Cyclical interest

Sometimes my interest and desire in all of this is cyclical. Suddenly I am struck with a need for it, and it occupies my thoughts. Right now it seems an overwhelming need. Unsure of what triggers it, but it is tied in with a desire for pain, a desire for toys, a desire for enema, desire to push limits and somehow find what seems just outside of reach, outside of view. Not knowing quite what I need, but NEEDING it. Everything seems tied together. The mood will last for months. It is all tied around enemas however.

Other days my interest is "take it or leave it", however if I start to think about it I swing heavily to taking and the desire to give myself one. Time is often a factor. Sometimes guilt of a catholic upbringing ties in there as well. Sometimes if I push myself to take it swings into the whole strong interest and desire once again, where it occupies...

Does anyone else find that they swing like this?

What you describe is very common.

Common doesn't make it any less frustrating when suddenly faced with an overpowering need and desire... and not quite understanding what it is that I need.

It is simple really.

Sometimes you need it and it is overpowering, sometimes you don't. Sometimes it can be frustrating. Sometimes you'll walk around with a wet crotch and no time to deal with it.

That's very common. You don't have to understand it. It's just how it is. You aren't alone.

Being Catholic is a problem. (I DO NOT mean this as a religious put down. Religion and submissiveness has been discussed elsewhere on this website.) Catholics can have a lot of guilt drilled into them growing up, and as has been posted here before, Catholics make great submissives!

Yes, time can be a factor. You can't always spend hours on enemas and masturbating during the day when you have a house to run and children to take care of. I relate to that. We're probably similar in age.

I can go days, sometimes weeks without any great desire. Then, all of a sudden I MUST give myself one. And usually one is only the beginning. Then for days on end I seem to crave being filled.

It's like food or any other hobby. I had the utmost urgent priority to hang up the bag and water down... other days, I'm just too lazy to get in the bath tub and shower. Might have something to do with the alignment of the moon and stars!

I always find that I do more Enemas when the moon is full, and for a few days before

as well as after. I always feel better afterward.

The moon will be full Monday, so ........

Dan

Even as a young guy with no shortage of libido, this happens to me, very noticeably. I wonder if some perception of novelty is involved in psychological processes relating to sexual interest.

I am the same way as M13608. I can go months without the need or desire for my favorite treatment, but when the urge does hit me, I crave it and have an insatiable need to be filled up - over and over again for days. Giving is another story. I'm always open to that!

If I'm not stressed by any particular set of events, my interest in enemas is pretty consistent. I find if I go quite a while without giving myself a good enema (I'm strictly solo, because the wife has zero interest), then I begin thinking more and more about doing a good enema.......like tonight. It had probably been close to a month since I had pleasured myself with a good enema, so I finally decided to do a couple this evening.

My desire seems to wax and wain over a period of weeks to months, however I'm always ready to help our a girl in distress.

Every person I've heard of who experiences a cyclic passion for enemas is a female, so far. This puzzles me. My interest is pretty constant, but I know one lady who will go for months without, then take several a day for 2 weeks or more. There is another female here who has a cycle that closely approximates her menstrual cycle. Sometime during the month she will take 6-8 a DAY, then revert back to her usual 2-3 times a week. That makes me wonder if this is related to hormonal variations that happen within women.

I can go for weeks without some H2E time. Then something triggers a real need in me. If I have the leisure to do so, I can spend the better part of a day - or two - or more - playing.

I am a complex individual - as are we all. Mommy Dearest introduced me to the red bag, from which I fled - literally and figuratively - for many years. About the tine I started to play with the red bag (though I buried the memory until fifty years later) I was orally and anally raped by priests. More conflict: it felt good, but it was so wrong!

I guess that I don't want to be grown-up, since it was grown-ups that invaded me. Mommy was a conflicted individual just 'doing what what the doctor' ordered' back in the 40's and 50's. As to the priests.... well, just look at the news.

What happened, happened.

My H2E was for a long time a source of great confusion and conflict, still is to some extent. But what happened did happen. And now I am my own person. The enemas are a complex matter for me, BUTT they are adventure, release, relaxation, and fun. If not, I would not be on this site. Someday I may figure out what the triggers are. For now, though, I just go with the flow.....

I do not find my passion for enemas nor sex will ever be cyclical. Whenever I am not busy (which is most times), and I am alone, I will do a series. I enjoy the relaxed, comfortable feeling I get after taking a series, and I also find great sexual pleasure from1or 2. I am a woman also. I don't think it is hormones either. I had a hysterectomy when I was 26 due to anemia and length of cycle..

OK,

I have had a few glasses of red wine. (good for the hear!)

The fit is on me now. The bathroom is prepared: tandem bags ready to be filled. May start with SSE or just go straight to salt and soda. May use the inflatable nozzle, at this point not sure. Sitting here with an Aneros plug in my butt.

I feel that, for me anyway, it is about surrender, vulnerability, being taken care of. Just looked again at the pics in male enema pictures by one of the stalwarts/ I am psyched.

Going to do it and enjoy it,whatever "it" turns out to be.

Nite.....

I've found my enema practices to be cyclical. I've gone for months without an enema and then, all of a sudden, I'll go several weeks with multiple enemas nearly every day.

This is definitely the case for me too. Since I have a lot of different fetish interests I tend to jump around a lot over time between each of them.

I think life is very much like a sine wave, we all have our peaks and valleys! My interest in having an enema session tends to wax and wane based on what I have going on in my life. Enemas are something to be savored and not rushed. So, when I'm incredibly busy, the time doesn't present itself and neither does my desire. But when I can get a break, the urge is back and the need for that quiet time with my bag becomes almost an obsession!

We must listen to our body and "soul" , we may not ignore what they ask and what they need.

Sometimes the human is not mature enough to agree with himself, and also is not mature enough to tell to the lover I need this or that,

if not ready to explain, describe a such need, certainly not ready to hear such request form the other.

Can be one of our major problems.

Thank you Arthur. Very well said. A little off the subject, how do you tell your mate? This is what I need and since you do not see any need. What to say next and still keep your head? Retired military, my way or the highway.

Yes. I feel for those who cannot recognize or cannot speak of or cannot get what they need.

My own approach is that if I love someone I give them what they need and want to the extent that I can do so without damaging myself.

I let people know that they are safe with me, that there is no judgment here, and that my focus is on them.

I do understand the blockages that keep us from recognizing or requesting what we want and need.

e-chuck

If I'm flying solo, my interest is definitely cyclical. If I'm with a partner who is receptive, I never get tired of pleasuring her.

For me it is cyclical according to the stress I am under at the time.

I suffer from combat PTSD and find that enemas are really therapeutic for my stress. When my wife gives me an enema(s) I go into a really comfortable headspace. It calms me for hours after.

However, sometimes the demons totally turn me off enemas or play of any kind. I always hope for the good stress to be quenched with enemas.