Getting older

Hi kiddies. This is a little something i have noticed about myself the past few years id say now.

I have become less embarrassed about buying diapers in public. Not that i dont have my times here n there. Like a couple of weeks ago when i ran into a old friend of mine at a grocery store while diapered thickly.

But im talking in just general. Am i getting braver in life or just not caring who sees me as much? Im not sure which it is. Like a few weeks ago when i ran out of diapers and went to buy some more. I get into the store and pick what i want (store brand seeing mail order would be coming soon) And walk up to the checkout lane. No hiding my diapers from others or turning red in the face. I even had a little convo with a few ladies (one the checkout girl and one a customer talking to her). Now here i am talking about i forget what and im holding my bag of diapers in hand. Not a care in the world who sees it or what they might think. We talked for a few minutes when i finally left the store.

But like i said i just noticed this the other day about how either brave or uncaring i have been the past few years about buying or using or wearing in public i have been. Now dont get me wrong i dont want to be seen with a huge diaper bulge in my shorts or pants only to be laughed at or ridculed about. But i just seem to be able to shut allot of it out of my mind if someone does notice (not all but most).

The funny part is when i had to wear these things 24-7 i hated to be caught or seen buying them or wearing them in public. I became a hermit of sorts and rarely ever went out of the house. Now that i wear for fun and partial need (night time accidents) It just doesnt seem to bother me who sees me buying or wearing them . Now there are a few exceptions like a couple of weeks ago , But i am talking strangers for the most part. People i dont know or have never seen or met. Its like the past few years that i have grown smart about who notices my diapers ( most dont) and if they do notice they usallly dont care or seem to think its ok that i am in them.

Ahh well not sure what it is about them lately but it just seemed weird to me was all, about how much i just dont care anymore who knows or who sees or is it bravery?.

I think some of my shyness has worn off in this case too, as I have gotten older, yes! I don't fear going in to buy such things, not nearly as much. But, there still can be some butterflies inside when I do. That's okay though, then I know it's still a charge to do it too. It can be fun as well as embarrassing.

I went to buy some disposable diapers from my local mobility store last week and while I was there also bought plastic pants and disposable incontinence bed pads and while there got into a conversation with the assistant who asked me if the items were from myself to which I replied yes,when I asked for the plastic pants I had to show her exactly which ones I needed because she was new.while in the shop I was diapered and this itself was exciting as was my conversation with the assistant about the kind of diapers and bed pads I wanted.I told her I needed the bed pads because I was going to stay in the hotel and didn't want any problems over a wet bed.this is the first time I have said they were for me and not someone else and it felt liberating.

As I get older I get bothered less by people knowing I'm still in diapers & plastic panties. It is what I choose to wear for undies.

Getting older does make it easier for two reasons. First, there is less anxiety since it becomes a regular part of our routine, and secondly, the older you get, the greater the likelihood the store cashier or assistant will sum it up as medical issues and not give it a second thought.

However, if it's a cute guy in the store, it's still a turn-on so forget the anxiety!

I think it is normal to become more brave over time, as one recognizes that the vast majority of the people in public does not really care. It was the same for me. At first I did't have the courage to go outside but now I've no problem with it at all.

I'm still quite shy about buying. Hopefully one day I will feel able to buy in a public place and not care 😄

I think all of us are haunted by middle-school memories of being laughed at and teased for being different in some way, and the older I get, the more I realize that now is a different time and those old memories are irrelevant to today. We're all adults (well, at least most of us are) and we realize that needing something like a diaper is no longer a far-fetched thing.

I remember buying them in a Walgreen's once and as I left, I noticed that the lady behind me, who was probably about five or ten years my senior, was also buying a pair. I could tell that she was fairly self-conscious, but I felt a certain kinship with her over the fact that we both were buying similar "embarassing" items.

As a teen I was embarassed buying my diapers but now I get a thrill buying them in front of strangers.