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I've been diapered at all times for about 5 days. I've learned a few things about my own boundaries I'm fine with wearing one diaper at all times well powdered and I'm using ointment on most every change which is doing my skin a lot of good. I only really seem to feel the lose of control in my room.I excuse myself and go upstairs and when I hit the thresh hold It starts to dribble or gush. I'm embarrassed about my accident the other day, woke up because I was wetting myself horrified I tried to stop it was very hard.. I finished in the toilet but the damage was done I had to put a new sheet down and put on a diaper, I grumbled not really wanted to be in a diaper that moment,,, I woke up dry but remained in them, having been in 3. That day I wet shopping I got a diuretic and a laxative, as well as stool softeners and sleeping pills. I got these with a package of adult diapers and groaned as all the cashiers were male.... I played it cool but the woman in front of me needed a price check and it took 5 minutes people would stand behind me then go to another line.... my purchase sticking out like a sore thumb in my mind I tried to pretend it wasn't for me, but the 3 diapers and the waddle might have been a give away... I hadn't intended on the humiliating circumstance but I dealt with it cvery calmly I needed a second package and when I got to the next store they had a brand with velcro straps, I got these and had to stand in a long line. When I finally got home I had everything, the ointment the wipes the powder and a full bladder and a strong rumble, the laxative was kicking in for sure.
I needed several changes, drinking bottles of water and feeling sleepy because of the medication I remember being knocked unconscious suddenly... hand still on the mouse I was on my belly.I was groggy and slow to get up but realized I'd leaked out of the top of my nappy. I was disappointed .. 'bad girly' I thought. needed change and a change. I put a plastic sheet on the bed and wrapped it again. irremediably falling asleep again I woke up dry this time. for the next few days taking alternating medications and emptying myself completely.The stool softeners and the almost liquid diet like a paste that if relaxed would come right out, I'd actually messed my diapers involuntarily a few times now... and the toilet was still off limits, I had not even sat on a toilet in 5 days... every time I got near it a feeling like 'doctor daddy' is going to walk in of course this is impossible but still I shamefully hovered over my messy nappy to finish voiding my bowels, I would bag each diaper in a produce bag from the store, and the smell was non existant.
I noticed it happen my bladder needed to void suddenly and I never stopped it, it tingled as I kept myself relaxed and it poured out hot and I cringed at the slight sting as well as the feeling of what might come, full incontinence would be quite intimidating. Involuntary temporary incontinence seemed like a some what fascinating prospect. My mind was foggy and no one knew I was diapered, I swayed and bobbed as the sleeping pills felt stronger, vision bluring and making typing hard.
I yawned again and puffed on my wooden pipe. No one knew under calm and brave exterior i was horrified I was having cramps forcing my bowels to strain for what seemed like forever, it was about an hour later when it pushed it's self into the back of my padded pants. I waited for it to finish before changing, even then my stomache rumbled for another few hours. When I sat down again my fingers felt like they were detached bobbing down to push the keys I could barely feel it and they kept going.
Time for bed diaper girly...
I am putting myself to bed now. I may update later