Constant Cravings

@TrinaStarr 🌹

You've managed to grasp zitys functions quite well in such a short time….I'm sure you'll be just fine.

@TrinaStarr 🌹

You've managed to grasp zitys functions quite well in such a short time….I'm sure you'll be just fine.

I was able to watch @Dahiana when she logged on to show me some posts and she showed me what some of functions were. Your name @That_Australian has two parts and I didn't know about the “_” to get the name I wanted. It isn't that easy on a phone to do this and a computer is a lot better, but with a phone you have a wider choice of avatars. I'm a member on several “list serves” for various organizations and professional groups that I belong to, and a lot of this was sort of similar.

@Dahiana 🌹

Awoke at some crazy hour of the morning with bleary eyes & a foggy brain, called in here & by chance there was a music video playing in the background.

Thought to myself it could apply right here. .it has an amusing side to it

Monster – Fred Schneider (He of the B52''s) . . So ! . You might ponder. . Well the opening line . . get this . ."There's A Monster In My Pants" .😁

Coincidentally yesterday I had read a blog post by @Tillie who had mentioned the @Meat_Monster which in all probability could mean Dahiana has a @Meat_Monster in her pants

Could be on YouTube & it's worth a play. . both the music & the cast of characters are pretty good

Signed :

Sleepless In Oz.😎

Last night was sort of a first for me and I think I liked it, but I'm still sorting it out. 😏

@TrinaStarr was over after she got off work and I was working around the house just wearing my husband's, @Meat_Monster's enormous shirt and a pair of yoga pants. Trina kept asking me if they were the butt crack pants or the suspender tights and wanted me to lift up my shirt so she could see for herself. I'm thinking to myself that this chick is horny as hell 😝 but doesn't quite know how to make her approach or her move. She was dropping by pretty late because of something at her work and she said that Ted, her husband, was getting the kids ready for bed and that they were going to maybe play a little when she got home. I made the obvious question of "so what are you doing here?"

Then my brilliant cousin blurted out, “random enema” and what was giving one or getting one like? I had no idea where she was going with this and I told her that random enemas are random enemas. Duh! 🤪 She is a super smart lady, but at the same time she is clueless as hell in some things. She was seeing how I was reacting to her dumb ass question so she tried to explain that she wanted to know what kind of clues should she be looking for, when is the best time, what is the best approach. I could see what she meant and why she was asking and that she was trying to figure out when to spring a random enema on good old Ted. A lot of this would depend on whether Ted is far enough into enemas to accept getting a random enema and we were talking about that, when MM walked by and told Trina “Hi” and that he was just about to put the kids to bed for the night and that it was past their bedtime and then he went to wrangle them up.

MM was barely down the hall and I'm sure he heard Trina tell me that she wanted to give me a random enema. 😯 I asked Trina if all this was about her giving me a random enema or just what was she really wanting? I'm pretty sure that it was a defining moment for us on just the subject of us giving each other random enemas, but I was feeling like we had skipped a step towards them becoming part of what we do with each other. The look on her face told me she was dead on balls serious and not sure if we had skipped a step either, but it was out there and she wanted to give me a random enema. MM was taking care of the kids and so I told MM that she and I were going downstairs and he knew what that meant.

MM had fixed up the downstairs bedroom and bath so that Trina and I wouldn't have to go to the Mother Ship in the cold and dark and it was more comfortable. We're down there and I get my enema bag out of the closet down there and Trina was in running the water to get it hot so I could have a “random warm water enema”. But there wasn't any hot water coming out of the hot water side so I went and told MM what the problem was. He had forgotten to turn it back on when he was fixing a leak and finished taking care of that and was about to go.

But before he started back up the stairs Trina asked him if he wanted to stay or even watch her give me a random enema? MM gets a surprised look on his face and I'm immediately thinking WTF? 😨 I am looking at MM and Trina both to see if they had plotted something but MM really did look surprised and not sure what to say or if I would even go for it. Then I see MM looking at me and Trina to see if we were up to anything and setting this all up and that convinced me that MM wasn't in on this. I could also tell that he was caught off guard but that he liked the idea but just wasn't sure what was going on.

