Things were very quiet and uncomfortable around the Carpenter house for the next several days. When the weekend rolled around a little voice inside Edward’s head told him that this matter of diaper wearing was not over and that he was going to have to face it and deal with it. Therefore, Friday night after David had gone to bed, Edward fixed himself a strong drink and hooked up David’s computer and began visiting the web sites in the history folder. That night Edward learned all about infantilism, adult babies, Diaper Lovers and the rest. He spent over 3 hours on the Internet that night doing research. What he was most interested in were the true personal accounts of individuals who were now adult babies and diaper lovers. There were several things that impressed him that night. The first thing was that people who have secret diaper fantasies do not even understand themselves WHY they have such a strong desire to wear diapers and most of them feel very guilty about their unusual desires. He was also surprised in the sheer number of diaper related sites that were out there on the Internet; this was something that affected thousands upon thousands of people. He also found it interesting to learn that most adult babies / diaper lovers became interested in diapers in early adolescence and even in pre-adolescence. And finally he was very impressed that almost every single diaper lover account mentioned how they were good students, got along with other people, did not get involved with drug or alcohol abuse, did not get into trouble with the law or with gangs, they were model students and citizens, they just had an overwhelming desire to wear a diaper and / or be treated like a baby.

Edward wondered to himself if it was possible to overcome infantilism, so he typed “overcoming infantilism” into the Google search engine and the second link it came up with took him to “The Infantilist’s Support Network Home Page” (http://www.geocities.com/eagle_sparrow/index.html). He was very surprised to learn that this web site was started by a person who himself was trying to overcome infantilism and instead of stopping his infantile behavior he was forced to come to terms with his own infantilism and had learn how to deal with it the best way he could so that it would not interfere with his life. And then under the “Balancers and Naturals” link he read about those who try to stop their infantile behavior, what the web site called “Full-Stoppers”. He stopped dead in his tracks when he read: “considering the fact that there are not yet any recorded examples of any truly successful Recovering infantilists, most Full-Stoppers today are reluctantly forced to Balance their infantilistic desires”. He began to realize that this “problem” was much bigger and more deeply rooted than he ever imagined that it could be.

By the time he was done with his “research” Edward’s head was spinning. He was more confused now then ever on how to deal with his son’s sudden interest in wearing diapers. He made himself another strong drink and set up for another two hours thinking about how he was going to handle this situation with his 12 year-old son.

The next day after Edward woke up (around noon!), he went into David’s room to talk to him. He first of all apologized to David for flying off of the handle when he first learned of his son’s secret diaper desires. David was in shock! He couldn’t believe that his father was apologizing to him, when he was the one that had the perverted desires.

Edward then explained how he had done extensive research on the Internet and how he now realizes that David had little or no control over his desires and that his unusual desires were every bit as confusing to his son as they were to him. Again David could not believe his ears. His father actually understood what he was going through!

His father went on and said how he had seen that those who are diaper lovers and adult babies were usually good students and didn’t get into any trouble and that wearing a diaper really didn’t hurt anybody else, that it was something that he would just have to get use to. David’s heart began to race. Was his father going to allow him to wear a diaper? A million thoughts raced through his mind as he imagined himself walking around the house wearing a diaper and sleeping in a nice thick, soft, warm diaper.

Edward took a long deep breath before continuing on. He then said: “What I found to be the most depressing about those who want to wear diapers is the deep guilt they feel about themselves and their diaper wearing. Most people sneak around and hide who they are and cover up their diaper desires as if they are deeply ashamed of themselves and their desires. Again he took a deep breath before continuing, “Therefore, if you want to wear a diaper, so be it. BUT, you are not just going to wear a diaper and act like a baby here at home when nobody else is around. If you are in fact a diaper lover slash pre-teen baby, then that’s what you are and there isn’t any reason to feel ashamed about that. And that means that you will wear a diaper and act like a baby around others. To Thy Own Self Be True!”

Again, Edward paused to let his words sink in. By now David’s head was spinning out of control. He very much wanted to experience what it would feel like to wear a diaper. But at the same time, the very thought of others actually SEEING him in a diaper and dressed up like a baby was overwhelming to him. He would rather die a thousand deaths then to be laughed at and ridiculed.

His father could see the confused look on his son’s face and he could only imagine the conflicts that were going on inside David’s young mind. Edward explained that his intention was not to deliberately embarrass or humiliate his son, but rather he did not want David living a lie and pretending to be something that he was not, while hiding who he really was. He also did not want David to go through life carrying a burden of guilt and shame over his unusual desires, desires that he had little or no control over.

In fact Edward had a couple of other thoughts in mind behind his offer. First of all, he was halfway hoping that “the cost of wearing a diaper” would outweigh the benefits. In other words, that David would be more concerned with other would think of him that he would opt not to wear a diaper, but the decision would be his. He was also concerned that David’s desire to wear a diaper may just be a passing fancy; that his diaper fantasies may only be caused by a mild curiosity. However, having others see him in a diaper would demonstrate that he was indeed a true infantilist, not just curious about what it would feel like to wear a diaper.

Edward again paused before continuing on. “If you do agree to my terms that you must wear diapers around others, we will go slow and gradual as far as who we will expose your deep dark secrets to. We’ll start out with just older people, people that do not have any children and we will let you pick who we invite over to the house to see you in your diaper.” Edward then summarized the offer that was on the table. He would allow David to wear a diaper and to dress up like a baby and to act like a baby, but he would have to allow others to see him that way. He concluded by telling David that he did not have to make the decision right then and there and that he should take some time to think about it and make sure that he was comfortable with his decision and that he was prepared to face the results that may come from his decision.

Edward then hugged his son and told him that he loved him very much and that he would respect his decision however he made it. After his father had left his room, David’s mind raced the rest of the day. He first of all imagined how great and wonderful it would be to be able to wear a diaper and to act like a baby. But then he also thought about how embarrassing it would be for others to find out about his unusual desires and fantasies.