Diapered Dreams

Recently I have found myself having more and more re-occuring dreams of wearing diapers/nappies or being back as an infant/toddler.

When I dream of myself as a toddler I can smell the pampers scent and baby lotion powder and even my clean clothing as in the laundry clean scent

And can even at times hear nursary rymes being played or spoken to me in the background, and see myself in my nursary/bed room as it was in 1981~1985.

In most of these dreams I am wearing diapers or am laying down in my cott/crib, although sometimes in my dream I am as an adult

or often times I see myself as a adult baby and other times this, can be even from the perspective of another person looking at my younger self.

I do wear diapers/nappies from time to time in real Life as you know, however when I am dreaming I have a deeper connection with my subconscious mind.

I was wondering if anyone else has vivid dreams of wearing diapers/nappies and if so why?

Because I have never been turned on by the fact I wear them or has any desires of another kind although in my dreams sometimes they are pleasant but sometimes nightmares as I do have one or two of those

Still to this day, as I still suffer from a degree of ptsd from being the victims of bullying as I have mentioned before.

Anyway these are just some questions going through my mind as I have awoken from another dream, apnd thought I would post this whilst it was still freshly vivid in my head as I forget otherwise.

Ps: sorry for the occasional spelling errors, as I was still sleepy when I was writing this coment.

It is common for me to dream that I am wearing diapers. So far, all good. The problem is that I have to hide it from people, because I'm wearing just my diapers and rubber pants (always rubber pants in those dreams) and sometimes a t-shirt too.

I think that the root of those dreams is based on some episodes during my life.

When I was around 4 years old, one night when I was already in bed diapered, someone rang the doorbell. There where a family friend (couple and three child around my age, two of them a little older). My mother got my sister and me out of bed and dressed us to join the group, and obviously she did it over my diapers —against my wishes, which of course I claimed—. I spent the whole night under a table. I didn't want to walk around, just to hide my diapers.

Another time, when I was around 28, my cousin arrived at my home one night when I was already in bed and diapered, and my sister (who was my roommate at the time) invited him to my room. Of course I was diapered under my sheets. There were a few minutes. I told him that I had to wake up very early in the morning, and he lived my room and joined my sister in the living room. I was very nervous the whole time.

The last one, when I was around 30, some Saturday crossed my street to buy cigarettes (in a big city), and met 3 friends from my town. I was diapered, and we spent some minutes chatting on the sidewalk. Very nervous, again. It was rainy and I was wearing a coat.

I don't wear diapers very often, contrary to what it seems.