standing in the exam room, alone, naked from the waist down, with a full blown erection 😳.
I started to panic. ’What on earth was she going to think? What would she say? Should I say anything?’ I went back to the exam table and unfurled the drape. I sat down on the table and placed the drape over my lap in the manner I thought it was meant to be used, but as I had feared, the ‘tenting’ this caused was so obvious it would barely make her imminent return any any less embarrassing than if I was sitting there naked.
Knowing I had already used up a lot of time and fearing the knock in the door any second, I impulsively stood up and wrapped the cotton drape around me like a sarong, only so tight, it looked more like a skirt.
I sat back down on the exam table and looked down go my lap. It had done the job pretty much. I had wrapped it so tightly around my waist that the erection was being held down by it; not entirely, there was still a lump, but it was a fast improvement on the tent. Now I only had the embarrassment of sitting there in a skirt!
Moments later i heard the knock on the door and my doctor came back in. She took one look at me, smiled, and said, ’Oh, I meant for you to just lay that drape in your lap‘….I muttered something about not being sure what it was for, and she replied ‘Okay, it doesn’t matter, it will be coming off in a minute anyway’.
She turned her back to me and faced the wall next to the door where the box of exam gloves were attached. As she took a pair out and started to putting them on, she asked whether I had ever had a rectal exam before. I said no, and she explained what she was going to do and reassured me that it shouldn‘t really hurt but that it might feel a little uncomfortable.
Hearing her talking about inserting her lubricated gloved finger in to my rectum while she was stretching and snapping on the exam gloves in front of me only served to maintain the erection being pressed down by the taut cloth.
The doctor walked over to the base of the exam table and said “Okay, let’s do the genital exam first, so lie down face up for me“. Realizing that unwrapping my tightly wrapped ‘sarong‘ was going to leave be exposed in the most embarrassing and awkward way, I think I stalled for a little while. But as I eventually began to do as instructed and lie back, I noticed that my doctor had gone to a drawer in the table and brought out a tube of lubricating jelly, and had started squeezing it on to her right index finger.
As she walked over to the right hand side of the exam table she paused, and a little awkwardly said, “oh what was I thinking, I‘ve just gone and lubed up……why don’t we do the rectal exam first then….so change of plan, let’s have you roll on to your left side first and bring your right knee up to your chest. Oh and untuck the drape too.”
I was actually relieved. I did as she said and rolled over on to my left side so that I was now facing the wall, in a sort of half-fetal position; my erectile penis now very safely hidden by my body and the scrunched up drape. I felt her lift my gown up from behind me, exposing my bottom, and felt her place her hand on my hip. “okay, I’m going to take a quick look at the outside first” She said as her left hand left my hip and lifted up my right cheek. Out of the corner of my eye, I could see her face get down at the level of my butt.
”I don’t see any hemorrhoids or anything else obvious that would be causing the bleeding…..I’m going to insert my finger now….it will feel a little cold…”
I felt the cold wetness of the lube first smear against my cheek as she went in and then up against my anus. “Just bear down for me as if you were going to the bathroom“.
I did as instructed, and felt her finger slide in. As it slipped in I instinctively tightened my anus around it…almost grabbing her finger. “relax please, take a deep breath“…Somehow my mind couldn’t tell my ass to relax, and I just continued to clamp down with a vice like grip….”relax“ came the instruction again.
I eventually relaxed and accepted my fate. her finger slid easily and quickly all the way in, and I could again see her out of the corner of my eye. Now she was twisting her entire body as she circled the 360 degrees of my rectum with her finger. “You are very impacted, when did you last go to the toilet?”…..”ummmm, yesterday I think“.
She quickly removed her finger and saw her smear whatever was on it on to an occult blood test card.
”okay. Now roll back on to your back“ she said while removing the used gloves and snapping on a new pair. As I did so, to my relief, I was no longer fully erect. I didn’t look down, I just looked up at the ceiling as she came back to the side of the exam table and pulled away the drape. It was a very quick genital exam. Feeling my testicles she said everything checks out okay here, you can sit back up.
As I sat up and again and placed the drape back in my lap, she went over her findings. it was a little uncomfortable hearing talk about my genitals and how she would be happy to give me a sample packet of Levitra. It was awkward to again hear her tell me she had felt a lot of impacted stool in my rectum, and that she would prescribe me stool softeners and laxatives. I was relieved to hear that she hadn’t found any obvious cause of the bleeding but that relief was immediately tempered with her announcement that “I do nevertheless want to have you scoped“…..I knew what meant. But that was for another day.
I left relieved. Relieved it was over, and relieved that I had escaped believing that there was at least a possibility she hadn’t noticed my erection.
Only when I got in the privacy of my bedroom could I start to enjoy the memory…