But here's the kicker for me, the more I thought the more I wanted Trina to give me a random enema and the idea of MM watching her give it to me made it better and better. Even more I don't think Trina had really thought she would ask to give me a random enema and even more than that, I don't think she ever imagined that she would want MM to watch. We were jumping ahead, way ahead, with something and I wasn't sure, I am not sure exactly what we skipped. But pretty soon I am just wearing MM's t shirt and nothing else while Trina started to hand my enema bag on the hook above the bed. I'm looking at MM as she is doing this and his side glances from me to her and back again and for some reason, off came my shirt and I'm there letting it all hang out for everyone to see. This shit got real for all of us and when Trina looked at me after she got through hanging my enema bag and then shot MM a look, I knew that we were playing all of this by ear.

MM sat across from me by the bed and was watching Trina lube my nozzle and me getting settled in on my left side and I watched him. Then the moment of truth and I could feel Trina lifting my ass cheek and I was looking at MM and surprised to see him looking me in my eyes and not watching Trina put the enema nozzle into my ass. I wasn't expecting to feel ❤️❤️❤️ for MM like I was but there it was, the look in his eyes as he watched my face and seeing what it was I was feeling. I love that huge beast meat monster and there are just looks that I see in his eyes or flashing across his face that make me realize just how hopeless as fuck in love with him that I am. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

THAT'S WHAT BLEW MY MIND!!!!!!!!! Not the part about Trina wanting to give me a random enema, although that is part of it, but how accepting, maybe, MM was of seeing me get an enema from someone else. I'm writing this and I really have no idea how I feel or what I feel about last night, except that MM's reaction sent me deep into him more than I dreamed and over something like this. There was a lot that went on with that random enema and I'm no where near putting it together just yet. Yes, it was a first for getting a random enema from Trina, and a first for her giving one, and a first for me being watched by MM getting a random enema from anyone.

Yeah 🤯 that's where I'm at and maybe when I read this in a few days I will have it figured out. 🤯🤯🤯 All I can really say is that I think I liked the whole thing but I can't tell you exactly why.

Fawkin’ HOT as we used to say in my hometown.

there must be something in the air shenanigan wise - this, @Ms_Lila, and I’m in the midst of writing up some depraved shit I got up to this past weekend. Gotta be the Pumpkin Spice.

Quite amazing @Dahiana . I expect that took quite a bit of mulling over afterwards. Kudo to @TrinaStarr for suggesting it, and for both of you and MM for going for it. Nice to see your love expanding all the time.

That was HOT @Dahiana!

❤️❤️❤️ for MM like I was but there it was, the look in his eyes as he watched my face and seeing what it was I was feeling. I love that huge beast meat monster and there are just looks that I see in his eyes or flashing across his face that make me realize just how hopeless as fuck in love with him that I am. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

That blew me away. 🌹 You two are totally in love with each other. ❤️❤️

@Nurse_Phillips after reading your post https://en.zity.biz/index.php?mx=blog;ox=showpage;pg=6562 I think I can understand it more about being examined or on “display” in front of others. It was wild being the only one naked 🥵🥵🥵 with @TrinaStarr giving me an enema in front of @Meat_Monster and just feeling sooooo naked. 🥵 I was not expecting to feel that way but I think I like it and will be talking about this with MM for a while now and in the future.

It was awesome! 🥵

So Dahiana does this mean you want all of them to attend your naked enemas from now on? Perhaps even post videos for the rest of us?

https://en.zity.biz/index.php?mx=forum;ox=display;msg=971733

This is for @Dahiana and @TrinaStarr and in hopes that one or both of the pair of you post something about your sexploration 🤨 which is of interest to me at least. DD in that thread above started by @SwitchableSusie you queried her about her bisexual experience in comparison to your own. 🌹

Trina has posted that things between her and you has evolved rapidly and more involved than school girls exploring one another in the past. Will either of you be posting about this sometime this year? 🤔

@Ms_Lila I am only about half way through that link that you posted done by @SwitchableSusie and it is amazing! I haven't made it to the part where @Dahiana is supposed to be talking about bi sexual experiences and I hope she does write something this year 🙄 about what she and I have been doing. It's been intense at times and we have pushed some limits here and there and I don't know whether we will ever get tired of it.

