My husband and I had been married for a little over two years and we had a one year old son. I had never really enjoyed making love or having sex and after my son was born I went frigid. I don't know why, but sex turned me totally off. My husband tried everything to make me comfortable and relaxed but I just didn't want to have anything to do with sex in general.

Soon we sought the help of a counselor and after months of talking things over we were referred to a doctor Breeden that specialized in these matters. My husband was quite frustrated with the whole mess and I knew that if I didn't do something I was going to loose him. So we found ourselves in the waiting room of the clinic and I was filling out a long questionnaire.

Most of the questions were about sexual relations and what I liked to indulge in as far as making love. Vaginal sex, nipple play, anal sex, etc...I felt my face flush a bit as I filled out the form and my husband read a magazine. The form went on to ask about caressing and where I liked to be touched and fondled. At the bottom was a place for more comments and I explained in this area about how supportive and patient my spouse had been with the whole thing but I felt like I didn't want to be touched. I also explained that I had always been shy.

I gave the form to the nurse at the desk and looked around the room at the other couples waiting, there were three in all and it took about twenty minutes before we were called back to see the doctor. We were escorted into a office and the nurse said that the doctor would be with us in a few minutes. My husband held my hand as we sat in front of the big desk. Soon a tall blond man in his 40's introduced himself and shook our hands and instead of sitting in his chair he perched himself on his desk and picked up my folder and looked through it.

“Mrs. Miller please tell me why your here?”

I started to tell him about my feelings of having sex and how after my son was born the feeling got stronger and that my husband and I hadn't engaged in intercourse for more than a year.

“Well I see that Kent referred you to me and he was unable to help with your sexual fidgety"

He then questioned Ervin about his feelings of my problem, and my husband explained that all his efforts had no effect and that he was getting quite inpatient.

“Well first of all I would like to do a full physical to make sure nothing is medically wrong.” He looked at me and I bowed my flushed face and nodded my head.

“I will have the nurse prepare you for the physical while I have a few words with your husband...Is that OK Mrs. Miller?"

I just nodded my head again and he went to the door and came back with a nurse.

“Please take Mrs. Miller to exam room 3 and prep her for a complete."

“Come with me please Mrs. Miller and we will get you all fixed up.”

I got up from my chair and followed the nurse into a overly large exam room. It looked more like a operating room than a exam room. In the center of the room was a large table with big stirrups at the end, so that it would house my thighs to my feet. They were padded with something that looked like sheep skin.

“Mrs. Miller if you would please go into the dressing room and disrobe and put this on we can get started.....Oh and please relieve your bladder into this cup."

I went into the small room and took off my clothes and put on the cotton gown that I tied around my neck but couldn't reach the other strings. I then filled the cup with my urine and slowly made my way back to the large room with the cup in my hand. The nurse took the cup.

“Mrs. Miller if you would please step onto the scale.”

The nurse proceeded to take my vitals and then asked me to get up onto the table. I slowly made my way to the table and sat at the end with the stirrups looming on each side of me. The nurse brought over a cart and I could see a bowl and a razor on it's top.

“What's that?” I nodded to the cart

“I need to shave your pubic area and anus,” The nurse replied

My mouth fell open, “But why....I didn't even get shaved when I had my baby."

“Mrs. Miller the doctor wants to do a full exam and he requires that his patients be clean shaven so there won't be any discomfort from the instruments.....Now please lay flat on the table and place your feet into the stirrups."

Oh why did this have to be done...I hated to be in the stirrups anyway and now I was going to be shaved of all the hair that gave me a little privacy. I scooted back and laid down on the table. The nurse helped me place my legs into the stirrups and they felt soft and padded with the sheep skin. She adjusted the foot of the stirrups so that my feet were flat and my toes stuck up to the ceiling. She then widened my legs a bit further and I bit my lip as the cool air hit my private parts.

“Mrs. Miller please scoot down so that your bottom is hanging just over the edge."

I scooted down and she encouraged me down more. My bottom was soon just off the table and my thighs up tightly against the padded stirrups. She then placed Velcro straps around my thighs, about my knees and around my ankles.

