I know I shouldn’t have given her that card. I couldn’t help it. There was something about her that I was just drawn to. I could tell she felt the connection as well. It would just be tragic if she gave up on finding that part of herself. Even on the small chance that she does contact Lin or “Mr. Choy” as she’ll call him, I’m not planning on being her Dom. I just want to make sure that she’s safe and careful, and with somebody that is trained in whatever kind of kink she wants to explore. As long as she’s with someone in the club I know she will be alright, and I will be there to monitor just to make sure.

Club Mystic is a very secretive club, and you have to be invited by one of the co-owners, which I am. Even then there is no guarantee that you will be invited in. The club is also selective. We have to be, to make sure everyone’s identity is safe. After sending an email to Lin, he sends a confidentiality contract back. After that is signed and sent back, he sends a semi-lengthy questionnaire that covers EVERYTHING. Nothing remains private. If there is one single lie or even partial truth, you’re out. Everything gets shredded and you never get another opportunity in. If that checks out, then he sends a limit list. It pretty much has everything you can imagine doing. Once he gets that back… you wait. Once a month the four of us co-owners get together to go over all of the possible candidates. Which is usually only a handful at most, sometimes we don’t have any. We go through every single thing with a fine toothed comb. If we all agree that the person can be trusted and is a good fit for the club, they are then contacted again with the club address and a date and time to arrive. They’re not finished yet though… after waiting in the lobby, they are then escorted back to a room. This is where my part comes in. All of the new recruits must undergo a very thorough physical exam. Finally, if every single thing checks out, they get paired up with somebody else depending on their needs and desires. It may seem like a lot, but we do what we have to do, and for the last 8 years it’s worked for us.

The next night I went to work at the club, I went to let Lin know about Cam, just incase she decided to reach out. I explained everything to him from the beginning.

“Damn, poor girl.”

“Yeah. I know it’s a long shot that she’ll contact you, but just in case…”

“Alright, I’ll let you know when she does. Once she makes it through all of the paperwork, do you want her?”

What kind of question is that, of course I wanted her, but I don’t think it would be right for me to have her.

“Nah, I’ll pair her up with somebody that would be better suited. I don’t want her to be obligated to be with me just because she knows me. I’ll find somebody who can help her.”

Even as I said that I knew I was lying to myself. Just the thought of somebody else touching her sent a protectiveness through me. All I could think was MINE. I saw the look Lin gave me and I knew he wasn’t buying it either, but he went along with it anyway.

“Alright, we will cross that bridge when we come to it. First we have to wait for her to reach out to us.”

*****

CAM

It had been 5 weeks since everything had happened. I tried to get Dr. Cook out of my mind but I couldn’t. Every night I stayed up awake fantasizing about him, and even though he said no sexual activity of any kind for 6 weeks, as soon as the soreness left I couldn’t help but get myself off. No matter how hard I came, though, I was still unsatisfied. I had an itch that no amount of scratching could handle. I tried to throw that stupid card away at least a dozen times. I just couldn’t do it though. I didn’t even know if it was from him, and even if it was, he obviously wanted me to contact someone else besides him. He didn’t leave me his number or anything. I knew the chances were small that I would ever see him again. I finally couldn’t take it anymore, after throwing the card away, one last time, I went and got it out of the garbage and sent an email just like it told me to.

*****

RAY

It had been a little over a month since I saw Cam. She was driving me crazy and she wasn’t even here. That was the problem. I had to jack off in the shower before and after every shift just to try to get her off my mind. It never worked. I threw myself into both my jobs at the hospital and the club. Nothing worked. I could tell people were getting tired of my pissy attitude, but I couldn’t help it.

I walked into the club ready to start my shift there, when Lin walked up to me.

“Man, you look like shit.”

“Yeah, thanks.”

“Well, since you’re in such a wonderful mood, I’ll give you even more good news. Maybe it will help your blue balls some…”

I didn’t want to be too hopeful, but…

“Ok, what…”

“Cam reached out finally. I sent her the confidentiality agreement, as soon as I get that back, I’ll send her the other stuff. I’ll keep you updated.”

“Thanks, man, I appreciate it.”

