The times when I put myself in a position where a girl might discover that I am wearing diapers and rubber pants always makes me feel extremely scared, aroused, and excited in anticipation that I will either be humiliated or reassured and in my experience its about 50/50. I was in my late 20's when I first started dating while wearing diapers and rubber pants. I thought I would at least try to find out if I could meet a girl who would like me even though I enjoy wearing diapers and wetting them. I met a young lady at a party and we seemed to get along well and had a good time so I invited out for a date the following weekend for dinner. I put on diapers and rubber pants under my clothes and picked her up at her apartment. She had no idea of course that I was wearing diapers. The evening went great, we had a good time at dinner and we were both attracted to the other. All the while, I was going potty in my diaper off and on throughout dinner. After dinner I took her back to her apartment, walked to her door and we talked some, I reached over to her and gave her a hug and we kissed. I felt myself becoming extremely aroused and scared at the same time, afraid she would soon discover my diapers and because I was so anxious and fearful, I stopped kissing her, smiled and asked if we go out again. She said she would love to and we made a date for the following weekend. During the week we talked the phone a few times, and got along well. So the following weekend I diapered up again, picked her up and our plan was to have dinner and then dancing.
This time I felt really scared she would discover my secret, and wet myself even more than before during our dinner and by the end was very aroused but determined to go ahead and see what happens. So we went to a club to go dancing and by then I could feel my diapers and rubber pants starting to droop from going potty so many times, but we took to the dance floor and did our thing to music until a slow tune played and we started to dance together holding each other close. She felt so sexy, her boobs against my chest and my pee-pee getting hard against my diapers, our cheeks touching each other, and then I felt her hand on my back and I was about to faint from excitement until her hand reached my diaper covered bottom. Her hand began to push against my diapers, and then feel all around until she stopped dancing, pulled back from me, looked me in the eye, and asked what I had on under my pants. I started to stammer, looked away, and slowly told her I was wearing diapers and rubber pants. She asked if I was incontinent and needed diapers. I told her I was not, but had wet my bed until I was 17 and felt more comfortable and confident wearing diapers and rubber pants. So she asked “you mean you like to wear diapers like a baby? Do you use them for anything?” I replied “I mostly potty in them.” She then asked “what do you mean ‘mostly’ Do you shit in them too?” I replied “well not very often.” The next words out her mouth were “God you are gross. I want to go home now.” And with that I emptied my bladder into my diapers and could feel pee starting to trickle down my leg. I said nothing, but took her home. I knew that by time we arrived at her place my pants were soaked, as well as my car seat. She told me not to bother to get out or to ever call her again but as she left she commented “I suppose you wet your diapers all the time we were together didn't you?” She closed the door, left and I stayed in my car and started to rub myself over my diaper.
I was not deterred by my first experience and over the years I had some success and some failures. But I kept trying until I found a girl who is now my fiancee. I told her early in our relationship and she accepted all of me, diapers and rubber pants included.