I am laying in bed at 6 am waiting to pee for the first time this morning. I have been awake for an hour now and the pain is worse than I have ever had before from holding my pee this long. The only thing I can think of is I gotta pee, but I want to keep holding it longer and longer to see how long I can go before I spring a leak. I put a fresh diaper on so I can catch it all hopefully when it starts flowing. I am tossed though because I also want to wet my bed.
I have to pee so bad now that I even feel like I have to poop. Oh no, I don't think I can hold it more than another minute or two at the most. My eyes are watering, my stomach hurts, my legs hurt. This is awesome and my adrenaline is flowing big time. The anticipation is at its peak now. When the flow begins, will I be able to dribble and stop, dribble and stop, or will it all come gushing out? I want to be able to play the stop and go game, but I think I waited too long for that to happen this time. I am breathing heavy now. I have to go so bad it isn't funny, but I am determined to hold it longer.
This hurts, it really hurts. If you haven't figured it out yet, I am into self-induced pain. I also want to get my body to the point that I can't hold it anymore and forced to wear a diaper because of big leaks. I don't want to just have to wear a pad, I want to need a full diaper.
OK, the pain is climbing higher. I really didn't think I could have held it this long, but I have and the pain keeps growing too. How much longer can I possibly bear this........
I drank a full glass of water about twenty minutes ago in hopes that I could intensify the urge to have to go. I am determined to hold my pee until it just starts coming out on its own and nothing I do can keep it from flowing. I thought I was going to go about ten minutes ago, and here I am still waiting. My eyes are watering even more now. The anticipation is killing me.
Oh, I think it's going to start now. I can feel it. It's right at that point, I'm about to leak.
And there it goes............ I'm peeing, I was able to stop it for a split second four times, but then it started flowing again. Not too much though. I have stopped, just some leaking, that a pad could have caught. Great. So now I get to decide, do I play the stop and go game until I empty myself, or do I hold it again until I burst?
What the heck......letting a little more out, going to play that stop and go game. Pushed just a little more out.........and a bit more...........a wee bit more........and some more. I am having too much fun. I wish I had someone here to watch, or at least that could talk to me telling me when I could let more out and when to stop the flow. OK, letting some more out now, but not too much. I want to make this last for a while. If I'm going to play a game it should last a while right? A little more out now, just a bit more.
I have relieved enough of the pressure now that I can concentrate more on the feeling of the pee coming out of my hole and flowing through my genitals and pubic hair, down through my butt crack and filling my diaper. I love the warm sensation and the trickling effect of the flow of pee going through my genitals and pubic hairs and then streaming through my butt crack. I can feel the pee beginning to fill my diaper and spreading out so more of my butt feels the warm pee all around.
I still have quite a bit of pain from holding my pee and I have to say that I am loving this more than I expected. Time to let a few more squirts of pee go. OK, it was more than a few, but this is fun folks. Filling my diaper ought to be fun right? I mean after all, if I am going to voluntarily wear a diaper, I should be having fun. The only thing that could have added some excitement to this would have been if my hubby knew what I was doing and either participated by pushing on my belly, or perhaps playing with the pee as it flows out.........even better, if he fondled my genitals to heighten my arousal. If I weren't working on filling my diaper, I would have enjoyed filling a glass and having a drink while it is still nice and warm.
OK, back to letting some more pee out. More, a little more, a longer stream this time. Playing stop and go is a lot of fun folks. I want to let some more pee out. More, and more, a little more.......stop. OK, now I want to push and let a big gush come. Ready, here goes. OH MY GOSH that filled my pubic hairs and flowed like a river. Lets do that again. Enough came out that time that it flowed sideways and around to my side. So now I am wet on the outside of my butt cheek too.
I like this feeling. Laying down in bed peeing like this is fun. The only thing I miss is the pee running down my legs because I am not standing up. I'm going to have to finish this play time up and then start drinking a bunch of water so I can wet my pants and let the pee flow down my legs. I think I'm on to a new game. Fill the diaper, then soak my pants. Then I will have to fill another diaper and stay in it for a while.
I'm not empty yet, so I need to get back to the game of stop and go. Push it out and stop, push, stop, another push and stop. Oh it just went around the other side of my butt now. And this time both sides. Letting it flow steady for a couple seconds this time. OH MY GOSH, the feeling of warm pee everywhere! Letting more out, and some more. OK, a little more and now a break.
My diaper is leaking. I filled it to capacity and now my bed is wet. OOPS, I'm a bad girl. But I'm not done peeing yet. Whatever do I do? Do I keep pushing out the pee until I am empty or do I start drinking some water to prepare to wet my pants. Oh what the heck. I'm letting the rest out. Poor bed, it's getting all wet now.
Bladder is empty, diaper is beyond soaked and leaky, bed is wet, and the smell of fresh pee fills my bedroom. What could be better? I know, the thought of preparing to wet my pants so I can have pee run down my legs.
Til next time folks! Hope you enjoyed this read!