My girlfriend and I have been dating about a year. She introduced me to enemas. She loves to give men enemas. At first, I was very reluctant and I took a lot of convincing. She pushed and pushed until I finally gave in.I found the the first one extremely embarassing which I discovered is what really turns her on about the whole thing - the embarassment of the guy getting the enema.For a while, this worked out fine. For a good six months I found the whole thing embarassing - especially her being there for the evacuation which of course she insists on. The smells and sounds embarassed me a lot - also because I am always naked and she is fully dressed during these sessions.But now that I am adjusted, I don't get too embarassed any more. I mean she's given me like 100 enemas.What I get out of this is how turned on she gets and at first, I got the best sex of my life after she gave me an enema. But, since my embarassment is what turned her on so much, she isn't as turned on now that I am over the embarassment.Her ultimate fantasy is to have another person watch or help her give me an enema. She knows I am a very modest person and that I would be totally embarassed by having anyone else there while I am getting an enema. This would turn her on big time, I know.And I would get the awesome sex afterwards. I am very nervous though and not sure I can do it. She of course, keeps pushing and pushing like she did about the first enema.I am wondering what others think. Would it be too degrading to have an audience? Are there limits i should get her to agree to? Should I do it if I am not comfortable just to get hot sex later? Has anyone else ever had an audience? My most important question though is this: Am I in an abusive relationship? Is my girlfriend disturbed?