Relaxed. Secure. Joyful. Happy. Excited. And aroused!
All of those wonderful feelings and more come from wearing my diapers!
And there are different phases to it over the "life cycle" of the diapers.
First I get them out of the closet, usually stuffed in my diaper pail where I keep them (unless there are actually wet ones in there), they're fluffy and soft and white and the minute I start getting out the ones I'm going to wear, I feel this general excitement, blissful joy, and sexual arousal.
I then lay them out in order--first a wide thin outer contour which I pin that holds them on, then a few oblong soaker pads, then a thick prefold folded into thirds lengthwise, then the soft, thick flannel contour that always goes on the inside. I then put in the pins and put them over the side of the bed, ready to lie on.
Next comes the Baby Magic lotion, my favorite, which is rubbed all over my diaper area. This is the moment when I first really feel the complete overwhelming ecstasy of knowing that yes, I'm going to be back in diapers! Then I lie on my diapers, pull them up, pin them, and put on the plastic pants. (If I'm by myself I'll often be saying out loud "I'm BACK IN DIAPERS and my SHAMEFUL PLASTIC BABY PANTIES!"
After this, I just feel complete bliss, feeling the lotion and the thick cloth diapers against me. This feeling is even better if I've just shaved my pubic area (which I regularly do using a set of beard trimmers to keep it as short as possible without using a blade because that causes rash and irritation).
I'll often go to bed this way and lie there with a paci in my mouth thinking "I'm BACK IN DIAPERS!" and it is just the most wonderful feeling in the world.
And it's the most relaxing, secure thing I've ever experienced.
Then the next part of the joy comes as I wet them. They get warm and wet and begin to have that wonderful diaper / lotion smell. It is almost as if they come to life. The longer I wear them the more I can just relax and wet them without really thinking about it.
Finally, several hours later when they're soaked, usually in the morning when I wake up (like right now!) they're warm, wet, and that wonderful diaper smell is everywhere. I'll sit here at the PC and post things here or look at diaper pictures or read diaper stories. Sometimes, this is when I go "full naughty baby" and load them with poop (not today though, no time for the clean up, but that's OK).
If it's one of the rare occasions when I go out in them, that leads to even more fun feelings. There's the nervousness of being discovered, the guilty pleasure of knowing what I'm doing and wondering what others would think if they knew, the occasional surges of humiliation and joy if somebody actually appears to have noticed, and this feeling that it's just me and my diapers vs. the world, like we're both out having a secret adventure together, knowing that when it's over and we're back home, we're going to remember every bit of this and have a wonderful time.
By now I'm completely into it, I'm a great big, diaper-wearing, baby in my wet diapers which almost seem to be alive. (This is the part that my wife--who doesn't understand fetishes--doesn't seem to get, but that's OK--the idea of being in love with / sexually attracted to an inanimate object.). After sitting here this way for a while, it's suddenly time to go "have sex" with my diapers, either I'll sit here and look at diaper pictures or lie down with the paci in my mouth and think about all of the fun I've had with them over the years until I get myself off and it's wonderful.
Then, into the diaper pail they go so that I can hopefully get them out later, put them back on me (by then they're REALLY smelly with wonderful intense wet diaper smells) and do it again. Then, like the feeling you get when you take your date home and get a goodnight kiss before saying 'goodbye', into the washer they go. After they're clean and dry it's back into the closet where they patiently wait until we can have our fun again!
So, that's a good idea of the wonderful feelings I have wearing diapers!