Speaking of that, Beth Anne, I loved your post about wanting @Cedar. ❤️ Do you think we'll hear anything about that this year? 😕😁

Touché.

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@TrinaStarr 🌹

@Ms_Lila I am only about half way through that link that you posted done by @SwitchableSusie and it is amazing! I haven't made it to the part where @Dahiana is supposed to be talking about bi sexual experiences and I hope she does write something this year 🙄

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Speaking of that, Beth Anne, I loved your post about wanting @Cedar. ❤️ Do you think we'll hear anything about that this year? 😕😁

Agent provocateur 😁

Last night I dropped by @Dahiana's and @Meat_Monster's house on the way home to drop off a new bulb enema syringe that DD and I can use on me when I'm over at her house or in the Mother Ship and we want to do bulb enemas. I bought her and me a pair of bulb enemas that we can use at my house when she comes over and she also has an enema bag here for when she comes over after we get the kids in bed. Between her and me, we have been buying a lot of enema equipment and I also have my own enema bag at her house for when we play.

But that's not entirely why I am writing this because last night when I stopped by their house and sat down with DD and MM after giving DD my enema bulb for there, I asked them if I could talk to both of them about something. DD already knew where I wanted to take the conversation because we've been talking about it ever since I gave her an enema in front of MM. Now, she and I want to take things even further, especially since DD gave me an enema, a bag enema, in front of “Ted” and MM at my house and how I reacted to it. In fact, DD and I have been almost constantly talking about those two times and how we reacted and how it tapped into something in us, maybe even our DNA.

If you can imagine, what I have written above is something DD and I were talking about as I was telling DD that I was going to leave that bulb enema with her at her house. We had a plan and I've been asking MM a lot of really personal questions about men and enemas and really pushing the limits of decency or respecting his privacy. MM's seen me naked when DD gave me that bag enema at my house in our bedroom but Ted was there when it happened. I've been feeling like Ted is the “odd man out” in a way about the enemas and what they are becoming to DD and me, and that MM has more of an insight into what is going on right now. I'm not comfortable with Ted being on the “out” and I want to be able to share the whole picture with him, so last night, to get to the point, DD gave me a bulb enema down in the basement bedroom while MM was there watching and we were all talking about what was going through my mind.

I took it all off and plead my case while I put it all out there about what I was feeling and not wanting Ted to miss out on anything or feel like he isn't part of my newly found whatever it is I've got going right now. This isn't simple or easy for me to explain about all of this, but it's about what I was rambling on and on about when DD was giving me that first bulb enema in front of MM. DD was also jumping in there a few times to try to help me explain what I was feeling or trying to say to MM and I have to admit that I don't think we give enough credit to our husbands to be able to follow what we are trying to say. And by that I mean that MM broke it down in some simple terms when he summed it up by saying that what we were rambling on about was for him to give me permission to give DD enemas in front of Ted or not get uptight if Ted walked in on us doing a bulb enema or bag enema or just being naked with each other.

I was so relieved! But I made sure to follow up that if Ted saw DD naked and getting an enema that there wouldn't be any sex involved or expected. I could see that was on MM's mind and I also said that it didn't mean that Ted would be giving DD any enemas, bag or bulb, and that DD and I would always be in the same room if Ted, OR MM, walked in and if they did, if they wanted to stay and talk then it was OK, IF DD and I weren't doing something else. All of this while DD was giving me a bulb enema in front of MM. ❣️

Right now DD and I have this thing going on and neither one of us wanting to keep anything hidden from Ted or MM. The sex thing with DD and basically picking up where we left off in high school just involved us two, basically. But when DD brought in the enemas, it was something she had picked up from MM, and also, probably Aunt @Lora_C, and they are something belonging to DD's and MM's marriage. I'm getting Ted on board with the enemas, too, but he's more of a “giver” than a “taker” at this point and I'm fine with that, well, more than fine with that. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

