Vct quoted below in #52:
After dealing with depression/ mental illness most of my life and having many psychiatric hospital stays, I have no fond feelings about any of it. I had ECT in 2018, unfortunately it didn’t help and also left me with memory loss.
Just my thoughts...
Perhaps time for another perspective or reality check similar to Vct. In real life, despite having successfully been a practicing physician for years, I've had a similar experience to Vct, but luckily with only two short inpatient admissions for ECT many years ago. Now as many here know, like many here I have a number of kinks or fetishes, among others enemas, D/s and and mild bondage. My exes and I, both switches, took advantage of these with extremely enjoyable results when she would act Domme and give me large, long submissive enemas mixed with our other kinks. In that role, acting as her sub, and also when we switched roles, we both experienced the enjoyment of being consensually controlled, tied down, large enemas "forced" into us while wearing restrictive rubber suits. In short, we enjoyed, very privately, our sexual kinks and the arousal and orgasms that went with them. But the keys are consensual, private and enjoyment.
Having known and felt the excitement, arousal and satisfaction of such kinks, I'd reiterate and agree again with Vct above in that I have no fond feelings about either of my ECT hospital admissions. Actually and emphatically quite the opposite. I absolutely detested not the ECT which was done completely anesthetized, but those admissions themselves, even though voluntary. You must understand the complete and utter difference in mindsets between truly enjoying a submissive kink or fetish compared to a real medical/psychiatric admission where you have no control, however voluntary it may have been. In the instance of your fetish, you are briefly controlled by your consenting Dom(me) and "forced" to submit to whatever you've agreed to let them do to you, thoroughly enjoying yourself emotionally and sexually. However, in the other instance, being in the hospital, despite you enjoying your fetish for submission or control or bondage or e-stim or enemas or whatever you like at home, at least in my own experience, there is no such enjoyment of being confined, controlled or having things (ECT) done to you or taken away from you. My only constant desire during those admissions, other than better food, was to stop feeling the way I did and get the hell out of there ASAP.
Obviously I thoroughly enjoy playing with my kinks for sexual and emotional satisfaction, especially with a partner, and I strongly believe to each their own, but I must tell you that for me, the idea of enjoying a fetish for psychiatric confinement and/or ECT is incomprehensible.
Eric