To go or not to go?

I little help here; my older sister came by my house yesterday. She came by to tell me that our dad in in the final days of life and would I like to see him before he passes. (And yes she saw my rocking horse in my living room). She didn’t say anything about it. Ok a little history. I was born a boy big mistake nothing about me said boy. I would wear girl’s clothes all the time well as often as i could, got beat more than once for that. I was a bed wetter and my dad did the same for that. Remember this was back in the 60s and sissy gay boy didn’t do very well. Both my parents made me go to doctors even spent some time in a hospital in my teens. Well the long and short when I turned 18 my dad bought me a suit case nice right. No it was so I could pack my sissy f## a## up and get out. My mom never said a word, and out on the street I went. I have seen my dad only once since that time it was at my sister wedding and he didn’t know who I was. I can with my first daddy and yes as a female. To be truthful my first daddy was more a real father to me and when he passed I was devastated his kid which where all older than me hated me but he left me money so I could complete my operation and care for myself as well as the house I live in today. So do you think I should go see my “real dad” before he passes? The only request my sister asked me is to dress more my age. Kind of tick me off when she said that. I didn’t ask her to come to my house and I dress the way I want to in my house.

PS my mom has Alzheimer

Wow annnie sad story sorry to hear it. We as a group cannot answer your question. I am sure all feel different about this situation. I would say go but i am sure others would say screw him and his thoughts. But He is your dad and i am assuming your father. His views of things was that like others back in the day. Dont make them right but the gay community has come a long way since then. Now its a little more acceptable to see or hear. Crossdressing ? same thing here. So i say go and see him and show him your alive and doing well and living your life the way you think it should be. As far as your sister goes.......Well i cannot swear on here but i would dress the way you want and if she says anything about it just look at her and say kindly go "F" yourself sis.

Toddler_annie, my heart goes out to you. Whatever your decision, I sincerely hope it brings peace of mind and resting of the soul for you.

Just thought I would update you all. Well after chatting with my dada he told me I should go. I went shopping for an adult sun dress that way it was still young and fresh but it would be adult enough for those there.

Drove 4 hours to get to my parent’s home, as I pulled up flash backs of my life as a teen flooded back. The street was full of cars. I was so nervous and to top it off I need to change just what I need at that moment. My older sister open the door and asked me in. she said that I looked nice and add very age appropriate. My dad’s brother and his wife were there, as Kathy introduced me to everyone. You could hear a pin drop in the living room, as everyone did there niceties. I went back to see my father. In the room sat my mom and my father laying in a hospital bed with the sides up. My mom didn’t know me but that was not surprising since she had Alzheimer. My father just looked at me; Kathy told him that it was Andrew remember I told you that he is a woman now. He looked away and pulled his hand out of my. I just stood there like an idiot think nothing had changed. I so want to make a scene; pull my dress up and say see we both where diapers now, But I didn’t I acted my age. I just got my bag and left the little house of horrors, as my sister kept apologized for him. Funny this time I left on my own and it felt great. I guess that’s closer.

He did pass Sunday I hope where ever he goes he is judged like he judged me.

Well annie i am truely sorry it turned out the way it did. But now that he is gone maybe you can move on in life without shame or fear of dads approval anymore. Truely i am sorry though buddy. That sucks. Have a hugg from me. You always have us to talk to if you ever need it . My line on here is always open and welcomes anyone who need just a shoulder to cry on or complain too. And i never judge others or anything that happend to them. Its your business , im just the shoulder or ear to tell is all. Again hope your ok in life now and can move on. being a pretty young baby girl like you know you are.