I wrote this here at DD's “HOUSE” because it has a lot to do with her husband MM and us talking about some “rules” for what is essentially something between DD and me, but there is no way we can honestly say that it isn't our husbands' business. It's just good to know where the boundaries are and I don't want to keep secrets from my husband or be a secret kept from DD's husband. We come from some pretty astonishing women, DD and I, and my Mom “Sally” is someone I am finding more and more just as deep as Aunt Lora. ❤️❤️❤️ I love Ted with all my heart and he's part of this and I don't want any secrets from him. I don't want to be a secret kept from a great guy like MM, whose taste in wives shows that he has a soft spot for stubborn and tactless women 😉 and she loves him like crazy.

I love Ted with all my heart and he's part of this and I don't want any secrets from him. I don't want to be a secret kept from a great guy like MM, whose taste in wives shows that he has a soft spot for stubborn and tactless women 😉 and she loves him like crazy.

Well said @TrinaStarr 🌹 brava. 🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹

Very well written @TrinaStarr . I think you got your point across to MM very well and his response was great. I am sure Ted will be onboard as well pretty soon.

Nice to know that you and DD are making this “all inclusive” for the four of you, and I don't mean that in a sexual way.

@TrinaStarr that was a good talk that we had last night and I really appreciated your bravery and honesty when @Dahiana was giving you the bulb enema. This is the second time I've seen you getting an enema from DD and I'm not sure what to say or how to describe what I'm feeling or thinking, except that you are one strong woman. I also have been thinking about what I felt about you when you were given that first enema in front of your husband or this time when you were getting a bulb enema in front of me while we talked.

My impression of the first enema was that you were a little surprised but that it was more of you living out a little bit of fantasy of being the center of attention. I got that impression because DD and I had talked about you giving her that enema in front of me and how she was really into it because she thinks she has some exhibitionism somewhere inside. I'm not going to make a joke out of this or put in some emoji because it meant something to DD and from what I saw of that first enema at your house, it meant something to you too.

This is more in depth than I usually go but you and DD are right about it being easier for me to open up about my enemas and my secret if you are willing to put yourself out there too. Last night was a big step for you and me, and DD, and I'm going to put it here in DD's “HOUSE” that I'm good with DD getting enemas at your house and if your husband is there to see her get that enema, then that is more than fine by me. I have to admit that I wondered if your husband, what's he called here? Ted? felt like he was being left out or if it was fair that I got to see you naked and he didn't get to see DD naked.

While you and DD have sex and do enemas, I'm not even close to opening up the sex question right now and I may not go there ever. I just don't know about DD having sex with another guy but I don't think I'll have any problem if Ted sees you giving her an enema or whatever else. I wouldn't mind walking in on “whatever else” myself. 😉

You two, go for it.

I'm going to go over to @TrinaStarr's when she gets home tonight to go over some art projects we are working on and to have “that” talk with her husband “Ted”. I'm very ready for this and I am looking forward to it and I hope it goes as well as it did when we, Trina and I, had “that” talk with @Meat_Monster last night. I kept my clothes on while I gave her a bulb enema and the conversation was centered on her and what she wanted to accomplish with letting her husband Ted in on every aspect of what she and I are doing and we don't want anything left to guess about for MM or Ted. 🌹🌹

Ted is a great guy and has been great about Trina and me getting even deeper into our relationship than ever before. Both MM and I did really get what Trina was talking about when she said that she felt that Ted was the outsider since she and I got into enemas with each other. Enemas are part of MM's and my scene and just by me doing enemas with Trina, that made it feel like Trina was in on some of my marital ways with MM when I reached out to Trina with the enemas. This is the right thing to do and I am looking forward to my conversation with Trina and Ted tonight. I really am. ❤️

I know it is the right thing to do with Ted being there and I don't know how long it will take, but I'm good with however long we need. The only thing Trina and I are trying to decide is whether I take my clothes off or if she takes my clothes off in front of Ted. At this stage we need to make sure we don't cross some line between her and me and our husbands and I am thinking of those “little" rules about holding hands with our husband, or picking lint off of or straightening his collar. You might laugh but that is some serious shit when it comes to the little things between two people. I totally understand when @gibby kicked the shit out of that Australian Amazon chick when she up and straightened up her husband's collar. That shit is for real. 😡