“Are you OK Mrs. Miller...cold?....Don't fight the stirrups … you’re going to be in them for some time and I don't want you getting cramps in your hips.”

I just laid there looking at the lights above me and I shook my head. I flinched as she spread cold lather onto my pubic area and then she started to shave me from the top of my mound down.

“Just close your eyes and try and relax....you know some women like to keep there sex shaved."

She chatted on about other women and the Dr. and how I was in good hands. I stared at the lights as my mound was shaved. She spread my legs just a bit more and I groaned as they widened to the point of almost pain.

“Sorry I just need to make sure I get in-between your legs and labia."

Soon she was lathering my bottom and the razor made its way around my anus. She then took a warm cloth and wiped me clean.

“There now as clean as a baby's bottom."

I thought she was going to let me up but she rolled the cart away and went to the sink I could hear water running and then she brought an IV pole up to the table by my leg. I could see a clear bag was filled with milky white fluid.

“What are you doing?” I whimpered.

“I need to give you a few cleansing enemas so the doctor can look way up into your bowel."

Just then there was a knock at the door and the doctor came in with my husband behind him.

"Here we go....I'll be back as soon as she's ready,” the doctor said and he left the room.

My husband saw me and stared at my bottom spread wide and shaved, he walked around and stood by my side looking down at my clean mound. He took my hand in his and kissed it.

"I'm just getting ready to give the enemas, maybe you can help Mr. Miller."

I had tears in my eyes as I looked at the bag that hung by my legs.

“Whatever you need me to do nurse."

“Well I'm going to need you to massage her belly as the enema is being administered...do you think you can do that....I will help of course."

Ervin held my hand tight and looked into my face, he knew that I was shy and this was hard on me. “Ya I can help,” he said looking at me.

I heard something wheel up between my legs and hit up against the table. Ervin looked down to see it. and then he looked back up to me with concern.

“What ......what is it?” I asked.

“Just a bowl to drain you dear."

“Oh god babe do I have to do this?” I pleaded with my husband.

“Well no dear you don't have to do it but it wouldn't hurt to see if you have any medical problem that might be interfering."

“OK Mrs. Miller I'm going to lube your anus and put in the nozzle ...I will then inflate the nozzle inside you to help you hold the enemas....I will also inflate a balloon on the outside to help seal you so that you won't leak any fluid.....Just my finger now."

I closed my eyes and Ervins grip tightened around my hand. I felt something cold at my anus and the nurse lubed around my hole.

“Deep breath now dear."

I took a deep breath and her finger poked into me a little way and I groaned the breath out. She turned her finger in me and pushed farther. I made a little gasp as I now felt her hand up to my bottom telling me that her whole finger was inside me twisting and turning.

“I need to stretch you some to help the nozzle to go in....Just try and relax down here."

I took several deep breaths as her finger pulled and stretched my anus. It didn't hurt but it made me feel as if I needed to go to the bathroom. She manipulated my anus for quite some time and then she stopped and pulled down on my anus. I then felt something cold and big at my hole and she pushed it in and pulled her finger out at the same time. Now my grip tightened around Ervin's hand as my anus widened to take the nozzle.

“UGGGGH”I groaned as the nozzle hit its mark.

“Good your doing just fine Mrs. Miller.”

I opened my eyes and Ervin bent over and whispered in my ear “You doing great darling I'll be right here."

I remember him saying the same thing to me as I was in labor and I wished that this was that easy. I heard a hissing sound and started to feel a full feeling in my rectum. I then felt something inflate up against my anus as the balloon inflated at my exterior anus. I soon felt stretched and I moaned a bit as the tension built on my inside.

“OK Mrs. Miller ...you OK dear?”

I just nodded and closed my eyes as I felt the tubing being manipulated as the nurse hooked me up to the bag.

“Just relax ...I'm going to start the enema now."

I heard a Click and the warm water started to fill me, It wasn't long before I felt some cramping and she stopped the flow.

