Hi all, This is an extension of the earlier post I made. I'm having a bit of an issue with what I'm thinking is incontinence. A recent trip left me with dangerously wet underwear several times, the demands of vacationing with younger people that see no need for a potty break placed demands that I couldn't quite handle. Also, the plane trip was a disaster, thankfully I was wearing a training pant type of underwear and plastic pants. I finally figured the hell with it, If TSA wants to see my undies then go ahead have a look.
Here's the problem. What I'm experiencing is an urge problem. I'm fine and then all of a sudden I have to go. BAD ! I can hold it 99% of the time but there's a breaking point where the urge does overcome my ability to hold it. This all happens within about 15 minutes. If a rest room were convenient there'd be no problem, just sometimes I'm out of luck, that's when the hell starts. On the plane I ended up wetting a bit, not a flood, but enough that it would have left a wet spot in my pants. Thank God for my "special" undies, other times I wet just enough that at any moment I'd thought I'd have to spill a drink to cover the evidence. Takes all the fun out of a vacation always worrying about it.
Why I posted here is that being a DL there's naturally a large part of me that finds this situation really exciting. Geeze, why does it have to be a thrill. I have a loving SO that's cool with the whole diaper thing, WAY too cool. So she isn't as concerned as somebody that's totally repulsed by the DL thing. She's fine with me wearing 24/7 if I'd like (or need), the problem is I've read too many times here where some one wants to be incontinent and wants to see a urologist for somewhat less than a genuine need. I'm torn on whether I really need to see a doctor or if this is some kind of unconscious fantasy kind of thing.
Yes I think there's an issue. Is it bad enough to see a doctor? I really don't know. Added to this is a total mistrust of the medical field. Also a total fear of outrage should they decide I'm some kind of a perv. I wear for fun a LOT as I'm now retired and this allows me too. Am I just getting lazy in the bladder? Would that put me in the "perv" category? The flipside of this is what if there really is a problem ? Sure there are horror stories where bad things are found with doctor visits but I suspect they are rare. Do I go see the doctor ? or do I pack it in and write it off as a fetish issue.
One more thing. If I do go, do I come clean about my DL pastimes ? I really don't want to start something that turns ugly due to something that should have been mentioned up front. Telling them this would be utterly humiliating for me but possibly very prudent. I actually wish I didn't have the whole DL thing, then this would all be a non issue. Please,any thoughts on this would be GREATLY appreciated. I'm just so confused by the whole thing.