AND one more random thing while I am holding this enema before going to @TrinaStarr's tonight, IF those VA therapists really want to know how to help someone one deal with PTSD, they would teach the significant others all about enemas, sucking cock or eating pussy instead of the KUMBYA bullshit and drugs they try to push off on our Veterans. Sometimes @Meat_Monster starts to “go dark” and I have learned to watch for this just by loving his hulking rock hard muscled tight assed body with a gooey soft heart on the inside. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

When I see him going dark I lose my clothes and grab our enema stuff and take him out into the Mother Ship and suck and fuck the living shit out of him. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ But guess what? I sometimes “go dark” too and especially now, for some reason, when this hurt and emptiness hits me about losing Mom @Lora_C and Dad so close together. That's why I haven't written so much lately but this huge muscled man built like an iron carrot has been giving me random enemas, bending me over the kitchen table, or the hall catch, or when I'm bent over the getting things out of the trunk, and cold fucking me in my ass until I cry. And I'm not crying because he is hurting me because he never had, I'm crying because this hunk of man meat isn't letting me get off into the dark. He fucks me out of it.

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So, the bitch is back. 😈

Long live the bitch. 🌹🌹🌹

And you know who you are. 😁🌹

So, the bitch is back. 😈

@Dahiana Welcome back!!! ❤️

Sometimes @Meat_Monster starts to “go dark” and I have learned to watch for this just by loving his hulking rock hard muscled tight assed body with a gooey soft heart on the inside. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

I like that bit the most. 😈 😃 🌹

@Meat_Monster came by @Ms_Lila's shop and picked up the thundering herd to take them out for some dinner and give me a little alone time. Except that I'm meeting @TrinaStarr in a little while and we will both be wearing anal jewels our husbands gave to us for Christmas. 🌹❤️😈 At least I think she will be wearing her anal jewel but MM checked me out before he left here and I have a feeling he's going to get lucky tonight. ❤️

A lot has been happening in Trina's and Ted's life lately and it's all been moving pretty fast for her, for them both, and she and I haven't had much time to get together to just see how we've been doing. Kids and relatives have been keeping us busy and between both of us we have been piecing Mom's @Lora_C's life together by poking around her in zity.biz and going through her things as I get things together to see what to do with the house. Most of the things have been all packed away and stored in an upper space in the Mother Ship and going to Mom and Dad's place is pretty lonely in a lot of ways.

As a matter of fact, while I am writing this, I think I want to take or have Trina follow me over to Mom & Dad's so we can really talk. I keep the gas and electricity on and the water so that their house doesn't just start to decay. It was over too soon for them and just when they had found that key to being happy together. I go by the house at the very least once a week to check on it and make sure that things are locked up. When I was going through Mom's things I knew what to look for and I found her enema bags, the first anal jewel that @Cedar had given to her, and it is a very nice one, dishwasher safe and I sometimes wear it out and around. She had a ton of dildos, vibrators, and lots of sex toys that saw a lot of use.

I am so glad that Mom wrote about her sexscapades here ❤️ and it takes the sting out of her passing like you wouldn't believe. Her posts fill in a lot of details about her life, her pictures, and posts about her keep her alive in my memory and I am a lot more sentimental than I realized. There are some DVD's that had been locked away and a couple of hard drives that Mom had told me were videos and pictures of her and Dad and also @gibby and her husband and @Ms_Lila and @Night_Pilot when they were on vacation at that nudie seaside resort. For some reason she told me what was on the hard drives a few weeks before she died and that they were explicit. She said that Gibby and her husband Pete did some glamor shots for all of them and that there were some videos of Mom being Mom ❤️ with all of them individually and sometimes in threesomes and foursomes. 😈 She said that there are some of her and Dad but I'm not sure if I could or should watch those or see those all the way or just what to do.

