I find myself now fantasizing about my past exams, including occasionally while jacking off, and what i could have done differently.
The past exams I fantasize about occurred where i worked with the plant's physician conducting annual physicals of all its employees. How i went through the whole exam in just my briefs. How he had me lie back, as he palpated my abdomen, before suddenly grabbing my waistband & exposing me so he could do his hernia check. Lying flat on the table with my hands at my sides, as the doctor manipulated my body. I see it as sort of a forced situation. The company seemingly requiring me to undergo this physical annually, as if to say "Our doctor WILL pull your undies down, give you a hernia check, and check your balls. To continue working here, you must succumb to this" Thinking back on it now seems a little exciting to be in that vulnerable & submissive situation. I couldn't appreciate it at the time because i was still homophobic at the time, and even dreaded that part of the exam at first.
But then in the latter years, there was something hot about suddenly feeling my balls being manipulated, and only being able to feel it happening as i stared at the ceiling.
I now have these white Bike briefs that fit nice & tight & show off my erections really well. I imagine if i "still had the opportunity" to have my physicals that way, i may very well have worn them. i think of what the view from the ceiling looking down on me lying on the table with my hands at my sides, and the outline of my cock visible.
Of course, I also imagine if I would have been brave enough to have instead worn a jockstrap for those physicals. But back then, I had kept that fetish a secret from the world & it's the last thing I would have done. Though now i fantasize about it.
And i think about the culture back at the time, as Alan Alda in this clip talks about the network's censorship refused to let M*A*S*H show or even name a jockstrap on the show.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kj5iqWDm3B0
but anyway