When I give myself an enema I talk myself through it.
You know you need an enema Linda, now stop fussing and do it. Get the bag and fill it up.
Make it soapy just like when mom fixed your enema. Now pants off …. right off.
You're going to get an enema now, Linda. Yes, a good enema. A soapy warm enema up your bottom.
Look at the nozzle. You know what's going to happen don't you? That's right it's going to give you the enema. Enema … enema … enema … all that soapy water going waaaay up and filling you up.
That's enough Vaseline, stop stalling, time to insert. Legs apart, bend a little forward … reach back … slide it in …. now open the clamp …
Alright, now lift the bag. Up it goes, let the enema flow. ….. yes …. ooooh …. that's a good girl … take it … take it … you know you need this so take it ….. yes, lift the bag higher … up it goes …. the enema is going to fill you up …. way up so it works …. breathe deep ….. relax …. let it fill you up …. clip it off, let the cramp pass … okay time to start again … I know you don't want it but you need this Linda and you need it all, don't you? …. alright then, open the clamp and lift the bag …. enema … enema … you're getting an enema …
That's it …. take it all … be a good girl and take it all …. I know you feel full but you need to take more …. yes more …. you don't don't want a spanking too do you? … take it all or mommy will have to spank … spank … spank …. spank …. there, the bag is empty.
Now you need to hold it. ….. hold it …. let the enema do its work …. hold it ….. be a good girl and hold it for mommy.
There will be appropriate moans and groans and likely a little rub to distract my attention from how full I'm feeling.
Most of my self talk will play in my head. Some will be said out loud in a quiet but intense voice.
My self talk is encouragement and, obviously, some role playing. Often it is mom giving me an enema again. Sometimes my husband. Sometimes a few others. Mostly I enjoy an enema and how good it makes me feel and part of this is talking my way through it and often reliving days gone by.
I wonder what others are thinking, saying to themselves, when it's give yourself an enema time?