I have to admit that I did watch a video where it was just Mom and Beth Anne and I don't know what I was expecting. I think I expected to see them fucking each other but instead, I think maybe I saw them making love. There were a lot of closeups of their faces when they were doing what they were doing and they both laughed a lot while they were “getting it on” as old people say. I know I probably should have asked Beth Anne if it was OK to watch her and Mom together but I wasn't thinking about that when I watched them and they were having fun and enjoying each other.

There was a special video of just Mom doing an enema by herself that I think I've watched a dozen times. It's about 40 minutes long and Mom is just talking about her life and what her dreams and hopes were as well as things she wished she had done better. Sometimes she would do that “cackle laugh” when she talked about something and other times she was crying as she told about things in her life that she wished she had done differently. It looked like there had been several enemas she had done to get that 40 minute video and I think that there are “outtakes” somewhere on the hard drive that I will need to find to get the full story. The last one on that video looked like Mom was talking to or telling her story to another woman, and I think it must have been Gibby, but I will have to ask her sometime.

I will probably get up the nerve or set aside the “Ewww" factor and maybe watch my Mom and Dad in the vids that they did, but I'm not there yet. Mom's posts here were or are fantastic all by themselves and the posts about her are even more telling than I knew. It's about life and love and what it should be like and I've learned more about both love and life by writing down my own thoughts here. It's really Mom's ❤️ legacy to me and it goes a long way to keep the hurt and loss away and put it in perspective. It also makes me wonder what kind of legacy I will leave to my kids that won't send them into therapy for the rest of their lives trying to get past the “ewww” factor if I leave them what Mom and Dad left me. I may not be doing right by watching and reading what she wrote or posed for or let be videoed, but it doesn't feel like it.

It's almost time for Trina to be dropping by and I'm definitely going to have her go with me to Mom and Dad's. And in spite of the back and forth I do with Trina, she really is a great friend. I'm not saying that again! 🙄 The finger cramps are a bitch.

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@Dahiana that video with Aunt @Lora_C is priceless. ❤️

@Dahiana that video with Aunt @Lora_C is priceless. ❤️

That has to be very special for the two of you. 🌹🌹🌹

Very nice and touching. No problems… 😊

@Meat_Monster woke me up this morning with a totally random enema 😈 and I really wasn't fully awake yet. I knew what was going on because I wasn't in that dreamy state, but that gray area of how much more time can I stay in bed. I had reached out for the best source of heat in our bed and he wasn't there and I was barely asking where he might be and dozing at the same time. Then the covers over my ass are lifted and I just smile because I know what the giant was doing. Everything about it felt good and it was the right temperature, he inserted it like he owned my ass and didn't care if I was fully awake or not. As enemas go, it was a fairly quick fill in that dreamy half awake state. The thought did cross my mind that maybe I should fuck this carrot shaped man with a cock but the clock by the bedside was fuzzy and I was getting an enema.

The way he was giving me the enema told me he intended to wake me up and it was working and I got more on my left side for a few seconds and then on my belly when I heard that “kiss” sound of the enema all out of the bag and in my ass. 😈 He was being bossy and told me that I should get moving and I told him he'd better help and hold the bag while I got out of bed and into the bathroom. He loves it when I walk to the bathroom with the enema nozzle still in my ass and how the hose sways when I walk. I'm pretty much awake now by the time I get to the toilet and MM has the beginnings of a nice erection but we heard the kids, or I said I heard the kids 😉😈 and since I was busy, he said he would take care of them.

I got my shower and we got the kids fed and dressed so they could come down here to @Ms_Lila's shop with me and we all cleared the table. I told them to take care of their business and get their coats on and get their little butts out into the car in the garage because we were leaving in 10 minutes. 😑 I got them all strapped in and told them to wait.

Long story short, I don't know why by men seem to think that they aren't easy. They are. MM started to say that we didn't have time for me to blow him but he doesn't last long when I put the suck lock on him. Suck lock is his term. 😈

He was putting it away when I went back to the car and drove off with the kids and made it to the shop with time to spare. 😎

What a great way to start the day @Dahiana . 😃 You guys rock.