What experiences did you have as a male that caused you to be submissive?

I never intended to submit. I was stressed and remembered learning self-hypnosis back in college. I found some hypnosis videos on YouTube and enjoyed them. Discovered erotic-hypnosis videos. Some of those were fun. But mostly just used hypnosis to manage stress. Then I watched an eye fixation hypnosis. I couldn’t look away and fell deep. At the end they hypnotist said to hit play and watch again. All I could do was obey. I watched it again and again. Each time She said watch again I watched again. Over and over. I don’t know how many times I watched that video that night. But I had to obey. I discovered my submissive nature that night and have been trying to understand it ever since.

It is pretty easy to remember how I became Submissive and Bi -sexual roughly about same time 3-4 years difference .It was a Friend of my Parents who actually brought me into the submissive lifestyle .She worked with my mother for 15 years at same place until her husband got very sick and past away (in his early 40's very young) I had just got out of High school and was still living at home ( parents lived in country) They actually told me to check in on Their friend since lost her husband in city if needed help etc. when there .(they had no children) So I had stopped in on a Friday eve after work to see if needed any thing done with house .She said was going to call make appt for someone to was 2nd floor windows ,told her I would do but too late now.So told me to stay over and then not have to drive 45 mins back home then back next day..

So after supper took shower and when came out of shower there was only 1 hand towel to use to dry .I dried off best I could and made a dash to spare bedroom .when in bedroom all my clothes were gone ,I yelled out and asked what she had done with my clothes ,well she walked out of her bedroom fully clothed and said well since my husband has gone I miss him so much and of course I miss alot of other things . (She my now in mid 40's as my parents)Said if you want your clothes well you will have to do just as my husband did ,do everything I say whenever I say it .That includes from washing dishes to laundry to especially my sexual likes and demands.By the looks of that tent your making with that hand towel in front of your crotch it seems it is not going to be much of a problem.

The first she had me do was go to her bedroom and wait at end of her bed hands on my head (was totally embarrassed as this my parents friend) I had this wicked erection ,nowhere to hide .She came in told me to place my hands on bed palms down spread my legs shoulder length.She changed into a long night shirt took off her panties threw them between my palms and placed a belt,paddle thing with holes in it made of wood ,and a riding crop .From then on she would use one of the 3 to discipline me ,she had me perform oral sex on her,she would use dildo's etc. Being young and Horny and getting sex as often as I went over there well that became beginning of how became submissive.Not to mention into enemas which I was given and gave to her,Golden Showers she taught me to swallow .

I became Bi at age 12 a friend of mine was a year older ,so it started when sleep overs we would masturbate ,then started to do it to each other .Then from there we would arm wrestle and who ever lost had to give winner Blow Job (not swallow) then it just went to not arm wrestling just Oral sex,then anal sex ,this went on for ages 12 to 14/15 .Then first Full-time job met another guy into it by chance so if/when could not get a girl/date and horny would go to one another apartment . Then got married for 28 years (23 married) did not fool around .Separated then Divorced over 10 years back to going both ways and enjoy fully .

My brother was very strong willed and I think that has made me a little sub