David lay awake most of the night Saturday night contemplating his father’s offer to allow him to wear diapers. The thought of others seeing him in a diaper would cause immense embarrassment, but he still could not stop thinking how great and wonderful it would be to be able to wear a thick, soft diaper. In the end his desire to wear a diaper won out over the possible embarrassment that might follow. The next morning after breakfast David informed his parents of his decision.

His father first of all said that he was not surprised by his decision, that it was the decision he thought that David was going to make. And then Edward said: “Before we get started let’s lay down the ground rules. First, you may use your allowance and we will help you pay for your diapers and accessories, but YOU are the one that is going to have to go into the store and buy the diapers YOURSELF!” Edward again explained that his purpose was not to cause needless embarrassment for his son, but rather to help David to take responsibility for himself, and, to get use to others knowing about his diaper wearing.

His father continued: “There’s no reason to feel ashamed! When you buy diapers you should hold your head up high and have the attitude ‘Yeah, I like to wear diapers. So What?!? What’s it to you? I’m not hurting anyone!’” Edward also mentioned how David could possibly help the many other people out there who have secret diaper desires and fantasies to “come out of the closet” and overcome their own shame and guilt.

David’s head was still spinning when his father laid down the next ground rule. “You’re an under aged minor, if myself or your mother or anybody else changed your diaper, others might think that there was some sort of sexual abuse going on, or that somebody was gaining some sort of sexual gratification from changing your diaper. Therefore, you alone will diaper yourself, and you will change your own diaper.” This was a fair enough request and David readily agreed to this.

His father then continued on: “Next, your right to wear a diaper must not impose on my rights or your mother’s rights to live in a clean and odor free house. If you are going to mess in your diaper, Please stay in your room and do not come out until you have changed out of the dirty diaper, and please take any dirty diapers out of the house immediately and throw them away in the trashcans outside. Also, we don’t want the whole house smelling like pee either, so please be cognizant of our feelings and rights and keep yourself and your diapers clean and odor free.” Again this was a reasonable request that David agreed to.

“Last but not least” his father next said, “You need to keep up with your school work and keep your grades up. If we notice that your diaper wearing interferes with your school work or if your grades go down, then we will take the diapers and other accessories away from you.” This was also reasonable and agreeable to David.

His father then said that that would cover the ground rules “for now”, and that they would try it out and if need be they might need to lay down some additional ground rules in the future. Edward told his son to go upstairs and change and that after Sonia had cleaned up the kitchen and everybody had gotten ready that they would go shopping with him for some diapers. David quickly ran to his room and changed as fast as he could and was sitting on the couch watching TV when his parents finished getting ready.

A Shopping We Will Go

On their way to the Drug Store David could hardly contain his excitement. He couldn’t wait until he could experience first hand what it would feel like wear a diaper. At the Drug Store, David and his parents were a bit surprised by all of the different brands and styles of adult diapers. David first of all decided that he would prefer the fitted brief style since it most resembled baby diapers. Next was the decision of which brand to choose, there were the brand names, Attends and Depends, and there was the generic store brand. Sonia mentioned that she always prefers to use name brand products first and then she has something to gauge and compare the generic brand against. Therefore, they decided to go with the Depends brand. Finally there was the decision to be made as to the size. According to the package a small would fit David, but just barely, but a medium seemed to be too large. And then Edward mentioned that the bigger the diaper the more it would hold. That did it! Bigger was definitely better in this situation. David picked up the package of Depends Medium fitted briefs and Edward gave him a $20 bill to pay with. At this point David’s heart began racing a hundred miles an hour. Could he face the cashier? Was there anybody in the store that might recognize him? He wasn’t sure if he could go through with it or not. He was shaking and his knees were wobbling as he and his parents walked to the front of the store.

At the checkout there was one person ahead of them, an older woman. She turned around and looked at them and smiled when they walked up. As she was turning back around her eye caught the package of Depends. She stopped and did a double take, first looking at the package of diapers to make sure that she saw what she thought she had seen. Next she looked at David with a very puzzled look in her eye. David turned beet red with embarrassment and the woman quickly turned away. David thought he was going to die! His father patted him on the shoulder and gently rubbed his neck to assure him that everything would be all right.

When they got to the cashier, she also did a double take when she saw the package of Depends. She was dying to make a comment about the diapers, but she could see the embarrassment on David’s face, so she just rang up the sale and announced the total. David reached out with his trembling hand and gave the cashier the $20 bill. At this point Edward stepped forward and accepted the change as he could see this was turning into a very traumatic experience for his son. As the cashier put the diapers into a plastic bag, Edward became concerned how this might appear to the cashier. That she might wonder to herself if David was being punished for wetting the bed or if he and Sonia were the type of parents that would use diapers to discipline and punish their children. Therefore, when the cashier handed him the shopping bag, Edward simply stated: “I told him that if he wants to wear diapers that he would have to buy them himself.” The cashier looked a little puzzled, but she accepted Edward’s explanation, although deep down inside she had a thousand questions that she would love to ask.

David was never so relieved to leave a store. In the car his heart was still pounding inside of him and his face was flush from all of the excitement caused by the whole experience. Edward tried to console his son by telling him that the first time is always the hardest, and that the next time he would have to buy diapers that it would be much easier and that it would get easier and easier each time after that. David began to calm down, and as he did, he realized that he was now sitting next to a package of diapers and he was just minutes away from being able to experience first hand what it would feel like to have a soft, warm, bulky diaper caress his skin. His heart began to speed up, but now for a different reason. He also felt himself becoming excited sexually in anticipation of what laid ahead for him that afternoon.

David was so lost in his daydreams of diaper wearing that he did not notice that his parents did not go straight home. It wasn’t until they pulled into the Wal-Mart parking lot that he snapped out of it. He just figured that his parents had some shopping to do before they went home. However, once inside the store, David’s parents went straight to the baby section. They first grabbed some baby oil and some baby powder and put these items into the shopping basket. Then they asked David if he would like anything else while they were there, such as a pacifier, or a bottle, maybe a bib; that sort of thing. David was surprised and embarrassed by his parents question and very sheepishly nodded his head. They went to the baby bottle section and David picked out a baby bottle. They did the same thing with a bib, a pacifier and a “sippy” cup. They also picked up a couple of jars of baby food and a diaper “pail”. The diaper pail was just a basic plastic trashcan with a lid, however, in the lid there was a holder to put a deodorizer in. As they were walking past the baby clothing, David stopped for a moment to admire the many cute outfits and wondered to himself what it would be like to wear some of those outfits, if only they came in bigger sizes.

Before leaving the store, David and Sonia went by the house wares section and picked up several plug-in style deodorizers. When they got to the cashier, Edward went ahead and paid to give David a break. However, at this point David was not as embarrassed as he was at the Drug Store. He doubted that anyone would ever connect all of the baby items with him.

On the way home David could hardly contain his excitement as his diaper / baby fantasy was coming closer and closer to becoming a reality. This caused a real conflict for his parents however. On the one hand they were glad to see their son so happy and so excited, but on the other hand, they did not understand how on earth wearing a diaper could possibly be so exciting and thrilling. They also wondered to themselves if they were doing the right thing by allowing their son to live out his diaper fantasies. Were they sending him down a path that they or David would regret later on in life? Would this come back to haunt them later?