@sse4fun .. it's been 7 years since she passed away .. and i knew her for about 7 years before that .. 14 years since i first met her. I was still in my 30 somethings and my sons were still home .. my oldest was 18 at the time and looking to leave home and find his way. My middle son just got his driver's license and discovered girls and my youngest .. well .. he was all of 8 years old going on 35. It was a busy time .. and i had many things going on in my life. Many things yet to come ... she was a mentor to me and as with someone you look up to .. idolize .. love ... ... i have to say that my memories and thoughts of her .. what i felt for her .. experienced with her ... are somewhat romanticised with the rose colored glasses of hindsight.

In a lot of ways sse4fun .. i had no idea what i had at the time with her and i was still young enough then to think that people would always be in your life. In reality she was my very first clue that there were others out there .. like me .. who loved enemas and did them for pleasure. The internet was just way too complicated and just some fad that would pass .. so i was told by my husband. Not even my sons gave it much thought. I'm sure you know about those times and what was evolving .. searching for others who shared my .. our .. interest in enemas was not my forte ... i was just that strange girl that grew up liking enemas and having a Mom who understood but always cautioned me to .. keep my likes to myself .. just like she did. As far as i knew .. i was about the only one other than my Mom who did enemas for pleasure as well as for health .. and i was pretty healthy .. so pleasure figured in there right at the top. It was something private .. not openly discussed with someone outside of the family. You know the drill.

During the time .. privacy around my house .. was non existant and i was the only woman in a house full of 'boys' .. sure i 'outranked' 3 of them and wasn't afraid of letting them know that i knew where they slept .. so just keep it up .. or as their Dad would say .. 'keep up your cheap civilian shit and don't bitch if your ass is in a sling because you got stupid.' The one thing they knew was that i sure as hell did not have endless patience .. and my idea of humor wasn't a farting contest or the longest belch or who could pee the furthest ... no .. old Mom had one nerve left and they took turns standing on it.

sse4fun ... i will be writing more about Gail .. more as a tribute to her .. and tributes tend to be 'glossy' and sentimental .. my relationship with Gail wasn't all enemas ... sex ... running around naked ... and it wasn't without our bad times either ... but things happen in life that .. at the time ... meant one thing .. and then years later .. when u look back .. never were that important .. or was more meaningful that imagined. I used to be a member of Zity for a long time ... mostly as a 'lurker' ... before i left because of a personal issue .. issues .. and left for awhile and looked around .. for what .. wtf knows .. i didn't find it. I came back .. a different perspective .. and for awhile now .. i've been reading others as they post their thoughts and fantasys and experiences here ... many of our other members ... finding out we are not alone and not sexual perverts .. .. ok .. maybe just a little sexually perverted. But i've read what others have written .. and i can feel what they say .. and i like what they write .. and HOW they write .. and how they share who they are .. the debate as to who among us are who we say we are .. or what words should be used to describe fantasies ... or who this or that ... i'm not here to find someone to get into my panties so i don't care if Jane is really John .. well .. maybe i do .. .. yeah .. i guess i do ..

sse4fun ... Gail has been on my mind for a long time ... coming back here ... actually reading .. yes reading .. what other people write here .. stories or fanatsy .. or real life experiences ... it seems to help .. not just me .. or those who take the time to leave a comment about what they write .. but it has helped me put Gail into perspective and who she was .. and how much she was a part of my life.

I probably should post all of this somewhere else .. but maybe this will help u understand who Gail was.