Have you ever been touched in a sexual manner during a medical

I am curious as to whether anyone has been touched in a sexual manner by someone in a medical role. When I was in my mid 20s I had to go to the hospital for an abdominal xray that was in a low lighted room. I remember my surprise when four times during the xray procedure the xray technician's fingers would press down and move across my penis and testicles. I was so surprised that I froze up and didn't say a thing.

Absolutely not. With no exceptions, I have always been treated in a cold, entirely clinical and professional manner by every physician who has ever examined me. That being said, I have thought that a number of physician examiners have enjoyed the experience. I have sensed that they enjoyed seeing another guy with his pants down and getting to see the penis and scrotum. I am not suggesting that they are homosexuals but mainly enjoy the power situation of being in the authoritative role which enables them to order another guy to display his genitals. I did overhear a physician in a social situation remark that "I remember every penis I have ever seen." I have always suspected this to be the case, and, in fact, I actually hope it is true. If it is true that doctors remember what their patients' penises look like, it would greatly enhance the embarrassment of the exam. Honestly, if I was a doctor, I am sure I would remember every penis I saw.

First off. Thank you very much Exam Doc for confirming what I have always known. It's not a sexual rush. It's a power trip. However it is a form of sexual domination to be in a position of authority over patients when it comes to having the power to have the patient disrobe and have their privates touched at will.

I have been subjected to several dignity infringements that border on sexual misconduct. Once at age 19 I was literally tricked into a DRE (& he did literally jerk me off a bit--not figuritively) by a urologist for a small cosmetic concern. I have had to go into therapy over these boundary issues & the psycho therapist and rape counselor I am presently seeing tend to think that my experiences were, in fact, sexual misconduct committed by healthcare professionals. (I am inclined to disagree at this point, but they were crass dignity violations, something that all of us are expected to tolerate if we want treatment.

A problem arises when you have a conscientious patient who wanted to take an active role in his own healthcare, & the doctor, who's gravitated towards the profession because he likes being I'm the dominant role demands deferrence for deference sake, and is dismissive of the patients concerns & priorities. I encounter frequently. Will elaborate later.

I have to go to work and I will recount to incidents of inappropriate behavior tonight.

Okay,here goes. I am going to recount my first prostate exam, & a very bizarre experience. Nothing fabricated or embellished. I have to start with some psychosexual background.

I lost my virginity at age 10 to a gorgeous blond cousin of mine. In childhood we were joined at the hip since infancy. We were caught doing it & severely beaten by our sexaphobic parents. A few years later we started up again, but this time my cousin became repelled by the sight of my average size penis. She became a lesbian that instant & has remained so ever since. No other guys after me.

Shortly after that (approaching puberty) I noticed my erect penis curved to the left. Prior to that it had always seemed perfectly straight. I was worried something was terribly wrong, it certainly wasn't presentable. It certainly was an impediment to a relationship in HS,

along with having high standards, not being able to compete with my alpha male friends.

After HS I was in therapy, a near emotional cripple. I thought I had peyronies' disease. Finally I got around to describing the problem to my psychiatrist. He was livid at me. He yelled, "what you have is a 'normal variation'. In eighteen years of medical practice I only had one patient with peyronies' disease. Only an obsessive compulsive like yourself-who's hypercritical of himself & the world around him-- would even notice!"

The psych said he could prove his point by arranging to have my penis examined by a urologist. I agreed to his proposal, but I was certain the urologist would have a surgical solution to my grotesque deformity. The shrink set up an appointment with a reputable Boston Urologist named Mahoney (now deceased). ....to be continued

My first & last prostate exam part II.

My appointment was set for mid July '76. I was 19 years old. The day of my appointment I put on dress pants wanting to make a nice impression, even though it was over 90 degrees. I don't know why.

I drove to his office located right next to BU Music school. Right off the bat his young attractive assistant asked me for a urine sample. I didn't have the urge to go, was dehydrated, & it seemed incongruous that a urine sample would be indicated for a bent, but otherwise healthy penis, & I guessed right. (Not like my cock was rotting away from am STD.) The assistant was insistant and began begging me in front of every person in the waiting room. I found that distasteful (what a prissy prude I was) and I flat out said no.

The assistant brought me to a room and instructed me to strip completely down to my shorts & wait for the doctor. She left, I took everything off but my undies & socks.

Dr. Mahoney walked in, he was an old balding "square" (55-60) wearing a charcoal suit and a bow tie. He looked at me, complimented me on my physique, & said that I must play sports, what kind? I said no sports (my sports days were over by then, though I had naturally prominent pecs, skinny arms.) Not satisfied, he persisted, "you have to play sports" , and I denied it again. Finally just to shut him up & move on, I told him I lifted weights.

He began asking me questions, such as am I sexually active and having relations. My answer was that if I had been I wouldn't be there. He didn't understand that in the least & looked at me quizzically. (My shrimk had already spoken to him about it.) He then asked if I ejaculate regulalarly, I replied yes. Healthcare providers are pleased with patients who ejaculate. (Time to go to work, will finish tonight).

