Doctors appt.

S accepting today had Dr's. appt. for a ultrasound on legs(history of bloodclots)

the technician sort of froze when she used the pickup on my groin and had to push aside my diaper

i told her i wore due to incontinence as the result of a spinal cord injury from before she was born (1984)

i also told her it was just a diaper so just push it aside to do what she needed (she was by then treating me like i was fragile or like a very old person)

after i told her not to worry that i had lost my Modesty about wearing diapers because it was a fact of life for me a long time ago she relaxed some then after she finished she told me that when she dealed with some of the older patients the were easily offended when she discovered they had to wear diapers

i then told her that the first thing you not only lose your Modesty and most lose there dignity after having a nurse clean you up after your first bowel movement. And the ones who say that wearing diapers is humiliating that they live in a make believe perfect world.

You get over it because you usually start life wearing diapers and end up the same way when you die

i don't think she ever had someone be as frank with her and as accepting about life and how you must live after a major injury

Very nice talk with her. Hopefully she will be more at ease with the next person. I was at my docs yesterday. Got my swine flu shot and pnumonia shot. I have a physical in jan. I asked her if shes going to check for hernia and yes she said. I said ok ill wear a pull on diaper then. No big deal that will be easyer for you she said.