Please reply honestly

Dear everyone

I feel that I've been treated well by all except a few

In this place

I have tried so hard to reach out and I don't know I guess the word would be tell you how horribly anxious I am

About my overwhelming I'm serious overwhelming every single day every single hour

About being dressed as a as a girl when I was a boy

And all I want is that people who respond to my different attempts to ask questions and present my desire to understand it anyone there anyone out there knows how I feel

Well I just replied to someone that I hoped upon hope would have report to my post in a way that would be at least supportive if not collaborative. Instead I received a reply that was absolutely return to me perhaps a half dozen times in the past

As if it was to Ward me off as a mosquito or a bug to say that oh I completely understand and I accept and yeah right and

When you open and personal message and you see that on your screen that there's one message there you're thinking to yourself oh my God somebody I can connect with somebody that I I can hold

I just wish to be ignored rather than have people feed me with some stereotypical or mad or I'm not sure what they're calling them these days but a way to just get rid of me

And I'm really not trying to be us slobbering old man here, but I am 69 I just moved out of a nursing home yesterday because I was running out of money and I find myself in an apartment in a very distant and different place

And again don't do a pity party but I am scared to death I just don't know the next few days and I have to take an Uber to see my doctor etc etc now I really sound like a wimp and I'm not but I just wish somebody would tell me that everything will be okay and I'm sorry to put all these words to someone that might actually have spent or wasted their time reading them I love all of you Jamie

I didn't poop a sentence here I just am exasperated and just out of I'm just out of steam

Proof

I am not sure what you are looking for but they are people here that you could communicate with. There are all sort of people here. When I joined many years ago, I didn’t realize all the different people that come here. We all have bumps and detours in our journey of like. I ran into one almost two years ago and that is stage 4 rectal cancer. Honestly, I don’t know where life is going to take me. I live one day at a time.

I hope what you find what you want, but not sure it’s honesty.

Hello Jamie

I have read a few of your post and as you are most likely aware that what you experienced as a child was not the norm even in that time. The clothing you wore was a through back to the past even in that time. A quick google search indicates that the practice of dressing boys in dresses stopped in the early 1900s. If you take early to be as late as 1925 you can safely say the vast majority of the people have past away as they would be over 100 years old. So looking for people who can relate to your upbring and finding them on this site is like looking for a albino unicorn. The rare of the rare.

I am going to suggest that instead of looking for people that can relate to you. You may try looking at topic and discussion that you can relate to other on. Use them to build a connection and find common ground with them. This will increase your chances and also allow you to enjoy other discussions. I may suggest you wander over to the age play and diaper fetisishm area. Being forced to be dressed as a little girl is a common theme in these areas and you may find folks that can relate in a different way to you.

With regards to your living situation; I understand that going from being in a place where you were well supported to living on your own can be very scary. All I can suggest is you reach out to social services to see what they can do for you. I am not sure if you made friends in the nursing home of not. If you did there is no rule saying you can't go back and visit them.

I wish you the best of luck but I too am one of the many who can not relate to or understand what it was like for you to grow up. I tend to look at thing with a bit of dark humor and I don't think that is what you are looking for.

Cheers

Weewetone

Thank you for your very heart felt advice. I guess i am too selfish and self concerned.

I just thought that maybe this would be a place that might attract the 1-2 who have similar experiences.

i will reach out beyond my little walled-off self.

Since i became handicapped and confined to a wheelchair 3.5 years ago, i find myself

changed and more introspective, especially now living alone.

But this has also given me an opportunity to order two custom made outfits.

I hope when they arrive, well that could really boost my ....my enthusiasm ??!!!

My Best

Jamie