Absolutely terrified!
If I was facing a real surgical procedure, I would have one of two feelings.
If the procedure was simple, and done under local or regional, I could handle it. I’ve done locals, and blocks. I know what they feel like.
But, if I was faced with general anesthesia, or even something as simple as conscious sedation, it would be frightening.
I can tell you why. The medical industry is filled with idiots. I would be absolutely convinced that I would die!
But, the medical play that I do has helped me in some ways.
For decades, I was scared of injections. I had no tetanus shots, ever. I had teeth filled without a block.
But, as a result of doing injections, I can deal with it now. I allowed the dentist to do dental blocks. I sat there, with a hand mirror and watched, as he placed the liquid in several areas.
I overcame my fear, by doing them to myself, first. I can sit here, and slowly push a 22-gauge needle through my skin, and while it hurts a bit, I can handle it now. I will let select girls do injections too. Or rather, sticks. Empty syringe, no plunger. Pretty hard to screw that up.
Fortunately, most are happy to receive, and not give.
Also, being on the receptive end has made me much more respectful for the girls that allow me to inject them.
I won’t turn you into a pincushion!
If you don’t like it, and you don’t get a kinky sense of nervous excitement from being injected, then I won’t do it to you. End of subject. No whining, or trying to cajole her into it.
And, if you are that 1-in-20 that will let me do injections in your cheeks, I will do it easy and make it very erotic for you. Little, easy needles, and not all that many. No stinging plain water shots! Nothing that hurts, or is uncomfortable!
I think that I am so frightened of actual surgery because I know what is involved. Neuromuscular agents. Look that up, and see what they do. It’ll frighten anybody!
Being with a female physician helps a lot for me, too. I feel a lot more comfortable, because I let girls play with me. The truth is, I really don’t like being touched by men. I compete with men, for the better things in life. I don’t bond with them. My dentist is male, and I sat there and watched him pull out a decayed tooth, and place a crown on another one. But, if some man thinks he’s going to do prostate exams, or injections, or even a hernia check, he’s delusional!