Last week I received and gave my first golden shower.
For me, nothing is as simple as black and white. I only wish it were that simple, lol. For me, there is usually some hidden psychological deeper meaning in the things I do, and this is no different.
I wanted to give and receive a golden shower, not for the mere fact that it is kinky, which it is, but honestly, wanting both didn't have anything to do with kink, or being kinky.
It quite simply was for me, about ownership on both sides. Allowing someone to pee on me is not something I thought about, or did lightly. Heavens no.
For him, it was a pretty hard limit, both giving and receiving. Until pretty recently we were both of the mind set that, you don't pee on people, gross, that's why there are toilets. But when I came at it from a different angle, one with the concept of ownership, and of allowing something we had been so head set against our entire lives, it became almost like a gift, an honor to the other.
Make sense? Probably not, but it works for us. LOL