I'm very new to this whole thing and very curious.When I had my last baby (4 years ago) it was a very traumatic delivery. I ended up with some pretty major damage down there. To this day, I still am brought to tears nearly every time I try to have a bowel movement, so I end up holding it which makes me more constipated which leads to me holding it longer.... it's a viscious cycle.While trying to find ways to help myself (Dr.'s say there really isn't anything else they can do on their end)I came across lots of stuff re:enemas. Strangely (at least in my mind) it turned me on. I have no desire to do one on myself, but I have a VERY strong desire to do one on my husband. I find myself getting VERY turned on by the whole process of GIVING him the enema, however, I have no desire to watch/hear/smell him expell it. I have no clue where to even begin this little adventure! An suggestions?