And just like that my blue balls got worse, because I knew that I would see her again soon, but couldn’t do anything about it. My mood greatly improved though, just knowing that I would get to examine her perfect little body again soon…

*****

Cam

The day after I sent back the confidentiality agreement, I got another email. This time is was a very long questionnaire. The questions on it was enough to make me blush. I filled it out the best I could, being completely honest. There were questions ranging from my birthday, to how many sexual partners I’ve had, to how often I masturbate. Whoever Mr. Choy is, he sure is learning an awful lot about me. It was a little nerve wracking thinking about all the information I was sending to a complete stranger. For some reason I trusted it though.

After I sent in the questions, I waited. This time it took a couple of days, but I received another email. It was another type of questionnaire. This time is was lists of things to be done sexually, and I had to mark whether it was a hard limit, soft limit, or interested. I also had to tell how much experience I had in each activity, as well as if I would like it done to me or to a partner. There was over 200 questions to answer. I had never even heard of some of them. This was by far the hardest thing I’ve ever had to fill out. Before “the incident” I was very open to just about anything sexually. I had wanted to try everything. After that situation though, everything scared me. Things that I had wanted to try before, I just couldn’t try anymore. After I looked over the list I filled, out I regretted my answers. I just couldn’t make myself change them though. I had no idea who was reading my answers, or what would be done with them. I trusted blindly before, I wasn’t going to do it again. On the list I had some hard limits, some that said interested, but most of them were soft limits. What bothered me the most was that a lot of the soft limits would’ve been interested before. Oh well, I’m not changing anything now. I hit the send button and waited…

*****

Ray

Well, this was it… our monthly meeting. The co-owners consisted of Ace, Reed, Lin, and myself. We were in our conference room when Lin finally walked in and sat down. We bullshitted for a few minutes and then it was time to get to work. We talked about the normal club stuff, how all of our members were doing, and discussed any concerns.

“Alright, next up is new member selection. We only have one this time. Her name is Cameron Danielle Lucas. Ray recommended her. Ray do you want to catch everyone else up?”

“Sure.”

I told Ace and Reed Cam’s story. Once we were all on the same page, it was time to decide if she was accepted or not.

“I’m going to be honest… If it wasn’t for Ray being the one to bring her to the table, and if I didn’t know her story, I don’t think I would be able to agree to her being a new member.”

I looked at Lin in shock. How could he not let her be a member? I was about to say something when Lin stopped me.

“Before you say anything, let me explain. She was completely honest on everything. It’s not an issue about trust or anything like that. I got concerned after reading her limit list.”

He handed her information including her list to us. After reading it over, I understood why he was worried. I just hope I’m able to convince them that she needs to be here. Reed was the first one to speak.

“I agree with Lin. Sorry, Ray.”

“Ray, you there’s only been a couple of people that you have ever brought to the table. You obviously see something with her, so I trust you on that. I have my concerns as well, so why don’t you explain to us, why you think she’ll be a good fit.”

Ace is always the calm and thoughtful one. He has never turned anybody down except when we all have had the same feeling.

“If I hadn’t of met Cam before, after looking at her list, I would agree with all of you. But, this list…this isn’t her. This is who she thinks she is, this is the scared Cam. Even after everything that had happened, she still reacted to certain things when I was treating her. She tried to hide it, and you could tell that she didn’t want to feel what she was feeling. She’s confused right now. That’s why she needs to be here, so she can learn who she is again. She’s lost that. A part of her wants to find herself, otherwise she wouldn’t have got up the guts to submit her name.”

Lin was the next one to speak.

“I agree with you 100%. I think that being here would help her heal emotionally. The problem is finding her a partner. It has to be someone experienced, someone who can tell when to push her and when not to. I mean everything is a soft limit, not a hard one, we just have to find the Dom who can change her mind about her soft limits without breaking her trust or our rules. That is going to be a very fine line to walk. The only person I would be comfortable with her, is you Ray, But you said you don’t think that’s a good idea.”

Both Ace and Reed agreed.

“So, if I take her on as my sub, then she can become a member?”

“Yes. I would agree with that. But is that what you want to do?”

“Yes. I want her here. I know what she needs, even if she doesn’t know what that is yet. I accept full responsibility for her.”

“Ok. Ace… Reed… Are you both ok with that?”

“Yeah.”

“Sure.”

“Ok. I will send her the address and tell her to be here at 7:00 Thursday night.”

I can’t believe this, in three days I’ll get to see Cam again, but this time she will be my sub…