“OK Mr. Miller ...I want you to start to massage her belly like this and continue to massage even after I start the flow again....This is a powerful enema to break up any feces she has inside."

The nurse pulled my gown up to revile my tummy and she started to massage my belly showing Ervin how to do it.

“Good kneed it like some bread.....feeling better dear ?"

I nodded my head and took a deep breath and I watched as Ervin continued to massage me as I heard the CLICK and the water flowed again. She stopped and started the enema a few times before it was all in and I felt balloted. Ervin massaged me and then the nurse joined him after all the fluid was in me.

“Now we will massage it around real good to help it work....you need to keep this in you for at least twenty minutes."

They massaged my belly and I could feel the fluid make its way to the depths of my body. I could hear my tummy gurgle with the enema in me.

“OK Mrs. Miller I'm going to release the enema now...Mr. Miller if you would please continue to massage."

She disconnected to tubing and the contents of my body emptied into a bowl. It stunk and I started to cry from the embarrassment. The nurse then went over to the sink and filled another bag and brought it over to the IV pole, She didn't take the old bag down but just rehooked a bigger bag with the white fluid in it. I moaned as I saw the bag.

“OK Mr. Miller you can stop now....I'm going to hook up the second enema."

Ervin stopped massaging me and held my hand as the nurse reconnected the bag to my bottom. I received four enemas in all each bigger than the next but it seemed that I could stand each one with little discomfort.

“OK were all done now...I'll just get you draped for the doctor and you'll be ready."

The nurse cleaned up my bottom and then brought over some green type of sheets. She took one and placed it over my foot and then pulled it over my leg until it covered my thigh, She did the same to the other leg, she then placed a green drape over my belly so that now all that was exposed was my crotch.

“I'm going to put your head down just a bit dear."

She came up beside me and pushed a button and my upper body slowly went down so that I would have to strain to see between my legs.

“I'm just going to secure your head to the table now so you wont get intimidated by the doctors instruments."

She placed a Velcro strap over my forehead and sealed it tight so that now I couldn't move my head.

“Mrs. Miller I need you to bring your arms to the side of the table now."

I moved my arms and I felt straps going around my wrist so that I couldn't move my arms. “Oh why do I need to be restrained."

“The doctor is going to perform some procedures that may be uncomfortable and we need you to be safe."

“Mr. Miller will you stand at her head and give her encouragement."

Ervin stood at the head of the table and talked to me. I was now crying as I felt that I was getting ready to have surgery rather than a exam. I heard the nurse clanking things around in the room and carts being wheeled up to the side of the table and the bottom. I laid there with my bottom completely open and exposed.

“I'm going to get the doctor now...I'll be right back."

I heard the door close and I could see Ervin looking at the bottom of the table. “What do you see.” I cried to him

“Oh just some medical stuff dear ...I don't know what it all is."

He kissed my forehead and I heard the door open then close. The doctor came up beside me and looked down into my face.

“I know this doesn't seem like a regular exam Mrs. Miller and it really isn't going to be like your annual....At first I'm going to do the usual exam but I will then take a tube and look up into your bladder and a long flexible tube to look up into your colon....This is going to take some time but I want to make sure that there isn't anything wrong physically and to see if you can go through any treatment plan that I may prescribe....you have any questions?”

I shook my head the little I could and he looked to my husband that cradled my head in his hands. Ervin nodded and the doctor moved from my view.

“Nurse will you please give Mrs. Miller 10 mg of Valium IM please."

The nurse came over and exposed my hip and gave me a shot. I felt its effects right away. I was still awake but a little light headed. The doctor came back to my side and pulled up my gown now even further and started to massage my breast checking for any lumps or discharge.

“Just a little stimulation now to see if they react."

He then took my tits between his fingers and twisted them lightly. My nipples got hard right away and stood erect. He then left my side and I looked up to my husband and asked him to pull my gown down.

“No I need to have her exposed while I do my exam,” The doctor said.

I was now more embarrassed as ever being exposed completely in front of the doctor and his nurse. Tears started to stream down my face as I heard the doctor snap on his gloves. I closed my eyes and tried to let the drug work.

