Are pain fantasies normal?

I do not think pain the experience and or the fantasy is abnormal. I enjoy nipple pain, CBT, spanking. Love to fantasize about. Hard to practice in real life. There is something very stimulating about being tied and helpless. Waiting for the strike of a whip, hand, or paddle on ass or balls/penis. Nipples clamped to be somewhat abused.

Who will really judge it, what was normal or abnormal ?? - for myself the word " normal " is only a programm to put in place the washing - machine !!

Much to my surprise, pain fantasies that became reality were a totally positive experience. In recent months, I have gone much farther toward serious pain than ever before, and find it invigorating - a strange word seldom associated with pain. But it puts me in the moment, shuts down my constant brain chatter, and opens up my primal energy. I simply react, without filters or even awareness of my sounds, reflexes, facial expressions etc. And I absolutely love the endorphin and adrenaline rush that results from really intense sensations.