Never thought about it until I hit my late 30s, which coincided with my first attempts at solo anal play. I was molested by a neighbor kid back when I was 7 (no actual sex happened but the attempt was made) and I think that kinda “planted the seed” subconsciously, because when I started looking at porn, all I wanted to see was anal sex (Hetero) and women’s asses and assholes.
Still, I was always straight and the idea of homosexual intimacy of any kind made me retch.
Then about 10 years ago I stumbled upon trans-porn (I know that trans-women are really women, but seeing a cock and balls where a vagina should be was enough of a trigger) and that combined with making peace with the suppressed memory of my molestation just opened the floodgates.
Now this doesn’t mean that I started finding men attractive by ANY stretch of the imagination. I have no interest in them physically, I still cringe at the idea of kissing one and sucking his cock, and I certainly don’t want to top a man. Hell, I need an erection to fuck someone and a man’s body doesn’t turn me on! I need WIDE hips, NARROW waist, creamy soft feminine skin, NARROW shoulders, a WOMAN’S body for that.
HOWEVER, I can’t stop thinking about what it would feel like to bottom. To have a man’s (or trans woman’s) hands on my hips as he/she pounds my upturned ass....if I ever get divorced...