Constant Cravings

I am 33 years old, married for ten years, and a mother of two, a boy who is 7 and a girl who is 3. I want to spice up my sex life and see if I can get out of the doldrums my husband and I are in because of our young family and keeping up with things. I have known my husband since 4th grade and we were no stranger to exploring and really took it to the limit many times but not all of the way. But I also did some exploration with another girl that I grew up with, too.

We knew from the beginning we would someday make it permanent, but until that was to happen, we did go out with other people. I did not lose my virginity to him, and he wasn't even the second or third guy I slept with after I got out of high school and he went overseas. But before he went overseas I knew it was a high probability I wouldn't see him again, and I did him without thinking twice.

Since he and I were not engaged or romantically involved other than having grown up together, I was pretty adventurous in college with other guys and I did my best to sample as much of life, and men, as I could. I know he did the same when he was away, too, but when he came back and I was through with college, we got serious about each other and decided to get married.

He turns me on like no other guy, but kids, bills, jobs, and what-have-you, made it hard to find time for us. We are needing more, and I am needing more. Although I consider myself as straight, I have always wondered what it would be like to be with another woman. When I was in high school I did the usual exploring with a girlfriend that didn't go much beyond kissing and fondling each other with the insertion of a finger or two. She was the family friend who I grew up with and who spent an awful lot of time in the principal's office or being separated to separate sides of the class room to keep us from talking in class.

We also got our new boobs at about the same time and were not afraid to show each other how fast our pubic hair was changing from 'peach fuzz' to the real deal. Likewise we both started our periods about the same time and never ever believed all that stuff about it being a blessing and all that other propaganda that was written by some guy. But she moved away and went to a different college and we both got busy with our lives and living them.

There is a song by k d lang called, "Constant Craving" that has been going through my head for quite awhile now. And for those who read my profile, I am "Straight" because there isn't a "Bi-Curious" or "Heteroflexible-Wannabe" category. I can also be a bitch.

Something has to change with my sex life and I want my husband to be a major part of that. It's been pretty vanilla for us whenever we can spare the time, but I'm getting selfish and I want more. If I can get more, then I can give more. And I think I'm looking early enough to head off divorce-court and get back that magic. I want to explore with him and find a "her" to possibly explore with, too. I need him to buy into this little need of mine, too, because he really is a sexy guy, a good husband, and a great Dad who has finally been trained to put the toilet seat down.

For right now, I am the one feeling this need the most and that is why I am here. And like @Ms_Lila said:

My husband and I are beginning our own sexual evolution and feel our renewed sexuality melding with our souls.

And I want him to see our need to get out of the rut we are in, and get our time for ourselves back so we both can be happy.

I guess I will make this "my thread" and see where this takes me. I am going to do like others who write here do, such as @Ms_Lila, and see what tips I can pick up from here.