My first thorough testicular exam was from the pediatrician when I was a young teenager. I was very surprised by how rough and thorough the doctor was with me. Previously at my annual physicals, the doctor would just pull up the waistband of my underwear and look at my genitals; the only touching was a quick grope (to check that both testicles were descended, I suppose), and a tug on my foreskin. But this time, I remember the doctor reaching his hand down my pants and suddenly grabbing my testicles hard. It was waaaay to rough for my comfort at the time. I felt him grabbing at my tight scrotum until he could get his fingers all the way behind each my testicle, then push it back and forth between his two hands. The weird thing was that it was so overwhelming and intense that the discomfort felt “delocolized”, such that I couldn’t tell whether he was working on my right or my left testicle. Then the doctor would tell me that he was “almost done”, before moving on to me other testicle.
For the rest of my teenage years, every subsequent exam was equally thorough. It felt so weird / vulnerable knowing that there was nothing I could do…that I could only lay there and wait for the exam to be over. I think he would feel each of my testicles for 30 seconds or so, but at the time it felt like a lot longer. At the time, I couldn’t wait for it to be over…but then after the appointment, I would obsessively replay the whole exam and fantaisize about what happened. This was probably what started my medical fetish; part of me craved that loss of control I felt when the doctor examined me.
I was and still am overly sensitive to having my genitals touched compared to most males, I think. I used to go to my physicals together with my two younger brothers, and neither of them seemed as sensitive or resistant. They would just lay there perfectly still as the doctor examined their genitals. I was always surprised that they seemed no more distressed at getting a genital exam than getting their ear/nose/throat exam. Meanwhile with me, as soon as the doctor reached his hands down my pants, I would lose it—I would be gasping and squirming uncontrollably. The doctor would try to make small talk to take my mind off what was happening, but I was so overwhelmed that I could only manage to give one-word responses in a quaky voice. I remember feeling so embarrassed because it was defiantly obvious to my brothers/parents that I was distressed and uncomfortable. The genital exam was done with my underwear on, so at most all anyone could see was the tip of my penis poking out the front of my underwear—but it was still embarrassing that everyone could see me squirming under the doctor’s touch. Even though I was so resistant, the doctor was nice and patient with me. He never scolded me for squirming…he would just remind me to relax and breath.
Having played with two other men over the years, it's clear that as an adult my testicles (and genitals in general) are more sensitive than most males'. I think part of the reason is that I have an autism spectrum disorder; this makes it so that I'm easily overwhelmed by physical touch. This makes things awkward whenever I have to get examined by a new doctor for the first time. I usually tell them that "I'm just weird about people touching me", so that they don't think I'm in pain or that something is wrong with me. Still, I like being this way. It makes my experience of these routine exams really intense, and I bet it will be fun for a play-doctor to examine me when I finally set up an "appointment" with one, hopefully in the near future.