MY FIRST AND LAST PROSTATE EXAM PART III.

Then Dr. Mahoney listened to my heart, then he had me take down my underpants to my knees. He first asked me if I had ever been catheterized, & he added, "It doesn't hurt". (It was obvious both by looking at my torso & looking at my med-history that I hadn't had any surgeries & no reason to even suspect that I ever had a need for catheterization. He made it sound like catheterization was par for the course for every teenager--fun they're missing out on. Furthermore people tell me that IT HURTS LIKE HELL!!!

Dr. Mahoney then took this devise that injected tons of KY jelly into my uretha and it was painful & all the KY shot back out. He explained that at first my pee slit looked too small & narrow, but now that it had been pryed open it looked fine.

The urologist intimated or implied that he never encoumtered the problem of a man who didn't actually have Peyronies' Disease who had a complaint about a natural curvature. He then asked me to specifically describe how my penis looks and curves while erect. I did, then he asked me if I could get an erection in front of him. My response was defensive. I gave him an angry, authoritative & masculine look and said, "NO! And I wouldn't want to even if I could!". Keep in mind folks, I came from a very "meat 'n potatoes", blue-collar, homophobic New England culture. The question itself was unacceptable, crazy, what did he take me for?

Mahoney began examining my penis & testicles. Then in reckless disregard for my wishes, feelings & admonitions, he began stroking my penis along the nerve, trying to stimulate me sexually, then grabbing the base of the shaft and holding tight. Then there was a milking type of stroke (like a cow utter being milked by a farmer) then he alternated between tickle strokes, milking strokes, while grabbing the base of the shaft. He told me that he was trying to "simulate" an erection by forcing the flow of blood into the shaft & holding it. Simulate an erection? He was trying to induce an erection & it had the opposite effect, my penis was shrivelling up and retracting. All the blood he wanted to flow into my erectile tissue had flowed to my temples, my head was ready to explode in anger & shame. I only put up with that in the interest of winding up one step closer to having a straight penis.

After having to give up on giving me a hard-on, he asked, "Have you ever had a prostate exam?" And again he added, "It doesn't hurt!" (What reason at age 19, would I have needed for a prostate exam?Like all teenagers should do it for sport?)

I told him, "never, no prostate exam". Then he told me that he wanted to do the exam. Right off the bat my internal bullshit meter red-lined. As was the case with the urine sample not being indicated for what I came there for, common sence tells you that a prostate exam would yield no insight to why my penis was curved. The doctor then told me that seeing if my prostate was "symmetrical or asymmetrical" would help him asses the penis curvature, particularly since he didn't see it erect.

He instructed me to bend over the exam table. Then, as he inserted his gloved finger up my ass, he kept saying, "Push! Push! It felt like he had his whole fucking hand up my ass and was grasping my prostate with all 5 fingers, he lied about it not hurting. As he pulled his hand....., I mean finger out, I said, "Jesus Christ!" He asked me, "what's the matter? It didn't hurt did it?" I had too much pride to answer, "Yes! I said that it was embarrassing. He gave me that old ' no shame in the human body' crap.

I got dressed & saw him in his office. He concluded that my unwillingness to get an errection impeded his ability to make a clinical assessment. But the curvature that I described & had sketched on paper was probably a 'normal variation' and no cause for worry. Disappointed I asked wasn't there some kind of operation to straighten out my penis, & his response was a definitive no. Crestfallen, I asked Dr.Mahoney what possible technical explanation is there for a curved penis, even a 'normal variation'. His technical explanation was that penises come in all shapes and sizes, like hands, feet, arms & legs. I went home sore assed & empty handed, no insight no technical explaination. It did have a major effect on my sexual fantasies & intensifiedy contempt for doctors.

This used to be hard to talk about, but here goes.

Many people have asked me to write about this and so, I have agreed to do so. I have never really been into medical play/fetish etc. It evolved into what is now my obsession/fetish/kinks. As a young boy, I was molested by my pediatrician. I cannot recall memories to share with the community, because my brain blocked that part of my life out. All I recall is my pediatrician and her nurse slipping on non-powdered latex exam gloves and strapping me to the exam table after they locked the door and pulled the privacy curtain.

MY FIRST AND LAST PROSTATE EXAM PART IV

OK. In 1977, a year after that insane visit to that Boston urologist I did see a hard-core magazine showing people having sex, & a male having intercourse who had a curved penis like mine. There was some truth in what my shrink told me. But I wasn't 100% satisfied.

In the late 90's I revisited the issue with a urologist practicing in Southern New Hampshire, who's initials are R.T. He is one of the few doctors who I found professional, respectful & compassionate. I recounted to R. T. what happened at Dr. Mahoney's office 23 years prior. R. T. told me that:

A) Having a curved erect penis is a very common complaint. It's caused by the erectile tissue on one side being longer than the other. The penis has to curve in order for both sides to converge at a commom point. That explanation would have given me much needed insight 23 years prior (I guess patients are too stupid to deserve a technical explanation).

