Honestly I am too and so is Doc. From what I have read it seems that most, especially you men like to revert back to about 4 or 5 years old. I wonder if thats because for most people thats when they really have solid memories of their youth and probably for the first time were able to understand a little of what was happening to them but not necesarily why, which for a child would make an experience like that a little scary and memorable. Also is a time often in a kids life when tonsils came out and could also mean being away from mommy and daddy for the first time over night. I don't know, just a few thoughts.
Now for me the age I like to revert back to is 12 or 13. And this is actually my ultimate fantasy that has yet to be fulfilled. At the time when Doc and I first started playing, back in our days when we used to play, and when we were first starting to explore age play, he had a daughter right around this same age. So I think it was a little to creepy and close to home for him to want to be a doctor to a girl of this age. I didn't push the issue with him because it was obvious he wasn't comfortable with it. We don't play anymore so the following fantasy will sadly never be fulfilled. But here iit is.
I would be a 12 year old girl going to a "big" girls doctors appointment for the first time and all by my self, also for the first time. I am nervous and a bit afraid. I am instructed to take all of my clothes off and put the gown on then wait for the doctor to come in. He does. He isn't a new doctor, I have been going to him most of my life, so he is a familure face and I like him. I have no idea what really is in store for me. All I know is that I started my period last month and mom told me it was time for me to have my first "big" girl appointment.
So he sits down on his stool and talks to me about school and what not. Asks me if I have any pain or other issues. Then he brings up the fact that he knows I started my period and talks to me about that. This is highly embarrassing to me on so many different levels. So he explains my period to me and all that entails. Then he tells me that he is going to start the exam.
Without going into all the nitty gritty details of my exam fantasy, he performs my exam. And he is very throuough and he talks to me in detail about what he is doing, why he is doing it and what he is looking for every step of the way. He tells me he is going to do a breast exam. No one has ever seen my boobies before. This was very embarrassing. But the good doctor explained to me that my embarrassment was normal and reminded me that he has seen me before. I had to tell him that they were not flat anymore and that they are different now. He said he understood. He had to tell me a few times to just relax and open my gown. I was a good girl for my doctor, but it was still hard.
Well then moving forward through the abdominal exam and what not he sat back down on his stool and started talking to me about what he was going to have to do next. My face was beat red. No way was I going to let a boy see me down there. Then he started telling me that he was going to stick fingers down there and the he pulled out this thing that he called a speculum or something like that. But wait, it gets even better, then he said he was going to have to stick his finger in my bottom. I think at this point I got mad because I flat out told him he wasn't going to do that. Well, he stood up from his stool and he got very stern with me. He made himself very clear as to who was in charge, and it wasn't me.
I also won't go into details about how the exam proceeded, but again he was very exact on his exam, he went slowly. He had to reassure me multiple times and he had to get stern with me on several occasions again as well. I didn't want to spread my legs for him when he tried to help me put my feet in those stirrups. That was most embarrassing. I mean, he was looking right at my vagina and he was talking to me about my vagina, oy vey. Then when it came time for him to put his finger in my bottom, I sat back up and closed my legs. He had to get stern with me again. He had to do a lot of talking and being very stern with me on that one.
When he was done with that I sat back up. I was so embarrassed. This man just looked at me down there and put his fingers inside of my vagina and bottom, which both hurt a little bit. I have never had anything down there before. Then he told me that he wanted to talk to me about sex. Sex? I have only heard about sex. He had to have realized that I was a virgin still right? After all, he got very up close and personal with my naughty bits. So my doctor talked to me about sex and what it might feel like my first time and what to expect. He said I might bleed down there. How scary is that? Gosh. I am not sure i ever want to do that. He told me that was normal and that my feelings someday would change. I am not so sure I believe him or not.
Then he told me that he would be back in a few minutes and to think about my exam and to think back if had any questions or other concerns I wanted to discuss with him. I asked hm if I could get dressed while he was gone and he told me no. Okay, I just figured that he thought I would not be able to get dressed in the short amount of time he would be gone. He left and I thought about my exam. I couldn' think of any questions or concerns I had.
When he came back hed a tray in his hand covered with a towel. He put the tray down on the counter and stood by the table. He then told me that the last time he had to do what he was about to do to me I was bad, so bad in fact that my mom had to spank me and even then I was a handful. I still didn't understand what he was talking about, what he was going to do to me. Then he said, "now Mashie, I have to give you 4 shots". Okay now I knew and that memory of the last shots when I was six came rushing back.
I started to tear up and was afraid. I tried to get out of them and came up with the best and quickest excuse as to why I couldn't get them. I told him that I had softball tryouts the next day and couldn't have my arms sore. He promised me that my arms would not be sore at all. I asked him how he could promise me that and that's when he told me that he was going to put them all in my bottom. Well now he had gone too far. No way no how was I going to let hm give me 4 shots in my bottom. And I told him that too, right to his face. That didn't go as well as I wanted it to either. And if I had thought he was really stern with me before, well he now was very stern. He told me that if I was going to act like a child he was going to treat me like one. He wasn't going to spank me was he? Is that what he meant by that? He can't spank me, or can he? Naw.
Then he told me to roll over on my belly. He had to physically help me because I wasn't doing it very well and was being sort of bad. And again I won't go into all the details about my 4 shots but they sure did hurt. The whole exam was so over the top embarrassing and painful off and on during the entire thing. But those shots were horrible and him getting mean to me also was embarrassing, but it also made me a little bit mad. I will never be able to look at my doctor again. And I have made up my mind. I don't ever want anyone looking at my hoo-ha or sticking their fingers in there or in my bottom again.
So that is just sort of a basic outline of a fantasy I have had for a long time. I hope I didn't bore you to death. Sometimes I ramble, lol.
Mashie