It has been a while since I have updated on my situation, and wanted to get some advice from the group.
In a nutshell:
In my first attempt to bring up the diaper desires, I think I went about it all the wrong way. I should have been more open and honest, instead of trying to directly hint at the subject and thinking that it would be all okay. In the last month or so, thing were a little rocky for a bit. I had to go out of town and was not as accessible as she wanted, which made her become worried that something nefarious was happening. (Which it was not! Just a business trip.) When I returned home, she started going through my emails and files and found of my "Spank Banks". She was hurt, but understood what it was all about and admitted to looking at porn on her own (Just never saving it). She said that to her it felt as though I was hiding something from her.
Which brings it all around! I am hiding something from her! While I haven't worn for over 7 months, I will not lie and say that I do not feel the urge often! Like, really often! I want to be open with her, but the last time I tried it blew up in my face. I really don't want that to happen again! But at the same time, I don't want to hide anything from my wife. I want to tell her about my desires to wear, and about the sexual attraction I have to women in diapers. I really want to get it off my chest. But I am soooooo scared of what it might bring.
So, do any of you have any advice? And please try to keep it positive! I know that so many of us have had bad outcomes and incidents; but my nerves are shoot with this. I really need positive encouragement right now.
I'm no dummy tough, I have no plans of saying ANYTHING through the holidays! That would be a stupid move! "Hey honey, did you get any eggnog? By the way, remember when I told you about diapers a year ago? Yeah? Well I f-ing love them!" That would be worse than the Griswalds!
Thanks guys!