B) There IS a surgery to straighten a curved penis, it's the same one to correct Peyronie's disease! It's been around since the mid 60s, a decade prior to that 1976 visit with that prominant respected old perv in Boston, who claimed he had no knowledge of the surgery.(Had I not been lied to & known about the surgery, it might have been affordable in 70s dollars.

C) He told me that a urologist's protocol for dealing with the cosmetic complaint was to instruct the patient to take a Polaroid of the offending organ & bring it to the office, NOT JERKING OFF THE PATIENT TO MAKE HIM STIFF!!!!. There was a Polaroid camera in my 70s home.

D) The urologist then refers the patient to a specialist who does nothing but fix curved penises. He is advised that it's a cosmetic procedure not covered by insurance companies.

E) I told Dr. R. T. that Mahoney insisted on a prostate exam, saying that he needed to know how symmetrical the prostate is to make a diagnosis about the penis curvature. Dumbfounded, R. T. laughed out loud, & said prostate "symmetry" has nothimg to do with penis curvature, thus not appropriate. After laughing R. T. shrugged his shoulders & said, "well, doctors are human too".

In my opinion R. T. was one of the few urologists who truley acted professionally in the best interest of his patients. When a patient walked through his doors there was no assumption for the patient to have to give a urine sample, have a certain type of exam. He didn't have his secretary/ nurse take the patient to a room, instruct the patient to completely disrobe, & hang around and watch as he undresses & gets a cursory examination.(I once encountered this & will someday elaborate.)

Instead Dr. R. T. sits down and LISTENS TO HIS PATIENT. What a novel concept for a physician to fucking listen to his patient. Then he decides if a urine sample is indicated, or if an exam is needed. R. T. did confirm that urologists that invariably demand urine samples and protracted physical exams, regardless of the patient's reason for coming, are taking advantage of the deep pockets of insurance companies. Those who have no insurance are priced out of treatment altogether & sometimes die. I had 4 visits with Dr. R. T. Two were quick verbal consults, he charged $35. The other two were verbal w/a quick exam, those cost $45. Why can't all doctors take that type of common since approach?

MY FIRST AND LAST PROSTATE EXAM PART V final installmemt. (Subtitled: why I have utmost contempt for physicians.)

It was during that era in the late 90s, I had good health insurance, but had a lot of bad experiences with doctors. Also a few dignity violations & bizarre experiences with female health professionals.

I went into brief therapy (4 sessions) with a first rate psychologist. This time it was about boundary issues. I recounted in detail what happened at Mahoney's office. I asked my therapist if he thought it was sexual misconduct on the urologist's part. The psychologist replied, 'When the urologist complimented you on your physique that should'be been a red flag & you should've left"

His response is a surprise. The more I think about it I am inclined to believe that remark about my physique was a patronizing effort on the part of an old square to make small talk & gain the confidence of a young male. As for jerking me off and the prostate exam? He might have been clueless and as incompetent as he seemed, & just clutching at straws to help.

I do think that urologists might be more inclined to be closeted gays than in other professions. My greatest passion in life is for Mahler symphonies & Puccini operas, & that attracted me to orchestral conducting (not active now). What type of profession would attract someone with a commensurate passion for dinks, balls & assholes?

I do know that Mahoney's actions were indefensible, even though he might have been well intentioned. He made a mockery of his profession, himself & me that day. I kinda wish I could go back & do it over. I wouldn't dress up. I'd wear my skimpiest cutoffs, & shave ALL my body hair. He set the ground rules, & in the same spirit of making a mockery of the doctor/patient relartionship, I'd go to his office looking like "cho-mo" bait. At age 19 I was cute & looked 16. I'd come to his office acting even more naive & gullible than I really was. I'd also be far more compliant to his request to get a hard-on! After all doctor knows best, & who am I to question his authority

At I think I was about 19 had a pain in my groin went to see the family doctor.He had me lie down drop my pants and he felt about my groin than to my surprise he held my penis squeezing it at first then he stopped feeling my groin and started talking to me all the time holding my penis,then he started moving his hand up and down my now hard penis.He stopped and told me to get dressed acting as everything was normal.I still do not know the reason this happened a long time ago.

Nope never......thankfully!!!

Never in a real medical setting.

Never

I think the "worst" I ever got was as a child. And it would have amounted to being stripped off and kept naked for perhaps longer than was strictly necessary for exam reasons. The doctors could easily pass it off as "inspecting the child for gait/posture" and since there was never any "inappropriate" touching, there was no real harm done.

No, all goes pretty well.

It was not unusual for a doctor to examine testicles on young boys, to make sure both were decended into the scrotum. There was nothing sexual in that. Much later during military pre-induction physicals, we had to bend over and spread our own butt cheeks wide for Dr. Squint to check for irregularities. Not sexual either. So answer is No!

Yes. My doctor was doing a prostate exam and my dick got hard. The doctor said "Mmmmm, what's this?" and squeezed it very lightly. We kissed and had sex in the exam room. We saw each frequently after that in my apartment. Our little fling lasted more than a year and I look back on it with great fondness.