“Just my hand now.” The doctor said as he parted my vaginal lips and ran his fingers up and down them. He then parted them wide and I felt him touching my clit. He tapped his finger on it a few times and then pulled back the foreskin and tapped it again. I jerked a little and opened my eyes as he did this.

“Nurse ..KY please ...she is very dry."

I then felt his hand separate my lips again and he pushed two fingers up into my vagina. I gasped as he entered me.

“Is that painful Mrs. Miller"

“Um no I guess no,” I managed to say

He twisted his fingers in me then placed his hand on my abdomen that was covered with the drape and he pushed down and probed deeper.

“Hummm...any pain?"

“Uh ,” I told him as he pushed and felt for my tube and ovary of my left side. He then felt the right and went back to the left and pushed even deeper and pushed harder.

“Why is there something wrong?” I asked as he continued to feel my left side.

“May be a small cyst is all...no pain though?"

“NO."

“OK your doing fine,” He then pulled his fingers out but kept my lips apart with one hand.

“Just the speculum.”

I felt the cold speculum at my opening and it slid into me and he spread me apart so that he could see up into me. Oh how I hated this. He moved the speculum around so he could examine my insides. I then felt him scraping my uterus for the pap smear.

“Mrs. Miller are you always so dry down here...do you ever have any discharge?"

“No ..no discharge,” I said

“We used to use oil for lubrication when we had sex,” Ervin told the doctor

“OK I'm going to do some poking around just try and relax this shouldn't hurt."

I felt something poke me in spots around the inside of my vagina and some pressure here and there. I was concentrating on the feelings of what he was doing. He then started to tap on spots inside me nothing he did hurt.

“Ahhh that's better ....I got some vaginal secretions going."

He taped and poked around some more and I felt funny inside some type of hidden feeling was rising up in me and it felt strange.

“Mrs. Miller you said on your questionnaire that you weren't sure what an orgasm was is that correct?"

“um hum,” I replied. I soon felt some stuff dripping from my opening and drip down over my anus.

“Well you need quite a bit of stimulation to get those vaginal juices flowing."

He then pulled out the speculum and I could tell that I had some type of discharge flowing from me. My bottom was all wet.

“OK lets get her cleaned up for the urethroscopy."

“Mrs. Miller your doing great ....I'm just going to take a look up into your bladder now...you may feel the urge to go pee but that will just be some fluid that I will instill into you."

My husband was looking between my legs as I felt something cold hit my bottom and scrub me and I jerked.

“Oh I'm sorry this is a little cold,” The nurse said

She scrubbed me all around and I laid there feeling cold and exposed even more.

“I saw my husbands eyes widen as he watched the doctor between my legs. I then felt something cold at my pee hole.

“A little pressure now."

I felt something big and metal enter into me and I whimpered as it made its way to my bladder.

“I started to breath, blowing out the air like I was in labor. “Oh it stings....burns... ouee.”

“Your doing fine baby just relax,” Ervin was saying as he whispered in my ear.

I could feel the rod up in me looking around and some fluid building in my bladder to fill it. I was soon feeling full and I cried as the doctor pushed, pulled and twisted the rod.

“Your doing just fine Mrs. Miller ...just a few more minutes."

tears began to roll down my face as my husband whispered encouragement's into my ear. He looked for a long time and then I felt my bladder empty and he pulled the tube from my hole. I took a deep breath in relief as the tube was pulled from me. I could still feel a little burning up inside. Oh what have I got myself into by coming here.

“Everything looks good ....just a little longer and we will be done."

I closed my eyes and then I heard the doctor and the nurse talking of tubes and stuff, I heard a cart roll around and I was still felling the effects of the drug given to me as I tried to relax.

“Mrs. Miller I'm now going to insert a tube up into your colon it will go through your colon so that I can look inside. You may feel some discomfort but I will try to be as gentle as possible. Your doing great just a few more minutes."

I laid there waiting for the invasion that was about to happen to me. Ervin was caressing my forehead as I breathed through my nose.

