Would you describe yourself as bi or as lesbian or...?
*I would describe myself as bisexual at this point in my life.
How old were you when you first discovered that you find girls/women sexual attractive?
*Not an easy question. My first same sex encounters started in childhood. I've always thought women were more attractive than men. Don't get me wrong, a well-built man is eye candy but given my druthers I'd rather look at a naked woman. I think we're prettier. While I never had fantasies about any of my friends, the couple of times we snuck into pornographic movies, I was turned on by the lesbian scenes - although I did the 'ew gross' along with the rest of the girls, I wasn't going 'ew gross' inside, I was getting wet. I figured there was something wrong with me and pushed it down.
Did you do some kind of doctor play with your female friends in your childhood? If so, at what age?
*yes with a female cousin from 7 or 8 until 12
Old old were you at your real first time with a female lover?
*I was 40 and it was after I separated from my husband and was in the middle of a divorce. She was a classmate (I was going to school to finish my degree) and she seduced me. It was wonderful.
Your first female lover, was she older or younger than you or almost the same age?
*About 10 years younger than me.
Was she experienced?
*Yes. She had most recently been the 3rd in a polyamorous relationship.
How would you describe her, was she the more femine type or more androgynous in her appearance?
*Feminine.
Would you mind to give us some details of our first time exerience?
*We were friends and a part of me knew she found me attractive. I knew she was bi, she was very open about it. We had been talking about my starting to date and I was saying I wasn't ready for it, she suggested that we go out on a 'date' to break the ice. We went to dinner and a movie and went back to my apartment to have a drink. She leaned in and kissed me and I responded.
How does it happened?
*See above
Did you seduce her oder did she seduce you?
*See above
Was one of you or were both shaved or bushy at that time?
*She was shaved, I had a landing strip
What did you do together?
*We did a lot of kissing, got naked, fingered each other and she went down on me. I didn't go down on her that first time.
Was it a good experience for you or not?
*Do you mean 'did I cum'? Yes, several times. She was quite skilled.
Any remorse or regret afterwards?
*Tons. Lots of guilt as my divorce wasn't final and guilt that I had a homosexual encounter. Didn't stop me from doing it a few more times with her, but yes I felt guilty.
Did you ever talk before or shortly after your first time with someone else of your sexual desire for females?
*no
If so, what was their reaction to it?
After your first time, did you repeat it with her? Was it better than the first time?
*we were together for a couple of months. Yes we repeated it and it got better. Eventually I went down on her and realized I didn't hate it.
Was it just a sexual encounter or did you start a kind of relationship with her?
*More than sex, less than a relationship. She wound up in a relationship with a guy as did I and our thing just sort of ended.
If so, how long did it last? Was it a secret relationship?
*about 3 months and the sexual part was secret I guess. We didn't talk about that part with others anyway.
After your first time, did you have later sexual eperiences with other girls/women?
*Not for about 10 years