Howdy.
I don't know where else to post this, so I'll post it here. If there is an already-existing thread, I'll be happy to go there. Here's the question:
Is anybody else conflicted about his or her love of enemas or anal play versus "vanilla' sex?
If so, how did that happen? And how are you coping / have you coped with it?
Has it affected your orientation at all?
Has it affected your enjoyment of sex in general?
Is there a real conflict between anal and genital sex?
I am asking because I was given enemas by mom and hated her for them but still got turned on by them. I think the wiring was there at infancy, but I was not able to process the experience. I seemed to be stuck at anal play level for waay too long.
Turns out that being stuck there was probably not because of Mommy Dearest but because I was anally (and otherwise) raped by priests while still in grade school. I buried that memory, though, and had no one to 'blame' but mom.
So, conflict.
Working through it on my own. Looking for ideas from members of this site.
By the way, been tossing around all day whether to take an enema series or not. Probably will. It is strangely like a comfort blanket for me. And exciting, thrilling, and - well, wonderful.... But confusing.
Maybe I'm just Gay.
Thanks,
EnemaChuck