About 15 years ago I started losing control of my legs and chest plus some lose of diaphragm . Followed by first bladder then later anal incontinence .
This took years to happen , It was so slow in happening there was no thought of going to a doctor . It's just old age , or bad living catching up to me . Control the bladder with a diaper , control anal with constipation . It gets to be second nature . You don't even have to think about it . It's friday afternoon a shower and a shower shot and sit on the commode with a book and wait . Two or three enemas later good for a week .
Now that I have moved on to needing a catheter ,,,,, A large catheter ,,,, and a 30cc balloon that alone causes major constipation all on it's own .
Ad that to now being in a nursing home , so no enemas just ducalast soupo's and a mess that takes two or three nurses to clean up .
I pray for the miracle that will let me move back out on my own with just one or two nurses to help me once in a while ..... What would I give for even the illusion of caring for myself .