“Just my finger now to lubricate you so the tube will enter."

I felt his finger at my anus and he lubed me up on the outside and took his finger away. I felt more lube on my bottom and he pushed his finger into my hole.

“UGH...ukkkk.”

“Do you have some pain Mrs. Miller?"

“No ....no not yet,” I said

He pushed his finger way up into me and twisted it just like the nurse did. he then pulled it out.

“A little pressure as the tube enters."

I felt something big at my anus and it was pushed past my sphincter up into my rectum. He continued to push and turn the tube. It felt like a snake winding it's way up inside of me.

“Your doing just great ....just relax and it will be all over soon."

I could see Ervin looking with wide eyes between my legs as the doctor pushed the tube into me further. I was taking deep breaths as I felt the tube making it's way across my body.

“OK I'm going to start pulling it out now....your going to feel me twisting and pushing as I look at your colon."

He then started to very slowly pull the tube from my bottom and he would turn it and then pull a little more and then turn and push and turn. This went on for at least thirty minutes before the tube was all the way out.

“You did very well...just one more thing and I'll be done...I know you have been in these stirrups for quite a while....Some new gloves nurse."

He then took his finger and pushed it up into my vagina again, another finger entered into my rectum and he felt around. He then pulled his finger from my vagina and sunk his finger deep into my rectum. He felt around and pushed on my insides. He touched something and I jerked a bit as he tapped his finger on that spot. Those feelings were now coming back and I could feel my vagina get more wet.

“hummm.....Mrs. Miller there is one more thing I want to do I think that it may help me to see what the problem is....can you do that for me?"

“Why is there something wrong?"

“No not as far as your health but I would like to try something to see if we can't get you a little stimulated."

“well OK I guess...will it take long?"

“It may take some time but I think it will give some light on what is going on."

I looked at my husband and he nodded his head above me. “Well OK...as long as it wont hurt."

“I assure you I won’t hurt you."

“Nurse please give me a new speculum and an anal speculum please."

“What I'm going to do is widen your anus and your vagina so that I can see into both at the same time. I'm then going to hit those spots that have made your vaginal secretions start to flow. You may feel some very strong urges and feelings from this."

I laid there waiting as I heard instruments being gathered I could tell the doctor was still between my legs and I wondered what he was going to do to me.

“I'm going to put in the vaginal speculum first and it may feel funny because I will be putting it in upside down so that I can put in the anal speculum.....just relax Mrs. Miller I think I'm on to something here."

The speculum entered into my vagina and clicked open I could feel the handle of it up against my clitoris. He then lubed my bottom and inserted something into my anus and my hole started to widen.

“Oh ...it hurts a little,” I told him as my anus stretched open.

“OK I'll give it a minute."

I heard a few more clicks and I could feel air rush into my bottom. Now each of my holes were spread wide and I was feeling very humiliated.

“Now your going to feel me poke and probe a little just like before. I felt something in my vagina poke and tap on a certain spot and those feelings came back and I could tell I was starting to feel aroused. He took the probe from my vagina and started to probe and tap inside my rectum. I was now feeling the sensations even more and I soon was feeling flushed as he found a spot and continued to tap lightly on it.

“Mr. Miller ....come here."

Ervin left my head to join the doctor at my spread legs....The doctor taped on the thing in my vagina again.

“See that.....See those secretions flow ?"

I didn't hear my husbands response, but the doctor then placed the probe back into my rectum and taped on that spot and I started to moan a little as electric sensations were now going through me.

“See that ...that's what we call a vaginal cum.”

He continued to tap and then would push and give the probe a little shake and my body spasm in pleasure. I clinched my hands into fists as the sensations flowed through my body.

“Oh ..oh what are you doing?"

“I'm going to bring you to orgasm Mrs. Miller don't fight it just go with it."

He continued to push and probe that spot in my rectum until I was moaning and shaking all over. He would push and wiggle his probe in that spot in my rectum and my body spasmed and fought against the restraints.

“Good girl just let yourself go ...enjoy the feelings that your having ?"

