Update...
I am getting braver, let me set the scene for you.
I lay on my back with my breasts
and body exposed to the sun as I fill with salt water from my red open top bag. My thoughts wander throughout the day and how I came to be laying here.
I wake early every day and head to work, I am lucky to watched the sun rise and set daily. This day I knew that as the sun was rising that the temperature would be rising as well. By the time I arrived home it was 90 degrees and not a cloud in the sky.
I prepare myself by doing a quick enema in my bathroom. I fill the bag with hot water and am searching for the sweet cramps that follow. My body was ready and accepted the whole bag in less than a few minutes. The pressure builds and I can't hold it anymore. Forcefully expelling and excited for what is to come.
I already have a cup of salt water ready to add to the next fill up. This time however I do not want cramps. I use warm water and the salt to help with retention. My bag is full and I walk through my house and out my back door to my big field of sun. I make this walk wearing a smile on my face and nothing else. With my big red bag and a blanket I open the door to the world and am welcomed by the sounds of chirping. The robin's are chasing eachother and bluejays are singing a tune. I feel the wind in my hair as I walk barefoot through my woods.
I have already set the stage and attach my bag overhead to something I rigged up. Lay the blanket down and then I release a little water from the tube of the enema bag. The water is perfect and so I slide the tube between my cheeks and into me. I open the clasp a little so I have a slow flow and lay down on my back with my body exposed to the world and soak up the sun.
A timer is set on my phone for 10 minutes and I close my eyes. I want to enjoy and remember every bit of this experience. Listening to the birds play around me my focus is redirected to the water entering my body and the sun warming my skin. It is nothing I have ever experienced. As the water enters me I can feel the change of temperatures. The sun is warming my skin as I experience that sweet sensation of a tan coming on.
I open my eyes after few minutes because it does not feel like the water is flowing and to my surprise the bag is empty. The alarm goes off and I can't believe that ten minutes has passed by. I am determined to tan evenly so I set a timer and flip over. Face down and the water is sloshing inside me.
Returning to the appreciation of the day and I feel blessed to have experiences like this in my life. For me an enema is a daily routine. It makes me feel whole as a women and less of a mixed matched person. Being transgender comes with alot of acceptance and understanding that my body doesn't match my soul.
I have a wonderful person who accepts and loves me. She encourages and supports me in all my endeavors, also she pleases me like the women I am and this brings me immense pleasure. On my stomach laying there exposed to the world I remember my journey and how I have come to this place of peace in my mind.
The timer goes off and I know the time has come. Squirming to my feet I shuffle carefully to a spot and brace myself against a tree. I spread my legs, arch my hips and let the sweet release overcome my senses. The water rushes out and I watch my belly flatten as I empty.
Feeling extremely satisfied I head inside with my bag, blanket and a smile on my face. The sounds of the woods thanking me for the show. Will this happen again? Most likely..