I’ve noticed that a lot of people here grew up receiving enemas/suppositories/thermometers from parents. I NEVER had an enema or a suppository in my entire life. I had no idea such practices were so common! Go figure...
Mom gave me a rectal thermometer once and I didn’t like it at all. It just felt wrong, like this little stick stuck where it didn’t belong.
When Id go to the pediatrician, I despised it when he made me stand there and then he spread my cheeks to stare at my anus. Why did he have to do that?? It made me very uncomfortable EVERY TIME.
Now we get to the point where things change. (I mentioned this incident in another discussion but it bears repeating here) I was 7 and this 13 year old kid with mental deficits across the street lured me into his house. He took me to his basement and then ordered me to pull my pants down which got me very scared, but I did as i was told. Then he made me lie face down on a cot and proceeded to spread my cheeks apart and lick and smell my anus. I had no sexual identity yet, I didn’t know what was going on, I think I remember thinking that it was some kind of touchy-feely game like “Doctor” or something. Either way, I was scared of him so I just laid there staring at the wall, especially since he kept telling me not to look.
Then he pulled away and my anus felt wet and cool, and it was at that point when my “switch” for appreciating anal stimulation got turned on because his tongue felt warm and pleasant and the puffs of air coming from his nose against my cheeks also felt warm and comforting. A warm submissive sense of surrender grew in the pit of my stomach for the first time.
Eventually he straddled me and I remember feeling the fat head of his penis pressing against my anus but I was just too tight. If he had used real lube instead of saliva, he might have been more successful. He settled on just sliding his penis up and down my ass crack until he came and I was confused because I heard him grunting and I thought his cum was urine and that he was peeing all over my anus and cheeks. Then he got off me and told me to pull up my pants, go home, and not tell anyone. Once again, I did as I was told and by a miracle nobody ever found out.
Ever since then, my anus was a focal point for pleasuring myself. Hair brush handles, toothbrush handles, bananas, cucumbers, even a golf ball all found their way up my ass.
Anal sex became an absolute requirement in all my (straight) porn, and I just HAD to indulge in some anal play with the woman that I was having sex with. If she submitted to anal sex, that was the ultimate prize.
It took me decades to make peace with what happened to me (it only happened once), and as fucked up as it was, I can’t help but be kind of happy that I’m in touch with my body in a way that so many people just aren’t. Unfortunately it came as a result of molestation, but I think I’ve done ok for myself in spite of it, and I know that many other people have gone through similar experiences that have contributed to their preferences for anal stimulation.