I have one or two fuzzy memories from childhood, maybe age 5 or 6, of my Mom seeming annoyed or inconvenienced at needing to give me an enema. This was kind of distressing because normally she seemed indifferent or matter-of-fact, but not annoyed. I never got an enema as any sort of "punishment", I don't mean annoyed in that context, but they still felt like a punishment because I think my mom lacked finesse or skill with them and so they hurt a lot. Or maybe I was just overly sensitive.
In one very vivid memory, I remember hearing that I was getting one (she was always trading enema and family constipation details with my aunt by phone, particularly about me, my sibs and cousins), but this time she kept putting it off. I didn't get it right after she hung up the phone with my aunt. She even let me go outside to play with my friends. I didn't get it before dinner or immediately after, either. After dinner was cleaned up, my brothers and I went into the family room to watch TV. I still hadn't gotten the dreaded thing (they weren't pleasant for me at all) and I thought I had gotten some sort of reprieve.
Let me admit upfront that I do remember being constipated a lot when I was little. My mother did try various, less unpleasant methods to help. But, none of these other things (prunes, applesauce, prune juice, spoonfulls of nasty mineral oil, etc.) worked very well with me. I always ended up getting an enema any way, either from my mom or from the nurse at the doctor's office.
I could hear my parents murmuring to each other as my brother and I watched the original Batman and suddenly my Dad said loudly, "Well, why didn't you give her the enema yet?" He said it in a booming, irritated voice to my mother, which was unusual. I shrank into the couch cushions because I was totally mortified and it was obvious they were talking about me since I was the only other child-age 'she' in the house at that time.
She got pissed at him then and shot back, "Ok. Tom, I will" or something like that and she got up and went into the bathroom and started banging things around noisily and made a production (or so it seemed) of getting it ready. I really felt scared and upset then because I didn't like the enemas to begin with.
They hurt and embarrassed me and made me feel badly in general and all I could think was now my mom was mad at my father, and me, and I was shortly going to be over her knee trying not to cry again from the cramps (my aunt and mom were into the large, "3H" bag enemas) and trying not to leak.
My Dad would never have been anywhere near the bathroom when one of his daughter's was in it, but I wanted to ask him to come in with me. I remember looking at him when she called my name, and wishing he knew that I was scared, and that he would see my fear and intercede and say I didn't have to go to her. But, he didn't. When he saw me standing there looking at him, waiting for him to rescue me, he instead said, "Go on. You heard your mother."
We did not back-talk to my father. It just wasn't done back then, not in our house. He absolutely never hit us, but Dad was the law, the final word. He could veto anything my Mom said, but he rarely did when it came to the kids. My brothers and I would sometimes back-talk to my mom, but never to my Dad.
"But, Daddy, I, I don't want...” I started to say, but he cut me off.
Instead of rescuing me, he took my chin in his hand and made me look at him.
"Right now, honey", he said, using his 'there-is-no-discussion-about-this', no-nonsense voice. I wanted to burst into tears, but my brothers were watching, so I just blinked the tears back.
"Yes, Daddy," was all I could say, head down, like a silent, brooding penitent’s. I slowly headed toward my mother’s aggravated and irritable voice.
Things are so confusing, so deeply puzzling, when you’re a kid. I have no memory of what happened after leaving the family room and my Dad’s firm gaze, but I shudder to this day just thinking about that night.
Has something similar ever happened to any one else? Any input as to what may have been going on between my parents that night? They have both passed away now, which is irrelevant anyway, because I would never have been able to ask about it.
I would rather have dropped dead in my tracks, than say that word in front of my Mom, especially if it concerned me getting one.