I then felt the probe push hard into the spot and shake there, my body tightened and I screamed out. “OH God,” as my body felt as if it were going into convulsions. I panted hard as the feeling subsided and he pulled the probe from my anus.

“That was good, you did very well Mrs. Miller ....Have you ever felt that way before?"

“I panted as I tried to talk...No....No ..never,” I said

My whole body was covered with sweat as I looked up into the lights over head and tried to calm myself from the sensations that I had felt. Ervin came back to my head and kissed me on the lips, he then took his shirt sleeve and wiped my sweaty brow with it.

The doctor pulled the speculum from my anus and said, “Nurse will you give Mrs. Miller a douche and have her meet us back in my office."

I laid there trying to get hold of my emotions I couldn't believe that I was able to have a orgasm in front of strangers with my holes open and something poking me in my bottom. I hardly heard the nurse as she told me that she was going to give me a strong douche.

I felt something enter into my still spread vagina and squirt up into me. I could feel the fluid flow up and then out and drain down my bottom into the bowl below that she placed there. It was soothing and I closed my eyes and relaxed. Soon she was releasing me from my restraints and helping me to sit up.

"Mrs. Miller please just sit there for awhile."

I felt real woozy as I sat there and she held my upper body. I stared down at the floor and I thought I was going to pass out.

“You have been in the stirrups for quite some time and your body needs to regulate itself."

“…pass out....” I whispered.

She pushed me back down so I was now laying back on the table. My head started to clear and she slowly helped me back up. I just couldn't get why I was feeling like this, my body was very exhausted from the experience I had just felt. After a while I was back in the doctors office and Ervin was sitting in the chair and I sat in the chair beside him. He took my hand and kissed it.

“That was the most incredible thing I had ever seen,” He said to me

“Well I had never felt anything like that before."

“The doctor thinks he can help you with your problem."

“I think he already has,” I exclaimed.

We sat there and I kept taking long deep breaths, Ervin looked at me and I could almost hear his thoughts. “That was the first orgasm you ever had and a doctor gave it to you."

“I still love you dear,” Thinking he may be feeling inadequate.

The doctor entered and sat down at his desk this time, he looked at us both and then looked at something in my file.

“Well I think we can help you Mrs. Miller...you see you are not stimulated by the conventional means to orgasm, but you can be stimulated as we have proved today. Now we need to work on that stimulation while working on the exterior parts of your body to start to also give you pleasure. This may sound a little odd but my findings show that you are stimulated by anal sex and we should continue to work with that. I suggest that we start a therapy of stimulation of breast and clit and start on some anal dilatation so that you will be able to engage in anal sex with your husband."

“So what are you saying doctor? I can only have sex with my wife in her butt?"

“Well that's where she is the most stimulated right now...but she is no where near ready to take you in her anus at this time....What I would like to do is start a therapy of anal stimulation and then we will work on other ways she can get aroused....This may take some time and you will both have to work on it for the treatment to succeed."

“I will be able to make love to my wife in a more conventional way though...right doctor?"

“Well that's what we will strive for, right now we need to stimulate her so that she will enjoy just the act of having sex....For years she was never stimulated so sex was just a chore to do that she never got any satisfaction out of, so we need to retrain her to enjoy the sensations that she can feel....This may take quite a while and you will need to work on it at home as well as here in the office."

“Well what do you think dear,” Ervin said looking at me.

“I want to enjoy our time together and make love to you and feel good about it."

Ervin nodded and said “OK doctor what do you want us to do?"

“Well first of all we will need to see both of you at least once a week together Mrs. Miller needs to come in three times a week...Is there a day in which you can be present?"

“Yes I work four tens so I'm off every Friday...I guess I can come in then."

“Good we will schedule on Monday, Wednesday, and Fridays then...I do hold Saturday clinics would that be better?"

“No rather have my weekends free,” Ervin replied.

“OK then ...one thing I will want you to refrain from having sex until we have started the therapy."

“I don't see a problem in that,” Ervin said in a sarcastic way.

“My nurse will see to your appointments and Mrs. Miller I will see you the day after tomorrow."