Your feelings when you lay exposing your butt

When I was playing the excitement, anticipation would come over me then he would spread my cheeks & that light breeze would hit my tight hole then he would lube up my rectum with his finger(s)& insert the thermometer deep inside me while massaging my clit…good times 😈🍑🌡️

Many years ago I had a perianal cyst lanced. Had to go back several times so they could pack the incision with cotton to promote healing from the inside out. Each time the nurse taped my butt cheeks open for better access. The first time I felt awkward, after that I just bit the bullet knowing it would hurt like hell!

I am trying to steady my breathing and slow my heart rate but all i can think about is how exposed i feel. The cool air against my anus and most importantly the embarrassing and uncomfortable examination i am about to endure hanging over my head.